"You take care here, Yuna. Just update me later when I got home, 'kay?" I fixed my handbag and went out the shop.
Yuna accompanied me 'till here. She nod her head continuously."Got it, ma'am. Take care!"
"Alright!"
Since the boutique's just a few meter away from grandma's house, I can walk it through. She's the one who suggested it though, to make it easy for me to go home because I still don't have a car. But I'm planning to buy one, once my income is complete. But for now, I'm giving the half of it to her, for her medicines and for our daily source of food.
On my way home, I noticed that the door is locked and it seems dark inside. I don't need to worry though, I have a spare key. But when I entered, it's confirmed. There's no trace of grandma inside. My heart pounded fastly. Shit! I need to calm down! Calm the fuck down, Vanez!
That's when my eyes fixed on the sticky note on the refrigerator. I walked to take it and read...
I'm checking the farm. Don't worry much about me, dear
-Grandma
Oh God! I rested on the wall and took a deep breath. I thought I'm gonna lost someone so important to me again. It's scary, so scary. Above all the battles I involved myself in, this one's I'm full of fear.
I calmed down eventually, put down my bag and sat recklessly on the high chair there at the mini island bar. My grandma's not just sweet but also an awesome one. I picked as single rum and poured it in the shotglass and drank it straight. The feels of soothing heat drawn in my throat.
"Ah, it's been a long time since I tasted you..." I murmured while staring at the innocent shotglass.
Just this once. It was a stressful work for me. I'm sure I deserved a booze. No, I deserved more than that. A rest. Rest from everything.
Recent memories of Yukenzo and Azelyn earlier came back to me, like a flood. I closed my eyes firmly and took another shot. Damn, why does it need for me to feel this way? I shouldn't get affected anymore. But maybe... maybe that's life. Some people change and feelings fade but to those unfortunate, can only change but feelings remained.
It's just so unfair... they don't know what I've been through... they're not there with me... they didn't witness how I fell, countless times. And now this? They will just come back like nothing happened? To prove a point? And what point is that? To prove that they already forgot about how I cried? How I dealt with the pain, all alone?
Fucking point bullshit.
He hurt me but here's my heart, still rooting for him. Stupid!
I drank all the rum until my tummy can't take it any longer. I fell asleep, crying silently.
Morning and my head was hammering so bad. I'm being welcomed with Yuna's call and when I took a glimpse on the clock, it's already late afternoon. Shit, unprofessional.
"Yes? I'm gonna go there, Yuna, just woke up late..."
"It's okay, Ms. Arnaez! By the way, there's this private customer who wants to buy our limited edition brand of clothes." She said form the other line.
My brow arched."Oh, really? You should call Henry by now then--"
"And uh... he wants to personally talk to you..." she added. Now, my brows furrowed.
A he, huh?
"Well, that's new. But... alright. I'll just fix myself. You're going to come with me to meet that customer personally." I hanged up the phone.
After I took a shower and fixed myself, I went down to see grandma and there she is, watching television, lazily sitting on the sofa while holding the remote. I kissed her cheeks. She looked at me from head to toe.
"You drank the rum, didn't you?" She's a keen observer. Her eyes squinted as she stared.
I pursed my lips and scratched my head."My apology, grandma..."
"Nevermind. Just don't go on your limit." She chuckled at my nervous face.
I nodded and bid my goodbye to her. I saw Yuna getting ready the moment I came in the boutique. Henry's going to be our driver for today and Alexa, Yuna's cousin will be the one who'll take care the whole shop for the meantime.
"Let's go!" I hopped inside the backseat. Yuna's there on the passenger's seat beside Henry.
The ride started. My head was straight and chin up, when my gaze accidentally moved to my side where I can see outside from the window. At first, ignored some familiar signs we're passing by, the road and all. But later on, I realized it's getting weird already. The road we're heading to was too familiar. I breathe gets heavier and heavier as the ride goes.
"Y-yuna? What's the address of our private customer t-today?' I asked nervously. When did I turn like this?
"Hmm, there's no specific name but says here it's a mansion from a known family." She said.
Damn it!
I tried to calm down but I cannot. Until the car stopped. They got out first, waiting for me to do the same. I inhaled and stepped out. I don't think I can do this. I'm not sure but... I trust my instinct.
So, I surveyed the whole place and realized I was right. So, that's why the road was too familiar including the places we have passed by. Because I used to walk here in my old life. I looked up and turned around, the huge and elegant mansion is infront of me.
Nothing's changed, tho. Still the same cozy and minimalistic mansion I have once lived in. My eyes dripped down the high walls and grand gate, so many memories flashed back my mind and I can't help but feel the goosebumps.
I knew it! What in the damn earth am I doing here?