Summer's Point of View
"Aunt Sonia just asked me to stay here while they're gone. They don't want to spend money on your wake and funeral in case" She said and even rolled her eyes. I just smiled at her, even when she broke my heart a thousand times I'm still her big sister. I'm still her big sister that would go one call away when she needed me.
"What do you want —" I didn't get to finish my statement because she cut it off immediately.
"Don't, Don't act like this is going to be our reconciliation phase. I won't ever forgive you for what you did. Never" She said and slammed her bedroom door. That is her bedroom whenever she goes there.
That was our cousin's bedroom but since he moved out to France and had a life there. He got married and now has three kids. He never visited this country again. I never even saw him once. When I moved in here, Aunt Sonia's kid already moved out and migrated to different locations except for Yola and Sari.
It's just been five years since that accident happened. Fiona decided to move in with Aunt Cory—my dad's only sister. Aunt Sonia is mom's sister and she decided to get me since her children are my age. But that didn't work with me and them. They're a bunch of hypocrites and double-faced.
I went to my bedroom and got my wallet. I don't want Fiona to despise me even more for my irresponsibleness. I want her to feel that she still has her big sister even if she despises the fact that I am her big sister. I went to the nearest convenience store to get the groceries.
I want to cook some beef broth for her. It was her favourite food and always asks our parents, especially mom, to cook it for her. But I need to go to the market to buy some beef. Is my money enough for this?
"Hi, I was star-studded when I saw some angel in this store," Jake said with a big smile. He got his own cart of groceries. I just ignored him. I think my anger would lash out if he won't stop pestering me.
And he really didn't stop. He keeps pestering me like I'm some sort of smelly shit that flies really loves.
"Am i a shit?" I said looking at him with my glare. He looked like he want to laugh at what I just said but he was really fighting it.
"Is that a pick-up line?" He said. Oh, it frustrates me now, really.
"No but I'm asking you again, am I a shit?" I asked. I saw some marshmallows and immediately picked them up. It has been my comfort food since I was a child. It would help me ease the pain that I was feeling.
"No?" He responded.
"Then why do some fly like you love to pester me. You know what, I think I'm going to buy some insect repellent to remove you from this world" I said and moved to the detergent corridor. I need to wash my clothes so Aunt Sonia won't nag at me.
"And you also know what, you have some dark humour. We have some of the same humour. I think it's meant to be" He said. I cringe so hard from what he said.
I don't think that he would stop pestering me so I finished my grocery and headed to the cashier. I didn't even have time to get what I really wanted. It frustrates me again, I glare at Jake who's currently staring at me.
After that I went to the market to buy some beef and vegetables that's needed in the broth that I'm going to make. This life couldn't get any worse, does it? Some strangers pickpocketed me and i just gave up.
What's the point of even fighting? What's the point of risking your life for some money that I can earn. But someone was already risking their life on that wallet. I saw Jake fighting the pickpockets for my wallet. He got my wallet back but he got bruises all over his face.
That made me scared. I dragged him out there immediately and went to the house. I don't even know how we got here so fast. My anxiety gets to me and I don't want this to be my fault again. I don't want someone to risk their life for me, I hate it.
"You owe me —" He said, I cut it out by lashing my anger at him.
"Why would you do that?! What makes you think that I'm worth risking your lives off?! What if you die then it was my fault again?! I was the one who would be blamed again?! It is somehow my fault, it is always my fault!" I said and cried in front of him.
"I'm really sorry" He said and bowed his head. I tell him to stay there while I get the medicine. I didn't even get what I needed for a broth. I guess I'm going to cook noodles for Fiona and him.
I went to my bedroom to get my first aid kit. I think in his case i should get a cold compress. It wasn't an open wound that needed some band-aids or anything. It was just bruises.
"Here, cold compresses your bruises. I'm going to cook noodles" I said and gave the cold compressor to him. I scanned his face because he might have cut, which he had. I need to clean it later.
I cooked the noodles as fast as I could. I get dizzy as I'm going to check up on him. I think I'm going to vomit which later on I really did. I don't know why I got dizzy and vomited out of nowhere.
"Are you okay?" He asks when he saw me cleaning my face after the vomit. I gave him a thumbs up as a sign that i was fine and he didn't need to check on me.
I went to the kitchen to serve the noodles as it's getting dark and he needs to go home. I need to clean the cuts for him. I was already serving it to him when someone opened the door. It was Fiona with Kyle? How did they know each other?
"Oh, big brother Jake what happened?" Kyle said and went to Jake immediately. Fiona rolls her eyes at me, annoyed.
"I got into an accident, don't worry it's just a bruise and some cut" Jake explains and I heard Fiona scoff.
"Why would you go closer to some ill-fated person, Jake? That's why don't come closer to her, i warn you as a friend" Fiona said and went to her room.
I look away from their stares as I see both of them look at me. I went to sit at the couch and gestured to Kyle, who was now here to join us for the dinner.
"What's your relationship with each —" Kyle didn't finish what he's saying as Jake cut him off by shushing him off.
"I was her big sister. How about you guys? What's your relationship with her?" I ask as I assume they are friends based on what Fiona said.
"We've been school mates since we're elementary. We treated her as our younger sister as we don't have one and she said she doesn't have one either. As we grew older we just became friends" Jake explains.
That breaks my heart even more. The fact that she acts like she really regrets having me as her big sister stings at my heart. I never even wanted it. If I had a choice between I would save my parents but I'm going to die or the other way, i would always choose the first option.
"We're sorry" Kyle said because we got silent after that.
"It's okay. It's not your fault" Because it was mine. It was on me. I was the one who's at fault for this and not the other way around.
"After this, we would go home. Kyle would be the one to help me clean the cut because you've done enough" Jake said so i just nodded. I don't have the energy to insist more.
They finish their meal and I clean it up. I also went outside to check if they safely arrived at their home even if they're just in front of the house. I even chuckled at my own thoughts that I overthink too much.
I also decided not to be harsh on them anymore because of two things. First it is because I am grateful for them being nice to Fiona and second grateful for saving my wallet. I owe Jake something. I owe them both something. But I would also just avoid them and not go closer to them.
When I went to the kitchen, Fiona was already there cleaning the dishes. It was weird to me because it was the first time she did this.
"Did you already eat?" I asked her. She just glanced at me and continued doing what she's doing.
"Stay away from the both of them, especially Jake. I don't want them to get harmed because of you" She said to me and I just nodded and let her wash the dishes. I went to my bedroom to take the medicine as I got dizzy again.
I look at the mirror and find myself getting a nosebleed. Fuck this.