I feel like this time it really went too far. The situation feels increasingly difficult. There are some things that are really annoying. I feel like this world is very broken. When I met that person, in an instant my view immediately changed and left only hatred behind. I myself can no longer endure all this. It felt like I was in hell. Everything I've done has actually not met my expectations. The longer it goes on, the more annoyed I feel. Different from anything I've seen lately. Sometimes I get fed up and there are so many things that disappoint me. Once again I don't like the current situation. Several things have begun to be revealed and it has actually brought annoying things. I myself am very disgusted with what I have seen. There's nothing interesting and there's just a story driven by someone else. I slowly opened some of the documents on my desk and now I found notes where I had once written various things. Strangely I felt like this wasn't like me and slowly I almost lost myself. Now it's the same. Compared to that, I tend to get annoyed with things that only get worse over time. Sometimes I hate everything that exists until now. The sun is getting higher. This time I hope for something beautiful. It turned out that it actually brought problems that I never expected. I've been getting annoyed with all this lately and it's just some weird stuff. At the same time I couldn't stop myself and was almost swept away by the terrible current. Until this moment I am very annoyed. Many things are doubtful. Once again, all this does not pass easily. I'm also annoyed by this strange situation. Slowly the bitter reality became my friend. I realized that I had hoped too much for things that were useless so far. That's why I'm so annoyed by all this.
'Good grief. How annoying,' I muttered to myself.
Over time I got fed up. This time I just walked alone. I started to be curious about this very popular news. Although I'm a little doubtful and actually tend to feel like I don't care. It's just that there are a few things that suddenly crossed my head. Everything comes non-stop. This time I felt a little uneasy. I've had a few drinks and even taken myself to the bar. When I got there, there was nothing I wanted. It's all just a boring sight. I've been annoyed by this over and over again. After that, I sat down and then looked at the window which looked right at the city view. Every day feels strange. For me there are only problems rather than good things. It cannot be denied that if I had not gone back and tried to live a normal life, it is likely that I would not have experienced something like this. After thinking about it again, it only adds to the problem and will only increase. I don't want to live like this anymore. Even if I beg, I don't want to do useless things. After this I couldn't stand it anymore and then I left the apartment and went somewhere. My thoughts are apparently still the same as before.
"Is this how Rivana felt before she died?" I muttered.
Many people have come to this exhibition. Natalia, who was the event committee, looked full of enthusiasm. Not long after that there were many people asking to take photos of the work they had made. It's just that, while she was crowding with people, Natalia suddenly saw someone. He quickly ran and when he tried to confirm the person, it turned out he was gone. Quite annoyed, Natalia immediately returned to the place where the event was taking place even though she was still curious about what Natalia had just seen. Apart from that, Natalia also felt a little bad feeling.
'What's this? Impossible,' muttered Natalia to herself while shaking her head.
From a different side. There are many things that are really strange. Apart from that, the problems that keep coming up just make you crazy. I barely focused on the road and almost hit someone. This time I really messed up. After that I went again to another place and tried to calm myself down. When we got there, it turned out it felt the same. Not a good enough thing. All the fun that just flashed by, quickly disappeared. I felt this over and over again until I felt like I really understood it and until now it still feels annoying. I want to go. When I was sitting, suddenly someone approached me.
"Hey, you're here," said the person in a voice that sounded like someone I knew.
“Oh, Owen? What are you doing?"
"I should be the one asking that. What are you doing here. You don't usually come to this place. Is there something?”
"Yes. There are many things.”
"Let me guess, you're not okay?"
"Correct."
"Good grief. This time what happened? It's strange if suddenly something annoying happens and it's very difficult to conquer it."
"By the way, are you off today?"
"To be honest, every day is also a holiday."
"Aren't you working?"
“I work remotely.”
“Ah, I see.”
This person keeps coming when I'm like this. Is all this just a coincidence? Questions like that actually came to me. Indeed, I don't care at all. It's just that I feel a little curious why it just came like that. I don't know what to do anymore. Now it just takes a little time to think. I felt annoyed and it turns out that's what I felt until this moment. Even all hand movements seem to be controlled by someone else. This time I swear something is wrong. Sometimes my guesses are just guesses and in the end they are not true at all. My condition just got worse.
“Oh yes, it looks like Natalia is joining the exhibition committee. Aren't you going there?" Owen asked me.
"What?"
"You did not know?"
“Oh, yeah.”
"Apparently the boy didn't tell you, maybe he was too busy so he didn't have time to tell you."
“I think so too. Does not matter. I understand."
"Don't you want to go there?"
"Hah?"
"You seem to be in trouble, so maybe by going there your mood can return to normal."
“That doesn't sound bad. But, I still want to be here and see views like this.”
"Okay. I understand too. But are you sure you're okay?"
"What do you mean?"
"Look, from now on you have to be careful."
"Why?"
“For your sake.”