The line of harmony slowly connects to follow the direction of my destiny. Now I'm starting to understand. When everything happened and now everything seems to be falling apart. There are some things that are even very difficult for me to understand. Not only that, I felt there was something wrong with everything. Starting from things that have come and even things that have passed before. When I and Natalia saw this world that seemed so crazy, I already felt that something was strange and it turned out that it was true. Since then, I wanted to get away from my life, which felt strange. When I'm somewhere alone, it feels like I meet someone who just comes to me with strange intentions. The person seemed to be smiling at me and with quite mysterious eyes. With a slightly frightened face, I felt I had to leave here as soon as possible. Not long after, the person called my name and calmly approached. At first I felt that maybe this person was a criminal. After this I intend to leave here. However, this person immediately said several things that immediately shocked me. Turns out he's not a bad person. The man in front of me turned out to be Rivana's acquaintance. Since I got to know the late Rivana, to be honest, there has only been resentment. Instantly I immediately changed my view of that person because he no longer existed in this world. As soon as I listened to everything this person said, it was like I had just received new information. It's so strange that I feel calm and like this is what I want. Turns out I was quite greedy. Very different from my previous self. Not only that, I feel like there is something wrong with me so far. Many things have changed and it turns out I'm still a coward. To restore everything that has been destroyed is not as easy as other people say. At this point I'm at my wit's end. This person was still in front of me and continued to say some things that at first glance were quite reasonable. Meanwhile, my mind was only focused on me not knowing what to do with this. Since then, I first fell into a terrible trap. After this person finished talking to me, he immediately left. I'm still here waiting for Natalia. It turns out that a problem is coming to me right now and I feel like I can't control myself. At that time, I was very disappointed with myself, who was really bad and couldn't do anything. When I was fighting with myself, Natalia came with a cheerful face.
"You've been waiting long?" Natalia asked me.
"No. I just arrived too," I said, not really telling the truth.
"Oh yeah, I saw that person earlier."
"Who?"
"The man Rivana met. I think the two of them are friends."
"Ah, I see."
"Hey, are you really okay?"
"Of course. So what? Do I look pathetic?"
"Not really. I just feel something is different about you. Are you tired because you finished the show?"
"Ah, that seems right. To be honest, I'm very tired. But I also need entertainment."
"Yes. I can understand your current situation. Gosh. I almost forgot that I had to meet Owen."
"You're leaving?"
"No. Later."
"Oh yeah, there's something I want to ask you."
"What's that?"
"As things stand, I feel like there's something strange so far."
"What's so strange?"
"Regarding how Rivana died. It's impossible for that woman to end her life just because of a small matter. Even people's insults are like daily food. I think I suspect there's something else."
"Never mind. That person is no longer there. So you just focus on yourself and don't get too involved. It's nothing, I'm just warning you of the danger that might come. You won't be able to get out that easily if there's a problem later . You understand?"
"Yes I know."
'Again, this person's words are still trying to hold me back. What's actually going on?' I muttered to myself.
"Because it's been a long time, I can't wait to go on holiday."
"Holiday?"
"Yes. Didn't we promise we would go on holiday after your activities were finished? Don't tell me you forgot?"
"Yeah? I don't seem to remember."
"As I thought. Even though I have written a perfect itinerary."
"Sorry. I don't think I can go."
"What? Why so suddenly?"
"I have other needs. This is very important to me."
"Is that so?"
"Yes. I'm sorry Natalia."
"Okay, I understand. It's okay. I can go alone or maybe delay the time."
"Oh yeah, I also have to go now."
I quickly left and left Natalia here. There's been a few things that have been bothering me lately. I feel something is wrong. When I want to take a step on my own, I always feel like I'm stuck. Actually, I felt surprised like this from the start. It's just that I find it very difficult to express this. This time I have to show my true self more. After the party ended, I saw some unpleasant sights. Now I'm still thinking about that too. I never thought my mind would be confused again and it turns out it's only because the contents of my head keep going like this. When I was walking, suddenly I saw someone who seemed to know me. And it turns out to be true.
"Oh, you."
"Hey."
"Are you alone? Where are your friends?"
"Busy. I guess busy."
"I see. Oh yeah, how are you now? I heard you're taking part in the show?"
"Yes. Yesterday I took part in that event."
"Wow. That was amazing."
"What are you doing here yourself?"
"As usual. There are lots of views that I have to photograph. Turns out being a photographer is also a hassle, huh."
"That's as it should be, isn't it?"
"Ah, you're right. Where are you going?"
"I intend to go to the park."
"Then, see you later. I have to get back to work."
"Yeah. See you later," I said, waving my hand.
For a moment I also realized something again. I feel like this is almost crazy. For a long time I felt that something was wrong with myself. Turns out now I'm still thinking about that. I've wanted to be free with my life for a long time. Strangely I felt that it was actually very far from the point where I was standing. From now onwards, I can't say it clearly to myself. While walking, I was still curious about why Rivana died and there was no more news about it. As time went on I felt more and more curious about what was behind it all. It's impossible that there are no clues at all.