Chapter 8 part 2:
Realizing how wrong I am I sighed and nodded without even looking at him.
"Let's talk in your place" he insisted and pulled me to his car.
"No, wait" I stoped him as I made him let go of my hand. In those years that he courted me he wasn't able to hold me.
"Why?" He looked at me after he took a glance at his hand when I pull mine.
"Your sister is sleeping, I mean she's resting in there" shaking my head as I said that. I didn't want to disturb Angela. "And I can't ride with you, I have your sister's car with me."
"Okay, let's just talk in the park then, and you can leave the car. I will have someone to pick it up" again he walked towards his car and this time he did not hold me. I sighed as I follow him.
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We are now sitting for half an hour in this park but neither of us talked. I just kept glancing at him while he is in deep thought. A thought flashed on my mind that he's in deep thought because of him leaving for good and also because of how I keep on shoving his hold on my hand.
Before I could over think more he finally talked,
"I'm leaving" two words. He talked and uttered two words and that's it? Half an hour and that's it?
"I know" keeping my patience I sighed. "Your sister told me."
"For good" another two words, fuck that two words of his.
"Yeah, Angela mentioned that." I nodded
"I'm sad." Another one, my patience is reaching its limits; another one and I'll definitely punch you.
"So do I."
"Why are you talking so less?" He suddenly faces me, I raised an eyebrow at him.
"What do you expect me to do? Talk like a parrot that can't stop? I will talk nonstop while you continue with your two words shit?" There, my patience run out.
Right, I'm hot headed; and I admit it.
"Im sorry" he looked away and lightly slap his forehead.
"There, again! That freaking two words" I rolled my eyes and punched him, he again looked at me then he laughed.
"You and your patience." Shaking his head as he laughed then he suddenly pulled me closer for a hug. "Come here" with that he hugs me tightly and sighed. I was softened by him and hugs him back. "How I wish I couldn't leave; I hate to leave, I don't want to." His hug become tighter as he talks about him leaving.
"But you need to leave. You should; and you have to." Painful might it be but I smiled and pat his shoulder.
"I know that's why I hate the fact that I'm leaving. My head is full of what if's right now." He holds my shoulder after he let go of our hug, he made me look at him. "What if you'll meet someone else when I'm gone? What if I can't return for you? What will happen to us? Will there be still an us? What if- ." Suppressing my laughter I cut his words off.
"That is possible, but not worry to much. We will never know if will there be still an us if you won't try; if we won't try. We will get through this." And for the first time I held his face.
"No Kiea, I'm afraid. It had happened before and history will gonna repeat itself." He looked away after saying that and it hit me, straight to the heart. I couldn't utter a word and just look down, sit properly and sighed. He is right; he's right but it's painful how he don't trust my love for him.
"Our love isn't the only ting that we need to solve right now Ryzen. We have loads of responsibilities to carry and and yours has arrived. All you need to do is to take that and be responsible. A fairytale love isn't for us. A fairytale will always be a fairytale and we both know that we won't have that unless we will be mature and responsible for your self and our responsibilities in life." Instead of joining him to creat an imaginative love for the both of us I hit him with the words of reality.
"You always know Hoyle to e and everything in the right way." He unexpectedly chuckles and made me lean my head on his shoulder. "Even though you have quite the temper." He started to rub my shoulder as he place his hand in there. His small gestures are making my heart melt. "I don't know how will I be able to cope up on not seeing you Kiea." His voice sounds so sad.
"You can still see me, we can talk over the phone." I grab his other hand and enter-wined our fingers together. "I'm trying hard to suppress my tears right now Ryzen. I will miss you, badly." I closed my eyes wanting to feel this moment. I couldn't ask him when will they be going as I am deeply afraid of the answer that I would hear even though I badly want to know but at the same time I don't.
"We still got 2 months left babe." My shoulder went down as he have exposed the date and got more sad. Can't you just stay silent about that? "We only have a short time left and I couldn't dare to put it to waste even just a minute of it."
"You won't dare? Really? You couldn't dare? You have already wasted this day being so I don't know." He laughed by the way I talked.
"You gave me a reason to do that, you acted so jealous yesterday that I thought I should take it as an opportunity to be away from you."
"And being like that means you're not hurting me?" I frowned at him.
"I didn't even know if you love me or so." I pinched his cheeks as I look up to him.
"Would I allow you to court me if I don't have any feelings for you?" We both laughed, how I wished we could only be like this, always. I looked in front of us as people have fun with their own and he tightly hugs me and then gave me a peck kiss on me head.