Summer's Point of View
Summer really hits different. I feel like I'm burning up because of the sun. I didn't have the chance to confront Kyle as i remember that today is my scheduled to visit my psychiatrist. I would also go to the hospital for sedatives as it gets a lot of pain in my body.
"Where are you going?" Jake asked as we're eating the rice soup made by his mom. His mom also glance at me, knowing the answer.
"I'm still not yet done with the errands of Aunt Sonia" I said and also glance at his mom signaling her to add made up things.
"Ah, yes. Your Aunt seems to be a busy person" I was so relieved when she got the signal that I gave her.
"Okay, drink some water, always put on sunscreen and always take your umbrella with you. I won't confront Kyle and Fiona unless you're here with me" He said. I smiled and nodded at him.
After I ate, I went to the house to take a bath. I think Kyle and Fiona was still sleeping. That made me mad at myself, I feel like I failed to protect Fiona.
I booked a motor cab to get me to the psychiatrist. Her office is closer to the house but i would definitely ride car after that.
"I have slight memories of my parents, I have a few memories about my life. I don't know what's my proudest moment or anything. I only have a few memories about what I have done in my life to be honest" I said. She just nodded, having a conclusion in her mind.
"Your parents died at an early age, right? It was an accident that's why we got to know each other. Your Aunt Sonia told me that you've locked yourself, not wanting people to get in" She said.
"Yes, I was fourteen when we first met each other. I've got a sharp memory with people so why don't I haven't had a sharp memory with my parents?" I aksed.
"Can you tell what specific memory you still have in your head?" She asked calmly.
"With my dad, when he taught me how to ride a bike and his few lessons when we went to bed. With my mom, when she tucked us in bed. I don't remember any specific memory that I've got with my sister" I said and looked down, embarrassed.
"That was normal, Summerie. You're suffering from dissociative amnesia caused by the emotional traumatic events but it isn't general it's just thematic which is just in a certain specific area" She stated.
After that I went to the hospital and got my sedatives to reduce the pain. The good thing in this hospital was they didn't let me be confined but just advised me to live my life to the fullest.
Aunt Sonia called me so I stayed in the bathroom of the hospital. I got scared answering the call because they might know that I'm in the hospital.
"Summer, how's it going with the house?" She asked me as soon as I answered her call.
"Everything's fine, Aunt Sonia. You would be back in one week, right?" I responded.
"Yes, how's Fiona there? Is she alright?" She asked again.
"Yeah, Fiona's alright here" I said. I remember what happened yesterday and I just got furious.
"That's great. Can I talk to her? I would say something to her, "she said. That made me scared so i look left and right in this cubicle to find the answer.
I panicked when I couldn't think of the solution so I just quickly ended the call and sent her a message saying "Fiona's not here, Aunt. She was running errands somewhere.
"God, I hope it's enough to be bought as an excuse," I said and went out of the cubicle. I washed my hands and I saw someone staring at me. She doesn't seem familiar to me so I got scared.
"God's not real, why are you praying to him?" She said and laughed. This is awkward as I really believe in God.
"I'm so sorry, we have a lot of beliefs about religions. I can respect yours so i hope you respect mine" I said and get tissue to dry my wet hands.
"What do you beg at him for? You're also sick like us, you have an illness that couldn't be cured even if you ask God for a miracle, "she said. That just brought me to something.
"But this is what I really asked for. This is what I begged for him" I said that made her shocked.
"What?" She stuttered. I smirked.
"I am not really afraid to die. I'm more afraid of bad people tricking people just like Satan" I said. I was going to leave the bathroom but she just grabbed my hand and made me face her once more.
"Take that back!" She shouted.
"No, I won't just like you proudly saying what you just said. Ma'am, you don't know people so change your perspective as you might go to a more terrific place you don't deserve" I said.
That's what I am more terrified and scared of. Going to hell instead of resting. I was tired of this world and I don't want to be in a place where I won't get to rest. That would be too much for me even when I'm thinking of it.
But I think only he has the capability to know what place I should deserve. But he was fair and reasonable enough, as I knew.
I went home really tired. It was my first time going to places that needed to commute. I also communicated with people who let me have a stand for a long time. I was really thankful that I didn't get manipulated by it as I got second thoughts about it.. I don't know the times that i cough due to pollution. The people really kill the world slowly.
And when i went home, Kyle was still here together with Fiona and Jake on the other hand looking like a father stopping himself from nagging his brat children.
"Hi? Uh," I awkwardly approach and I see the intense glare of Fiona.
"So, you were making out last night, right? What have you done, Kyle?" Jake started. I almost forgot about the confrontation.
"Nothing, it was just a make-out and after that i tucked her to bed because she was drunk" Jake explains himself. What was the loud moan then?
"What were the moans that I heard then?" I asked. The anger was boiling up from the thought that they were lying.
"It's not a moan!" Fiona shouted. And because I was getting angry, I lash out too.
"I know what a moan, Fiona. I'm not someone who was just born yesterday! You're just a seventeen year old making out and doing inappropriate things with someone who would be nineteen this year!" That made her chuckle.
"I really can't believe what you just said. That made me hate you even more!" She shouted and left. Why? What did I say?
"Summer, her birthday is actually yesterday. She celebrated her debut yesterday at the bar and it wasn't a moan, it was a cry. She cried yesterday because of you" Kyle said. What? I don't know that.
Of course, I wouldn't know that. I was still feeling angry but not for her anymore, it was for me. I always forget about my loved ones. When I see Jake's staring at me, I feel defeated by my thoughts. That he would somehow be hurt by what I would do.
I went outside. I want some fresh air, I want to just lock myself out because I know if I go out I would just hurt people. I was just capable of harming people. I saw Jake following me, running hard so that made me run more until I was weak enough and just closed my eyes.
I saw my mom and dad at the playground, swinging themselves. They looked happy as they saw me approaching.
"Mom? Dad? I've missed you guys so much" I said and hugged them. I was so tired of this world that I needed to rest.
"Honey, Fiona would be hurt if you leave the world unannounced to her. She's your idol. I know it's hard for you but it would be more hard for her and for your loved ones" She said.
"We love you and we would just stay here and patiently wait for you like he patiently waits for you" My dad said. I was confused that i looked at what he's pointing at.
Jake was looking at me. Patiently waiting for me and smiling. I smiled back and went near him as I hugged him tightly. I promised to live my life to the fullest with him by my side.