The rain kept falling and never stopped. Right now I can only see the city atmosphere from behind the glass window of my apartment. Such a cold view. I don't see much better. Not only that, I also felt something that bothered me a little. I guess there are some things that I never even realized until now. I often encounter several incidents that are quite similar. And at that moment I couldn't just keep quiet. Some things I even really noticed, now I understand with everything that has happened recently. At that time I became more aware of myself. There are several other reasons that I still hold onto and I don't want to let go of them. The real reason is that I feel uncomfortable living like this. It felt as if nothing would make me feel more at peace. Even though it sounds sad, sometimes I feel selfish with myself and instead ignore all of this. Different from the previous one, I actually felt that something was blocking me and slowly it was having a bad impact on me. For example, because of all that, I actually had a lot of nightmares because I thought about it. Right now I feel that way and it just makes me even more annoyed. Not only that, at the same time I sometimes feel that this world is now starting to show its scary side. When I was enjoying the rainy view like this, not long after that I heard the sound of the doorbell. I quickly checked and it turned out someone had come. I was also surprised by this person who actually came here for once. I opened the door and then let the person into my apartment. When he was seated, I also gave him a warm drink because the weather was cold. Not long after that, I attempted to chat with this person. It's hard to believe, this is the first time in my life that Rivana has come to visit here. Even though I felt a little awkward, we started to open the topic of conversation. At this time, Rivana started her conversation, saying everything honestly. At first I wasn't surprised that there were so many complaints. However, after that I felt a little unusual if this person really felt useless. I listened again to everything Rivana said this time. Not only that, it was also strange to me that Rivana came here just to tell a story like this. My mind was confused again and I tried not to show it all and kept talking calmly. Rivana took a sip of her drink and then continued chatting.
“Are you serious about that?”
"Yes. I think that's all I can do for now. Don't you already know that everyone is now starting to open their eyes and keep an eye on all the ballerinas who look impressive?”
“Ah, apparently it's just because of that. As I thought, it turns out that you are always alert."
“I can't act carelessly, because that will only cause me trouble. I also know their game. So, this time I can't be trapped."
"Did you analyze them like that?"
"Correct. I'm just trying to fix everything. I don't want to keep doing this."
“If only I had principles like you.”
"Why do you even say that?"
"Never mind. Strange, isn't it?"
"It's not strange anymore, it even feels like you're not the only one. What happened?”
"Nothing happens."
"Do not lie. Something must have happened, right?”
“Even if there were, I don't think you would be able to do anything. I'll bet."
“You're probably right. I really can't do anything if it's just to help other people. Besides, I think the situation is also different and I can't possibly understand that quickly.”
"Have you met anyone?"
"What do you mean? Who?"
“For example, people who suddenly provide support. Even offered you to expand into the world of entertainment?"
"No. I've never had an offer like that."
“I see.”
Even though it sounded strange, I noticed that the corners of Rivana's face looked as if something was wrong. Now we are back to discussing many things together. Strangely, I feel that right now the person in front of me seems to be having problems. Just don't want to say all that. Slowly I started to realize this and I gently asked something again. It doesn't just stop there, I'm also surprised by Rivana's view that I'm currently seeing. It's like being someone else. That's not usually the case. If you look closely, there's nothing wrong with that.
“To be honest, there are several reasons why until now I still don't trust other people. especially if the person is a foreigner," I said firmly.
"So, that's what you are, huh?"
"Correct. I myself can't trust other people carelessly. And what's more, if that person had good intentions, I wouldn't accept it with my hands."
“Wow, it turns out I just found out that you are someone like this. I acknowledge your great stance. However, you also shouldn't be careless. There are people who are very difficult to deal with. Even if you already know him, you won't be able to avoid him forever."
“That's terrible.”
"Is there really someone like that?"
“Of course there is. You'd better be careful. This is not a threat, but only a warning."
“Why did you even bother warning me? Is there a reason other than that?”
"There isn't any. I just don't want a talented person like you to go through anything bad.”
“Ah, so that's how it is.”
“Oh yeah, one more thing.”
"What?"
“There's no one you can trust. As long as you're still in the same place.”
"In other words, I don't necessarily believe what you say, Rivana."
"Up to you. What is clear is that I have said everything. Next time I will say more things and thank you for the warm drink.”
"You're leaving?"
"Yes. now I have to go. I think that's where the conversation ends."
Rivana immediately left my apartment. I myself was surprised why this person would even say something like that to me. Even though all this time I also didn't like this person. There were a lot of rumors spreading, even after graduating from the ballet academy, I was still surprised by Rivana's fate, who was always in scandal. This time I saw this person in a different light. Until this moment I still can't believe what just happened. It's as if I started to feel a little suspicious and then just started thinking more and more.
"Unlucky. "I shouldn't think evil," I muttered.
Various things started to emerge. Something that Rivana was afraid of started to come. After Rivana returned from Helene's apartment, she was currently walking again near this area. The rain still hasn't stopped. Rivana then entered a restaurant and this is where she started to rest. There are several food menus that Rivana ordered. One of them is spicy soup. Not long after that. It turns out that Rivana accidentally saw Owen. That person also saw Rivana and then they both started greeting each other. Rivana knew this person because they had previously worked together on a certain project. Not only that, Owen also often met this person even on campus.
“Wow, this sucks,” Owen said.
“You again? Good grief. This world is so small."
“To think I would meet someone like you in a place like this. How are you, Rivana?"
“Still fine. Why are you suddenly asking that?”
“After everything you've been through? Are you still okay? Wow, that's great.”
“Don't tease. There's no point in you talking to me like that."
"By the way, what are you doing here?"
“Just dropping by. It just so happens that the spicy soup here is delicious. What are you doing here?"
"I just finished eating with my other friends."
“So it turns out.”
Meanwhile, right now it's right at my residence. I still keep thinking about some of Rivana's words which are not wrong. I also felt that the person actually told me on purpose because he wanted something. When I thought back and tried not to swallow the person's words completely, I felt there was a slight problem there. I don't know why that person doesn't explain in detail and only tends to say things that are quite troublesome. This time I was even more convinced that maybe something had happened to that person because I don't usually come here and say a lot of useful things like that to me. My hunch continues to point to several big possibilities. After I felt tired from thinking about those words and it actually added to my headache, now I'm back to relaxing. Enjoying my favorite television show. Not long after that, I just remembered that today I also have to meet someone. Most likely that person was waiting for me. But the rain is still heavy. I feel bad if I just cancel this meeting. I quickly got ready and then went to a cafe not far from my apartment. I went there quickly and when I got there, I saw the woman sitting waiting for my arrival.
“Helene, you finally came.”
“Ah, sorry for waiting so long. Senior."
"No. I just arrived too. By the way, it's raining heavily too. even though I hope it's a sunny day."
"Yes. I feel that way too.”
"How about we just get straight to the point?"
"Of course."
“I've heard everything from Natalia. Now I just want to offer cooperation with you. How?"
"Yes. I also heard some things from Natalia if you want to help me. But, it seems I really can't refuse."
"Wow, if it's like this, I'll be very happy. Coincidentally there is a show that will be held in a month. I hope you can come along."
"Okay. I will try it."
"Good. This way we agree."
"Yes."