Today, when I woke up from my sleep, for a moment I felt my head feeling very dizzy. Several times I tried to stand up, I felt like I couldn't. Finally I started swallowing the medicine that I usually put in the cupboard near my bed. That's when I started to feel better. After that, I walked to the kitchen and then prepared breakfast. I live in this house alone and I have lived here for almost a year. I feel more peaceful living in an apartment like this alone than having to be with a large family which is really troublesome. I hope for all the good things that always exist on days when I want those things. I'm always very happy. This time, I remembered several things that happened at the party and I really couldn't believe it. That person came too and didn't know why it felt like I was in a wilderness full of wild animals. At that moment I felt uncomfortable and tried to stay strong even though I was really annoyed and wanted to leave there. Suddenly I thought a little about something and not long after that I immediately took out my cellphone and checked the news on the internet page. It turned out to be true. I just read an article that said something about Rivana. Even though I feel a little uncomfortable about that, on the other hand I also think about what it would be like to be like that person. I always imagine the suffering that person experiences when they meet the media who always make terrible news. At the same time, I feel a little sorry for that person even though there are many things that make me feel jealous of him. I feel like I'm drowning in incredible revenge. Once again I was always shocked by this and slowly lowered my self-confidence. This time I returned with my morning activities and not long after that my friend just woke up from sleep after staying the night here. That person is now sitting right at the dining table in my kitchen and then we talk about the same topic. I've always talked about things like this with this person for a long time and it was enough to make me feel entertained even if only for a moment. Every now and then I also look at myself that maybe now it's better and there's no harm in standing up again as usual. However, There was also one thing that made my whole body feel helpless. That feeling always appears when I feel nervous.
“Did you see the news?” my friend asked casually while eating the breakfast menu this morning.
"Yes. I just saw it. It seems like they really had the intention of bringing that person down."
“It's also called media. They will never stop making news like that, some of it even makes no sense at all. Do you know why they are like that?"
“Because of money?”
"Yes. That is also one of the reasons. Gosh this world is crazy. Do you know what you're going to do next?"
“I'm still considering it a lot. I don't want to take the wrong step. Besides, it's quite dangerous this time.”
“How do you know that?”
“I researched some of the latest information.”
“Did you find anything interesting?”
"There isn't any. It's just a bit of a bummer for me.”
"Don't overdo it too much. I know how everyone will look at you and you just need to keep your head up. Don't care about the unimportant.”
"What you say is true. it's just that I need time to do it.”
"Yes. Just prepare yourself. You can definitely do it. I know it. Oh yes, speaking of Rivana's news, do you know anything further about that person?"
"No. I do not know anything."
“Ah, damn. Even though there is something I want to ask."
"You want to meet that person?"
“You don't have to meet. Just knowing a little information is enough.”
"What do you want? Don't tell me you're going to use that information to your advantage?”
"I think I should know some things that I find quite curious."
"You suspect that person?"
“Open your suspicions. How do you explain it? What is clear is that this has nothing to do with any crime. I just want to know."
“Natalia.”
"Yes? Why?"
"Do you think I can go back?"
"Back where?"
"Good grief. You are."
“Ah, you want to shine again and take your rightful place? Of course you can. There's nothing you can't do.”
“I just feel scared.”
"Do not be afraid. There's no point in being scared just because of one damn thing. you can."
"Yes. "Actually, I don't want that damn thing to happen again."
"Do not let. I knew it would probably be a big risk. But, believe me, it will make you strong and you will definitely know what you should do at times like that. Just learn from what happened to you before."
"Yes. You are right. I think I should do it. Get out of your comfort zone a little and keep going.”
"Yes. That's what you have to do. Do not look Back. Just keep going, you can do it."
“How many times are you going to say you can do it? I've heard it a thousand times so never mind.”
"Okay."
Sometimes I have to move. It doesn't matter what happens and I already know the risks so I'm sure I'll just be fine. After that, I also felt a little relieved when I said the burden on my mind this morning. Not long after that, Natalia started to stand up and was now preparing to return home. As soon as she finished getting ready, Natalia went straight home. Previously, we talked about so many things that it didn't even feel like it was midnight and it turned out that it was dangerous to come home so late at night. That's when Natalia decided to stay here. I also feel happy because I have friends to chat with and now I have to go back to my usual activities. Even though at first I was a little depressed and I didn't know what to do, I had decided on one thing that I had to do. I feel like it will only make me more cowardly if it continues. This time I promised myself to do my best. It's time for me to return to the abyss where I must survive. It didn't feel easy and slowly I started imagining terrible events and kept doing that until I felt scared. Meanwhile, now Natalia was on her way home and not long after that, someone asked Natalia to meet her. They then met at a restaurant near this area. It didn't feel easy and slowly I started imagining terrible events and kept doing that until I felt scared. Meanwhile, now Natalia was on her way home and not long after that, someone asked Natalia to meet her. They then met at a restaurant near this area. It didn't feel easy and slowly I started imagining terrible events and kept doing that until I felt scared. Meanwhile, now Natalia was on her way home and not long after that, someone asked Natalia to meet her. They then met at a restaurant near this area.
"What did you call me here for?" asked Natalia a little annoyed.
"Hey, have you had breakfast?"
“I just finished breakfast at Helene's apartment. Why?"
"Wow, it turns out I'm late."
"What do you want to tell me?"
"Actually, I've been wanting to ask about this for a long time," said Owen while showing something that was none other than a picture of a woman.
"What does this mean? you spy on people?”
"No. I found this from someone who sent me an email message. That's why I want to ask you this question. Do you know this person?”
"No. The picture is not clear."
“Hey, don't be kidding, this is crystal clear.”
"But I can't see the woman's face."
"When you think about it, it seems like the person who sent me this photo intended to threaten me."
“Why threaten someone like you?”
“How would I know. This is just my guess. I'm not sure what that person meant. But, if you look closely, I think it looks like Helene."
"Hah? Seriously."
"Take a look again."
“I've seen it and there's nothing similar at all. Don't just talk about it."
"Okay. I understand."
“Oh yeah, why are you so difficult to contact? Are you that busy?”
"Correct. I've had to write a lot of songs lately. That's why I rarely play with my cellphone."
"Aren't you coming home either?"
"Yes. I had to stay overnight at the studio.”
"Good grief."
The two of them continued to talk. Several times Natalia said many things, it turned out that this person only responded briefly. After that they went back to talking about other things. There was something that felt strange all along and then Natalia asked about it again just to check the suspicions that were in Natalia's head. Not long after that, Owen continued to say that he didn't know anything and was just sitting in the studio making songs. There was no strange information or news that he knew and according to him it was not important. Natalia then took a deep breath and continued talking with Owen.
"Then why are you asking me such unimportant things?"
"That's because I wanted to know whether you could look for information or not and it turned out to be the same."
"You're looking for someone?"
“Ah, that's right.”
"Why are you looking for that person?"
"There's something I need to tell you."
“Are you sure just because of that?”
"What else?"
“You seem serious. I don't know who you're looking for, but if you tell me maybe I can help you.”
"That person is quite close to me but I haven't seen him for a long time and until now I didn't know his whereabouts."
“That was really hard.”
"It seems like you can help me."
"Yes. I'll work on that.”
Not long after, Natalia immediately smiled happily and at that moment Owen felt a little surprised by this person's request. At that time, Natalia told Owen something which turned out to be quite surprising. After they finished meeting, Natalia continued her journey home. Meanwhile, Owen was still in this restaurant and thought about something for a moment. He seemed to feel depressed and not long afterward tried to look fine. There are many things that turn out to be surprising and every now and then it becomes a new burden that befalls him. Owen then checked his cellphone again and now there were only messages from his friends.
'This will be a bit troublesome,' Owen muttered to himself.