Honestly, I'm still thinking. Until now I can't do anything. Seeing the shocking reality right in front of me right now really makes me feel devastated. How can this person be before my eyes now. Even though it's clear I never knew this person. Even though this was a coincidence, it felt very strange. Previously Ayaka told me and it turns out I really didn't believe it even though there was evidence. Now I can only freeze. In front of a woman who was sitting on a hospital bed. I looked at this woman's body condition carefully and it looked worrying. To the point that I felt speechless. It's also strange if I respond unnaturally. Even at this moment I'm really confused. I always question myself why I came here when it was so bad. I don't feel okay at the moment. After I thought about it several times, it's the same. When I try to say something, my mouth always fails to say anything. I just looked at him with a look full of compassion. I felt like I was in a strange grip. Now I decided to leave this room for a moment. But I can't do it. Again my footsteps stopped as if I was really trapped. My vision looked increasingly confused and it made me feel embarrassed. I really don't know what to do.
"You came here alone?" The woman said to me in a quite friendly tone. While smiling.
"Yes. I came here alone.”
“How did you know I was here?”
"What? Ah, that's because my friend told me. That's why I came here. By the way, how come...?”
"I don't know. To be honest, I don't remember clearly what happened. Isn't this strange?”
"No. I think it's just a temporary effect because you got hit before.”
"I also hope so. It is just. There is a bit of a problem."
"Problem?"
"Correct. Something I really don't understand. That's why I stopped my activities and haven't painted for a while."
As soon as I heard the words that came out of this person's mouth, it felt like they made sense. I also felt strange why someone who was so popular, even more than other artists, could just stop like that and there was no news at all. I used to think maybe something was up. Turns out I was right. Everything that had been a prejudice lately was just answered now. I also wonder why something like that could happen. From the words that came out it was clear that they contained a lot of honesty and no lies at all. I feel jealous of the honesty that has just been revealed.
"Then, what are your plans next?" I said without realizing saying this.
"Who knows. Looks like I'll just take care of my health. I don't have any energy anymore. Instead of looking better, it actually looks the opposite. How about you?"
“Of course I will live my life as usual. I have no reason to stop. And again, I've been a little disappointed with myself lately, that's why I decided to just focus on myself. While creating the latest work."
“Wow. That sounds awesome. Don't forget that you have to keep flying and don't care about unimportant things."
"I understand. As my senior, I also respect you very much. Hope you can recover quickly."
When I came back from the hospital, I was devastated. There are many things that are very unexpected. I really feel strange about all this. To the point where I want to leave immediately, I can no longer stand this world that is getting more and more damned. Honestly, I don't want to live like this. Unconsciously, I put everything into my work. This time I think this will be something that can bring profit. So far, several works have been sold at very high prices. I was so happy and can't forget that moment. At the same time I was also curious about other experiments. Meanwhile, right now at the hospital. Someone just came with flowers. Not only that, this person also apparently provided some information. In less than an hour, the person had left there. Lucy, who witnessed this behind the window, apparently felt curious without realizing it. Lucy quickly entered the room and met the woman. The look that looked fragile with a very pale face made Lucy feel sorry. But at the same time there was something that really made Lucy's chest feel tight even just by remembering that one thing.
"You've come," said the woman with a blank look.
"What is this? Why are you being like this?"
“You can see for yourself. Now everything is destroyed.”
"What do you mean?"
“I don't think the accident was a coincidence.”
"What? So you think someone else did it on purpose? No kidding."
“That's just mere speculation. I'm still not sure either.”
"Then who was that man?"
“Oh, that person is just an acquaintance of mine. I told him to find out what really happened.”
“So it turns out. I apologize."
"What are you apologizing to me for?"
“Because lately I often ignore your messages. Even though you really need help."
"That's enough. Just forget it."
The two of them were still talking about it. Until one day, Lucy remembered that apparently a lot of things had happened all this time and it had all just passed by. Nothing is easy. Everything always brings problems. Without delay, Lucy left the room. Now Lucy's hands seemed to be shaking. At the same time, Ayaka was at home. I've been watching the news ever since. Lately the media has often released celebrity news and that makes Ayaka curious. Unexpectedly, the news about the accident became even more popular and is still a topic of public discussion. Ayaka then checked the contents of the message that came to the cellphone.
"Who's this?" Ayaka muttered while reading the message.
This time I felt uncomfortable. Don't know why feelings like that just appear. I originally wanted to make a painting in a new style but suddenly my head hurt and I started to think more and more about something. Currently I have taken headache medicine and it still feels the same. No changes. I felt like my world was going to collapse too. It would be very strange if in an instant everything came to me without any clue. I felt the same thing over and over again as if it was paradoxical.
"Why did it turn out like this?" I muttered while looking at my painting.