Don’t let yourself go with the flow of the sea. Learn to control the direction you take.
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"Mom, Dad, how are you there? Are you all right? Don't worry about us. We're fine here even if we miss you so much. Dad, mom, I don't blame you for leaving us." Tyrel said in a sad voice, at his parents' grave. He went early to the cemetery where his parents were buried because he already missed his parents.
 
"Mom, Dad, Aunt Freya, and I are okay now, and Kean has apologized to us. But mom and dad, I really miss you." Tyrel wiped the tears from his eyes.
"I'm right, you're here." Tyrel heard his brother's voice and sat next to him.
 
"Do you miss mom and dad? I'm sure they are happy for you, my brother because you raised me well and they are very proud of you because you fulfilled your dream of becoming a doctor."
 
"Why are you here?"
"They are also my parents, and another reason why I'm here is that maybe later you'll sleep here again."
Jayson slapped his brother's head lightly because Tyler didn't stop at the wipe of his eyes.
 
"You are ugly when you cry. Stop crying. Your catarrh is dripping down in your nose. I haven't carried a handkerchief."
He said and he was laughing at his brother while Tyrel sharply glared at him. Jayson smiled as he put his arm around Tyrel.
 
"All right, just cry. I'll watch over you and I won't let anyone see you in this situation. You can bring out the weakness that you feel no one else can see you, only me." Because of what Jayson said, Tyrel hit him on the shoulder, so he fell on the grass.
 
"Ouch! You thought it's not hurt? I'm your little brother! But you are still hurting me!"
"Mom, dad I'm leaving," Tyrel said, and then he stood up.
Tyrel hadn't gone far away when his brother suddenly spoke.
"You said, you don’t need to pretend to other people that you are strong and brave. Sometimes you need to show them your weakness."
Tyrel suddenly kicked Jayson.
 
"Your hobby is hurting your brother! Mom and Dad, please visit Tyrel later in the night. He is always hurting your handsome son."
 Jayson was walking backward when he saw that his brother was getting closer and closer to him. It was because Jayson was moving away from Tyrel when Tyrel suddenly pulled him closer to him and messed up Jayson's hair.
 
"You're a young man now, Jayson. When I get older, you take care of me."
"Of course, bro."
The siblings both smiled as they looked at their parents' gravestones until the wind blew loudly. Jayson immediately hugged Tyrel, while Tyrel gently pushed Jayson away from him.
"Mom and Dad, thanks for the hug you gave us. I know It's you."
"Don't say that, Bro."
"Are you still scared, Jayson? You're getting older now, Jayson."
"No! You said you left now right? Go ahead."
Tyrel was laughing when said goodbye to the tombstone of their parents, while Jayson did not follow his brother.
When Tyrel left, Jayson took a deep breath and stared at his parents' tombstone.
 
"Mom and dad, it's true what you said to us that a person will be happier when you don't put pure anger in your heart. Mom, Dad I'm leaving. I'll visit you here next time."
Jayson said goodbye to his parents and stood up and left his parents' grave.
 
On the other hand, Arche just stared at the sleeping Haru until the door to Haru's room opened, so he looked at it and here he saw Tyler enter.
 
"How is she?"
"She's okay now. She is no longer like before, who always looked far away."
 
"You... How are you?"
"When I told you I was okay, would you believe me?" Tyler shook his head at Arche's question. A few minutes of silence in Haru's room until Arche suddenly spoke.
 
"Thank you."
"For what?"
 
"In caring for Haru's treatment."
"Don't say thank you to me. Haru is also my family. I did that for her. I go ahead. I just looked at Haru. Take care of her." Tyler said and left Haru's room.
 
Tyler quietly walks out of the hospice until gets out of the hospice, as if it’s not on its own to walk. He only stopped walking when he noticed that he was in front of a house. He watched it until he saw from inside a girl sitting in front of many flowers.
"Hello, flowers. Do you miss Haru too? Me, I really miss her. I hope she recovers quickly so she can visit here again."
Tyler heard what Callista said.
 
"Callista!" Katelyn called her daughter so before Katelyn could see him. Tyler immediately walked away from Katelyn's house while he bowed his head.
 
Night has passed. Tyrel is in a park that Haru once went to, just near Carmen's condo. He messed with his hair and rested deeply.
"Maybe your problem is so deep, doc?"
Tyler was surprised when suddenly someone spoke, and here he saw Carmen and sitting next to him, also took a deep breath.
"We're the same."
Instead of noticing what Carmen said, Tyler asked her back.
"Why are you here late at night? Why are you still outside at night?"
"Because I can't sleep. You? Why are you here?"
"My house is just near here."
"Is that really your reason? Or is there something else?"
"Go back to your unit, Carmen, is dangerous for someone like you to go out at night."
Carmen ignored what Tyler said instead she asked a question.
"Don’t we really tell them?"
"If we tell them, will they be happy? You know, she doesn't want the people she loves to cry.
"But, how is she? We are struggling too. Especially since we know what could happen to her."
"There is nothing we can do if this is her destiny."
"What is the use of what you did for her if this happens?"
"Carmen, she’s the one who totally feels how she feels more than we do."
"Shall we just let them know nothing? Will you let them see in their faces that they hope they can be with Haru? Shall we just let go, Tyler? It's so hard to hide the truth from them."
It was a long silence before Tyler could speak.
"Carmen, Even if they know the truth, nothing will change, so let's just let her be with her loved ones and make happy memories with us.
"I can't, Tyler. I can not."
Tyler placed Carmen's head on his shoulder and he caressed her hair.
"The decisions of Haru are for her. We have no control over her decisions. Carmen, let's just respect and support her. This is the only thing we can do for her. In return for Haru's help to you, reciprocate this way."
"Why is this destiny like this?"
"I do not know and no one knows what the fate of each other. Life is too short. There will come into our lives something that is important to us will be lost. It’s just like the star and the moon in the sky. They are very important to us because they are light in our dark world. But now they don’t exist, but we don’t look for them, we momentarily forget them. So the same thing happens when we lose someone important to us. We can forget them for a while, but in our hearts and minds, we will not lose them because we have sealed them there. No matter how hard we try to forget them, we cannot do it because they are important to us." Tyler said,
Carmen was crying quietly, Tyler just let her cry until the very heavy rain came down. Tyler would have helped to stand up to Carmen, but Carmen stopped him immediately.
"Let me here to stay first I want to feel every drop of rain on my body and find out why every time it rains, Haru likes it."
Tyler let go of what Carmen wanted, but he didn't leave Carmen. Carmen's head was still leaning on his shoulder, feeling every drop of rain.
Carmen removed her head from Tyler's shoulder, and opened her palms, and seemed to be catching rainwater while silently crying.
"Haru is right. It's better to cry in the rain because no one can hear you and no one can see you cry."
She smiled while Tyler just stared at Carmen.
Minutes later, when the rain subsided, Tyler took off his coat and placed it on Carmen's shoulder and helped her to stand up.
The two walk inside the building towards Carmen's unit. Some people inside the building were looking at them because they were soaked in the rain, but they didn't give it any attention. They reached Carmen's unit, and they immediately went inside.
 
"You can use the bathroom in Haru's room," Carmen said as she entered her room.
When she went inside, she quickly took a shower so that she could bring Tyler something to wear. After she took a bath, she immediately got dressed, and then she took an oversized T-shirt and pajamas and left her room. She was about to open the room where Tyler was when she realized that Tyler had no underwear to wear, so she walked to Nicole's room and looked in Nicole's closet until she saw a boxer who looked new and quickly left the room. and walked into Haru's room. She opened it and she steadily walked inside. But she immediately stopped and quickly turned around when she saw Tyler, who had done taken a bath and was wrapping a towel around his bottom.
 
"Sorry, these is your clothes to wear first. That boxer is new and has never been worn or used." Carmen quickly put down the clothes she was holding and quickly ran out of the room with a look of surprise on Tyler's face, but he ignored it and got dressed.