After the news appeared, many people also felt that they did not expect this fact. Not a few of the media spread this news very quickly. I only knew a small part of it, as soon as I started looking closely at this fact, I felt something uncomfortable. The funeral was attended by many people, they also came and apparently I only saw a few people who looked surprised. When I got back together with Natalia, I felt something bad. As if I had a certain premonition. At the same time, I don't understand this situation which raises a lot of question marks. This time I felt a little anxious. Even though there are many things I can do, I just feel bad because there are some things that really suck. I met some people I've known for a long time and it turns out they're still the same. It's been a long time since we first met and I don't even remember the last time we met. I just imagined this situation becoming unpleasant in my eyes and instead more things happened. This time I really felt fed up. I haven't seen them for a long time and after I met them, I felt like I wished I never had to see them again. Today's view is quite bright. When I took a little walk around the city park, I felt a beautiful sense of peace. Compared to what usually happens to me, I feel this is really very comfortable. There was no noise or anything like that and there was just peace. Natalia also came with me and now this person still looks fresh and lively as usual. I couldn't guess what was inside his head and all I saw was happiness. I feel like if all this had never happened, I don't think it would make other people witness a nightmare like this. Honestly, I myself admit that being in a terrible situation really drains a lot of energy. I discovered the fact that if I had started earlier, I think there were several things I could have improved. But, all of that only exists in imagination. Nothing really came true and I was too stupid to believe that. As time goes by, I realize more and more that this world is indeed cruel. For someone like me, I think this is very evil. I looked around and now we were sitting in one of the seats nearby. Natalia was still having fun taking photos and not long after that, we started a quite relaxed conversation here.
"I still can't believe that now that person is really no longer in this world."
"Are you still thinking about that?"
"Of course. How could it not be, I was previously convinced that this person was definitely planning something for his future position. But unexpectedly it turned out that all of it was destroyed and now it is no longer there. I think there are many people who also regret this.”
"If that's the case, it's definitely true. It's just that I still don't understand why you are like that?"
"What's going on like that?"
“It's true that the woman has left this world, but some things have definitely changed. In other words, you can take advantage of it.”
“Are you crazy?”
"What?"
“You think that makes sense? Just because the person is no longer around doesn't mean there's an opportunity to take advantage of the situation. Even if it exists, I don't think it's humane enough.”
"Hah? Good grief."
"You want to say that I'm weak?"
“No, that's not it.”
“I know you must hate that person, I do the same. But right now it wouldn't be a good idea to take advantage of this sad situation just for myself. I guess I should just do something else.”
"Yes. Up to you. All decisions are in your hands. I just said a few things.”
Actually, what Natalia just said was not wrong. I just feel like my current actions should be given more attention. If I took the wrong step, I think I might end up too. I immediately reflected on myself and not long after that I checked my cell phone and then read several news articles on the internet. They are still spreading the same news. This news can even drown out other important news. Not only that, I also thought maybe there was something wrong with that person. Most likely there must be something that caused that person to end his life. Once again I think. At times when I started to feel worried, in my heart I muttered that if this hadn't happened maybe there wouldn't have been any disputes between the female fans. On the other hand, I also hope that this woman is now in heaven and no longer feels what she felt in this world when she was alive. Right now, I started to realize that humans will definitely leave someday. Don't know when the time will be and all you can do is accept reality. Natalia looked like she was trying to guess something. Eyes that look clear when you are thinking about something. I also want to know what really happened.
"When I think about it, I feel a little strange," said Natalia.
"What's strange?"
"If only there was one clue, maybe we could find out why Rivana committed suicide."
“Why are we doing it? "Shouldn't it be the police's job to solve this case?"
"I know. It's just that I'm still curious. Was this really intentional suicide or was there something behind it? there is only one answer."
“What is it?”
“If only there was clear evidence. We can find out.”
"Good grief. I thought because of what.”
"Actually, I don't really hate that person, I just don't like some of Rivana's attitudes."
"Is it true?"
"Of course."
I know that Natalia wasn't actually lying. Even if this person told a lie, it would be easily found out. Because this person is really not good at lying. I also thought that maybe something had happened to that person. I can't believe that that person would easily end his life even though the problems he faced could probably be solved easily for someone like Rivana. So far, I am also surprised by the existing facts. It's as if there are several puzzle pieces that need to be completed. This time I really felt curious until my blood boiled. It didn't feel like it was almost noon, we both immediately left as soon as the weather got hotter.