Summer's Point of View
It was Sunday. Third week of the month. Time really flies fast. Sunday, Jake and I were in the church to attend a mass. I'm also going to get my fifth plan before I die.
And it is to make a flower pot for the flowers. Jake told me that he knows someone who creates and has knowledge on pots. After this mass, we would go home first to leave Sunday in the hand of Yola and go to the pottery shop.
"Amen" We said and bowed down as the mass ended. We're just at the door of the church because we are on Sunday.
"Let's eat first, shall we?" Jake. I nodded and we went to the nearby fast food chain.
Jake was the one who ordered our meal and I was the one who took care of Sunday. I'm more relieved that this fast food is a more pet friendly restaurant. They acquire dogs to come inside but with someone who would take care of it.
After we ate, we went to our house to leave Sunday as my plan is. Yola is there busy planting. Yola is one of the plant lovers in the house. As we were going to the pottery shop, Jake held my hand.
"Why?" I ask him. He glanced at me and smiled. "Nothing. I just want to cherish every moment" He responded, which made me smiled.
The drive was so long that I fell asleep and Jake woke me up when we were there.. He firstly greets his friend whom I think was the one who also runs the business by the outfit. I greet and bowed to him when Jake introduced me to him.
"We would like to make a pot for the flowers, Sean," Jake said. Sean welcomes and guides us to the entrance of his shop.
I was astonished by the amazing craft works of his. He had a lot of crafting other than pots. He revealed that he mostly create plate and bowls but he knows how to make pots.
He later teaches us how to create one. We had to laugh at how messy Jake looks. I enjoy it and like it immediately as I want this to be my hobby.
Then after an hour of making pots we finally finished creating one. We cleaned ourselves and Jake paid for the expenses and brought the pot that we made in the car. Sean invites us to drink coffee and eat here for dinner.
"I was really surprised when I saw Jake with a girl like wow" Sean said while serving the coffee to us. I laughed at that because that's the same as his mother and his brother have told me.
"Do I really look like someone who wouldn't pull any girl?" Jake asks jokingly. Sean shook his head because of that.
"No, it's not like you can't pull any girls because there's a lot of girls who had a crush on you but you're really not interested in getting them" Sean explains.
"How long do you and Jake know each other, Sean?" I asked. Sean looks at the sky thinking. They looks like they've known each other for a decade already with the bond.
"Hmm, high school buddies. Ever since high school we've been friends, wow" Sean said and even had a surprised face like his genuinely surprised.
It's truly surprising though. Someone had your back since high school but what's more shocking is that he's the same age as me so how the heck did he pull off this shop in his early age? I feel so worthless.
"Wow, so we're the same age. How do you build this shop? I think this shop is really old" I asked. He was really successful at his age.
"Oh, this shop was handed to me by my father who retired. This was a coffee shop back then but with my pottery hobby I decided to change things" He said. Wow, so people know their path when theya re still young.
"I was getting jealous, Summer," Jake said with a sad smile that made me look confused and worried.
"Why?" Sean asked, confused too. I second his motion and ask 'why" too.
"Why do I feel like you're more interested in knowing him than me?" He asks. "Bro, are you serious?" Sean said with a weirded face. It looks like he was cringing for his friend.
"I was just interested because I envy people who know their path at a young age" I honestly said. That was true, It feels like I just wasted my time in such an unproductive way. I am blinded by my feelings and now I regret everything.
"What? It's okay, Summer. We're not in a racing competition to rush things. We're different from each other and it takes a process to everything" Sean said. But I only have time and that feels worse.
"But" I look at Jake who looks like he wants to apologise. "Nevermind" I said and walk-out. I need air to release my emotions. I was feeling a lot, i have a lot of emotions that's escaping me right now.
It was guilt, sadness, blame, horrible and many more emotions i can't say. I can't even know where I am. I think I'm healed but I'm not. I just think of it but in reality I'm still not.
"I'm really really sorry for being insensitive, Summer" Jake apologises when he finally has the chance when I stop walking. My tears are already pouring. It was like I'm frustrated on how I'm going to let it out.
"You don't have to be sorry because it's my fault for feeling this way" I said and grabbed a hand of my hair.
"No, what you feel is valid. We all go through the phase where we don't know what we want. We were just stuck in phase one and we didn't know the escape. But your accomplishment is way better than everyone else's. You have accomplished what you wanted in the past. You escaped loneliness and striving to accomplish being a better person and that's good" Jake comforts me.
I was relieved by his words because it's somehow true. I'm striving and trying my best to be the best version of me but somehow it is still my own mind who's grabbing me down.
"Aren't you tired of me? I was always dramatic about everything and my days are getting shorter and shorter,"I said. He leaned toward me until our forehead met.
"I really don't know why I don't get tired of you and how I get mesmerised by the things that I know about you. I think i'm falling deeply in love with you and you need to know that I would always understand you" He said and gave me a peck in my lips.
"Can we just go home now?" I said. He nods and starts the car. He opens the passenger seat and lets me in. I was tired again, I feel like I'm getting weaker and weaker with each passing day. I want to doze off and let my feelings be removed.
My mother and father were suddenly the person who woke me up. They were caressing my head with all smiles. I stood up from lying and the tears started to pour again.
"I miss you mom and dad really" I said, still bursting out with tears. Mom wipes it off and gently taps my shoulder.
"Don't be too hard on yourself. You've always been doing that. We get hurt seeing you hurt yourself by the things that aren't in your hand anymore" My mom said.
"Past is in the past now, Summer. Even if you regret everything, you can't undo it. Learn to accept your mistakes and move on. There's more than regretting and it is to learn how to love and accept it" My dad said.
"We're always here and you will soon be coming home with us. You should really enjoy your life now without hurting yourself" My mom said. Then they both held each other's hand and took off as someone was also holding my hand and taking me off in another way. And it was Jake.
Jake woke me up when we were in the house. He bids his goodbye as I leave the car. I just nod and smile at him. I was really tired of myself. I just found myself digging some dirt to the pot and put the flower seed there.
"I hope you will grow and grow into a beautiful flower. There are a lot of things that I want my loved ones to remember me for. I want you to be their comfort alongside Sunday. I hope the people that I will leave here will have a peaceful and happy life" I said and went inside home with a smile on my face. I would have to close the door of my past who was still kept unlock.