When I feel calm again, now everything will start. Unlike anything I've ever seen, now it feels really strange. I tried several times to stand up but the result was still the same. In front of the house, I am currently standing while continuing to stare at the sky, even the color has changed. At that time, I still felt a little confident that there were things I had really done well. Some people might think otherwise. But I never cared about that at all. I've been through a lot and it turns out everything is always the same. There's still plenty of time. That's all that came into my head. As if I could start everything again. A childhood memory that I only saw partially, as soon as I realized it, I tried to forget it. But slowly this feeling of doubt emerged again and wanted to take over me. This time I felt terrible enough and didn't want to deal with it anymore. It's been a long time since my dreams changed and only left a memory. Where this actually adds to more problems. I stepped back and am now heading to the location where I will start taking part in the show. My chest still feels pounding like I've just started my dream. Now that I thought about it, this was indeed the first time after my fall that I returned to the place where I belonged. The journey to the location is quite far from my house. I was with Natalia and the coach. We came there right before the event started. There were also several people who came and they seemed excited to take part in today's event. I myself was even nervous and it seemed like I hadn't been to a place like this for a long time and now I was like a stranger who had just set foot on earth. With eyes quite full of enthusiasm, I started following the event with them. The results of the training I do are never in vain. When I stood on stage, everyone cheered and even clapped for me. I felt real life again. Not long after the show ended, together with Natalia I now really wanted to capture the moment of this day. That's right. I was really happy and immediately people felt happy too and they came to me to ask for photos. I'm really happy now. Not long after that, it turned out to be quite tiring too. I sat on a chair and then took a sip of drinking water. Tiredness that feels like a torch. Surprisingly I'm more or less okay with all this. Natalia approached me and we both started talking to each other again.
“Wow. Turns out I was too careless. "There are many people who even insist on asking for your photo," said Natalia, who seemed overwhelmed.
"Is it true? So where are they now?”
"Already gone. I told them to leave myself. You shouldn't treat them too much. You'll just get overwhelmed.”
"Yes. I also agree with that. But this time I'm really happy."
"Hah? What?"
“Usually I start to get tired and don't want to meet other people or even just take photos. But now it's different.”
“Then that's good. At least you feel better. Not like it used to. You have changed now."
“I think so too. I am happy."
Dream. That's all that's in my heart. Now I am a little relieved with my current life. I feel really different from usual. I felt my blood flow this time leading to the pleasure I should have felt a long time ago. Not only that, I also felt that there was something wrong with me all this time. But I can't find what's wrong. Different from people I've ever seen, it's as if that person is aware of their abilities and also what makes them happy. Slowly I also felt slapped by all of that. As if you had just been born into a new situation. This is and so is the truth. When everyone was excited about this perfect ballet performance, they couldn't stop saying what they thought. Even now there is a journalist who deliberately came to the event to watch. Not long after that this journalist tried to write news which was very impressive. After watching his old show, that person went back to work and then many people read the news articles that he managed to produce. They also agreed and it turned out that the longer it went on, the more excited it got, especially when they highlighted one of the ballet dancers who looked very interesting. Many people continue to talk about it even now. While this craze has hit everyone even on the internet, it is right now in a different place. You can see a man sitting relaxed and reading this news. His gaze seemed to be watching someone. At this moment the man took a deep breath and then looked back at a photo in the article which showed a ballet dancer which made his eyes fall on the dancer. Not long after, someone came knocking on the door of this room and it turned out that person was one of the workers. The man again told the person to get out of the room and not to disturb him for now. The person left again after putting down some documents. Meanwhile, Natalia who is still here with me now feels quite happy too.
“It's time to rest.”
"You are right. I've been really tired since then. How about we go somewhere else?”
"Agree. But what about your trainer?”
"Don't worry. He said he was going somewhere and wouldn't come with the two of us."
“Ah, I see.”
"Why? Do you mind?”
"No."
"Oh yeah, I feel guilty."
"What now?"
"What if, for example, someone is not happy with my return?"
“Even if there is, you should just ignore it. Never care about people like that. Understand?"
"Okay."
It's still a long time before I feel like I can return to peace. There weren't a few things I thought about and it turned out that achieving them wasn't easy. Again, I always feel guilty even though I haven't done anything wrong at all. The strange thing is that this horrible feeling always comes and I don't know why. Natalia was very enthusiastic about eating the cake that was on the table. I haven't stopped by this cafe for a long time and eaten this much cake. After we finished eating, I calmed myself down again because I was quite tired from taking part in today's performance. There's someone I really want to meet. But I want to meet that person another time. Not today.