This morning I woke up from sleep. As soon as the alarm rang, I looked at the time and it was already 7 in the morning. Even though I now realize that today is Sunday, I'm a little relieved. When my eyes began to record the beauty of the morning, I felt a warm sensation. Instantly I got up from my bed and now started walking slowly. I also took the time to check out some of the flower plants that I had planted on purpose. I haven't felt this kind of pleasure in a long time. I mumbled a little and it wasn't long before I remembered that there was something I had to do this afternoon. I slowly watered this plant and suddenly my breath started to feel erratic. The morning is full of gusts of wind. This reminds me of the days in my childhood with my grandmother in the village. At that time I was just an innocent little child who just wanted to keep playing and playing. Now I have to start my life with an adult life. Immediately I also felt worried that I couldn't do it. My mind continues to be haunted by things like that and right now I am also trying to calm myself and take a deep breath. I returned home and now started tidying up my clothes. I've never felt this tired before. Now I know what it's like to live alone in another city. Sometimes I also miss everyone where I live. But I feel that these are things that I have to face no matter what. Instantly I felt amazed because my mind suddenly began to wake up. Today I am busy with activities at home. Occasionally I also rest while sipping a glass of warm tea. The favorable weather for going out makes me feel comfortable. Not long after that I resumed my activities. Now I don't have to do many things which are quite strange. I feel like there's something wrong with all of this. I can't help it, now I feel a sensation that is very different from before. Right now I feel like I'm empty. That's all I think. Don't know if this is regret or something. I'm still not sure about that. It's just that I hope something else comes to me that might wake me up from this strange dream. Turns out it was all just my imagination. In reality there is no such thing and it is just my imagination. This time I really looked like an idiot. It doesn't feel like all my work today has been completed. Not only that, I also feel a little relieved that I have finished this.
"Wow, it's finally finished," I muttered as I sat in the chair.
I don't think I thought this would end so quickly. I can't believe it, I still don't even think so. After this I felt a little relaxed. Me enjoying today is really unusual. Sometimes I wonder whether other people live a pleasant life or not. I always think about that silly thing and now I start checking my cell phone. I thought there were a lot of messages coming in and after I checked it turned out none of them had come to my cell phone. I took another deep breath before getting up from this seat
'Everything is still the same,' I thought.
I returned with my footsteps heading towards one of the places. It turned out that when I arrived, it felt like the first time I came here. There's nothing more fun. There are only some things that ever happen. Often I feel uncomfortable in an atmosphere like this. People also come here and I see that they really enjoy the atmosphere here. While continuing to pay attention to my surroundings, I once thought that maybe there was something else I could do instead of just sitting there like this. It turns out that all of that actually became a burden on my mind. I felt like I was in my subconscious and only watched this world from behind a mirror wall. When I started to sit down and then looked at the others, it felt like nothing was different. Everything is always like this. I felt like I was under a world that only other people had. Slow, that's what I noticed. Time goes by and I'm still like this, I really can't believe it. Now I feel a little bored and immediately get up from my current seat and walk again while looking for freshness. My heart feels much better than before. The sound of the wind makes me feel real life. I don't think about that kind of stuff much these days and tend to just witness something that's pretty crazy. I feel this is my opportunity that should never be wasted. When the sun began to set, I felt comfortable with this orange sun. As if I had just seen the light of life. Apart from that, this time I found an idea for my newest work. I've been thinking about it and I think it's a great fit. Once I had decided, I was relieved by what I had found. Now I have to go back home and start working on my work. But, suddenly I heard someone's voice calling my name. When I turned around, it turned out it was my friend.
"Good grief. I've been calling you ever since. Why did you just turn around?” Asked the woman who was a little tired.
“I just heard it just now. What did you call me for?”
“I'm just curious. Is that you? And it turns out my vision is never wrong. By the way, what are you doing here?”
“Just keep quiet. What are you doing in this area?"
"Just like you. At first I just intended to keep quiet. But after that I changed my mind.”
“I see.”
"Yes. That is how it is."
"You're not looking for someone?"
"What? Why do you say that?”
"I'm just asking. Are you offended? Then, I apologize.”
"No. Absolutely not."
Even though I knew that it was impossible, I thought that by directing something like that this woman would definitely understand what I had said. I don't really like people who just come to me. It feels very strange and very difficult to understand. Not only that, I also often think something is wrong. When I decided to just go back to my house and leave this person, now my mood started to feel relieved. The sky was getting darker and I went back in a hurry. Arriving at my house, I took a deep breath and not long after that I started checking some of my things.
“Ah, damn. I forgot where to save it?" I muttered.
Right now I feel like something is missing. For a moment I thought maybe I missed something. It turned out that after I checked again there was something wrong. I started to worry about this and slowly my attitude began to appear strange. Right now I'm just moving the gears and I can't understand why it's like this. The situation here was starting to get a bit chaotic and couldn't be controlled well. For a moment I looked at something which was none other than a photo of me when I appeared at one of the shows. At that time I looked very innocent and beautiful.
'What does this mean?' I muttered to myself.
When I look back, it feels truly amazing. The first time I was on stage. Seeing the atmosphere that I have longed for for a long time. I couldn't believe what I felt at that moment. As time goes by, I just hope I can forever feel that beautiful sensation and it will never go away. To this day, that memory remains etched in my head. I always imagine myself being strong enough to stand there with the others. I feel that it is a hope that I want to make come true at any cost. At first glance it sounds forced, it's just that I want it.
"Gosh, why did you suddenly think of that?" I'm muttering now.
Meanwhile, something different is happening elsewhere. When some people were busy with their own training, the coach then scolded them for not doing their training well enough today. The atmosphere began to look astonishing. One of them started to tear up. Not long after that, the situation returned to normal by trying to forget what happened just now and trying for the best. The beautiful melody began to be felt, the coach then nodded his head as if this was what he wanted. It was a cold night, this time I sat on the sofa watching my favorite film. It doesn't feel like time just passed by. When I checked my cell phone, suddenly someone called me.
"Hello?"
“Oh, Hey. How are you?"
“Ah, fine. Why?"
"It is nothing. By the way Aria, I have something to ask you.”
"Just tell me what it is Kiara."
“This is actually very embarrassing. When we were practicing, we were all scolded by the coach. Do you know what happened? I guess there's no time left for me.”
"What do you mean?"
“I mean, how should I do it? Can I?"
“Wait, I don't understand your situation yet. Can you tell me more clearly? I'm still confused."
“I feel inappropriate.”
"Do not say like that. Everyone must have felt like they have been in a difficult situation. It's just that you can survive"
Even though I don't know for sure what really happened to Kiara, I still feel a little strange. This person suddenly contacted me and said this kind of thing. As time went on I became more suspicious. I can't imagine what happened there, I just hope it will be okay. Meanwhile, currently Kiara is seen outside. The beautiful woman was standing directly facing the city buildings on the roof of an apartment building. Her beautiful face was streaked with tears. Unstoppable crying. Kiara was still up there and remained silent for a moment while trying to wipe away the tears that were falling.