The voice I often heard loudly was now no longer audible. I think that person has moved. I'm currently in my apartment and briefly saw several people who came here. It turned out it was just the package delivery officer. At first I felt a little uncomfortable. But, this time I had to really try to calm myself down. I haven't felt this way for a long time and there are some things that are even very difficult for me to understand. I tried to keep quiet until everything died down. The news that has passed is now just a memory. Every time I remember, my guilt for hating that person seems to fade away. I feel this is very real. I've been relaxing for an hour and not doing anything. A very boring day. So many things happened, I always thought that it was too scary now. When I realized that the world was like this, I felt that right now I was not a great person. When I looked at myself with a strange look, I noticed that some things had changed. The previous me was nowhere to be seen. Even though I'm not really sure about it, I don't think I can lie at all. This time it was the same. I've thrown away a lot of things and I regret it. When the sun started to rise, everyone walked towards their places of work. The city atmosphere is very busy. In the morning I looked through the window, it felt like I saw something strange. The hope I wanted didn't come so quickly. At the same time I also feel this is unfair. Until I can't understand all this. My daily life is really confusing. Now I get up from the sofa and then get ready to leave. The weather out there looks favorable. I slowly headed somewhere. On the way, I felt unafraid of many things that might happen later. Now I feel like I'm just coming back to life. The last time I saw the city, it looked gloomy and annoying. Now I feel completely different. Natalia also told me to go for a walk and not be too hard on myself. This time I agree with what that person said, even though it's a little annoying. Now I arrived right at a bakery. With the tempting aroma I bought a piece of bread and cake, not forgetting the warm coffee. After this I intend to enjoy my days like other people in general. It's been a long time since I felt this way. So far I've treated myself too harshly to the point of not even realizing it.
"Oh, it turns out you're here too," said someone who was none other than Natalia.
"Jeez. Who did I think."
"It's good that you came here."
"Is there anything you want to say?"
"A lot. You know, I just got some good news."
"What news?"
"Previously, I applied to move companies and I was accepted at the new place."
"Wow. That's great. But why did you even move? Didn't you have difficulty getting in there?"
"That's because there are a few things I don't like. To be honest, I've felt that way for a long time. It's just that I didn't dare say it."
"No problem. I understand."
"Yes. That's how it is. I'll try my best this time."
After everything started to appear, I felt a little tightness in my chest. I've been thinking about so many things, there are more and more reasons that aren't even clear. This time I felt something was wrong. At the same time, I also felt annoyed that all this was never fair. There are many things that make me feel out of sorts. Right now I feel like all of that is just an excuse. At the same time, I was almost crazy about this. Just like before, I couldn't stop thinking about what was in front of my eyes. I hope things don't get weird from here on out. I think it's all just imagination. I feel there are several reasons that are even very difficult. Although there are several reasons, I feel this is unfair. I can't even imagine all this. It's been a long time since I can't forget all this. I feel uncomfortable with myself now that I still keep remembering some really terrible things. I feel like now it's just imagination. At the same time, I felt really fed up. It's time for me to go. That's all that's in my head. I always feel like this world is truly never fair. Even now it's still the same. Looking at it from any angle, I feel that now it is very strange. I have dared to go this far. When everything started to fade, I felt a slight feeling of unease that continues to linger to this day. Not long after, I took a deep breath and now I saw several things that I rarely see these days. I feel like it's all just a waste of time. There are many things that are even very strange. I've been imagining some really strange things lately, I feel like all of this will only cause problems. Until now, it is still a mystery. Natalia looked at me in surprise.
"What's wrong? You look a little pale?" Natalia said to me.
"Hah?"
"Hey, if there's something on your mind, it's best to tell me. I'm sick of seeing you always being so gloomy."
"What are you talking about? I'm just thinking a lot."
"What are you actually thinking about? You've had a lot on your mind lately. Why?"
"I don't know. I don't know either. It feels really annoying."
"I see."
"You understand?"
"No. I'm just trying to guess. Is that wrong?"
"Not really. Gosh, I think I'm going crazy."
"Don't talk carelessly."
"But these are the facts."
"Stop it. Don't talk like that. You're not crazy."
"Okay. I guess I should take back what I said earlier."
There are many things I never even realized. I felt like I could no longer think clearly. Now everything really sucks. There are only curses. It's been very frustrating. I feel that now more and more I can't control it. I feel like the world has turned around on the same day. I can't be sure of myself. Until I got fed up. Not long after, we left this place and were still talking about the same thing. Natalia seemed to no longer want to see the pathetic me. I feel grateful because I have good friends in my life even though there are not many. Now it feels easy.
"Oh, it turns out you're here too," said someone who was none other than Natalia.
"Good grief. Who do I think.”
"It's good that you came here."
"Is there anything you want to say?"
"Many. You know, I just got some good news.”
"What news?"
"Previously I had applied to move companies and I was accepted at the new place."
“Wow. That's great. But why did you even move? Didn't you go in there with great difficulty?"
“That's because there are a few things I don't like. Honestly, I've felt that way for a long time. It's just that I don't dare to say.”
"Does not matter. I understand."
"Yes. That's it. This time I will try my best."
After everything started to appear, I felt a little tightness in my chest. I've been thinking about so many things, there are more and more reasons that aren't even clear. This time I felt something was wrong. At the same time, I also felt annoyed that all this was never fair. There are many things that make me feel out of sorts. Right now I feel like all of that is just an excuse. At the same time, I was almost crazy about this. Just like before, I couldn't stop thinking about what was in front of my eyes. I hope things don't get weird from here on out. I think it's all just imagination. I feel there are several reasons that are even very difficult. Although there are several reasons, I feel this is unfair. I can't even imagine all this. It's been a long time since I can't forget all this. I feel uncomfortable with myself now that I still keep remembering some really terrible things. I feel like now it's just imagination. At the same time, I felt really fed up. It's time for me to go. That's all that's in my head. I always feel like this world is truly never fair. Even now it's still the same. Looking at it from any angle, I feel that now it is very strange. I have dared to go this far. When everything started to fade, I felt a slight discomfort that continues to linger until now. Not long after, I took a deep breath and now I saw several things that I rarely see these days. I feel like it's all just a waste of time. There are many things that are even very strange. I've been imagining some really strange things lately, I feel like all of this will only cause problems. Until now, it is still a mystery. Natalia looked at me in surprise.
"What is it? You look a little pale?” Natalia said to me.
"Hah?"
“Hey, if there's something on your mind, it's best to tell it. I'm sick of seeing you always so gloomy."
“What are you talking about? I'm just thinking a lot."
"What are you actually thinking? You've had a lot on your mind lately. Why?"
"Who knows. I also do not know. It feels really annoying.”
“I see.”
"You understand?"
"No. I'm just trying to guess. Is it wrong?"
"Not really. Gosh, I think I'm going crazy.”
"Don't talk carelessly."
“But these are the facts.”
“Stop it. Don't talk like that. You're not crazy."
"Okay. I guess I should take back what I said earlier.”
There are many things I never even realized. I felt like I could no longer think clearly. Now everything really sucks. There are only curses. It's been very frustrating. I feel that now more and more I can't control it. I feel like the world has turned around on the same day. I can't be sure of myself. Until I got fed up. Not long after, we left this place and were still talking about the same thing. Natalia seemed to no longer want to see the pathetic me. I feel grateful because I have good friends in my life, even though there are not many. Now it feels easy.