I feel a little uneasy. Not like usual, this time it was really annoying. I feel there is something wrong with me. In the end, time goes on and never stops. Everyone always looks forward to a happy ending. That also apparently happened to me. It feels like I'm on the verge of endless limits. Now I understand why everyone always feels the same way, apparently it's all like a paradox that comes. There are times when humans always try to escape, but strangely I can't do it. Even now I feel helpless. A very tiring day. The first time I was in a situation like this was when I was trying to get out of a terrible cycle. I've also experienced many other strange things. Up to where I am, everything feels so funny. It's not impossible for me to laugh at myself for being so stupid. I feel so ashamed of the times when I was at a point like that. But, I hope and keep making lots of changes, in the end I feel much better than yesterday and yesterday again. I already thought that everything would be on the verge of something like this. I feel that now I have changed more and I feel grateful for myself. There's nothing better than that. Besides, yesterday I saw someone in the practice room. The person looked like he was calling someone. It's just that I didn't see the person's face because I was in a hurry. I thought there was something strange, without realizing it I missed the most dangerous thing. In an instant I felt shocked and really couldn't believe it. I also felt it was so terrible that I couldn't say anything. I also didn't have time to say all this to Danielle, who was talking to me at the cafe. My feelings are getting mixed up. My heart can't say a lie that I'm really really scared. Once someone came to me. That person looks like a good, sanhar person. We were friends for a fairly short time before I found out about all the shady things. That person acted like a kind friend. Foolishly, I once believed. But as I became friends with that woman longer, I felt like I was losing something. That person continues to sabotage. With an innocent face like an angel, even though deep inside the person's heart is really scary. Memories that I don't want to remember anymore come back to haunt me. Now I really can't rest well. When I looked at the clock, it was only 1 pm.
'Gosh, why is that nightmare coming again?' I muttered to myself.
The next morning. I woke up from a very restless sleep. And now getting ready to eat breakfast. I can't just forget it. It's annoying when things like this always stick like glue. Even now, I'm still confused about what to do because of all this. Plus today there is a morning class so I have to leave as soon as possible. On the way I met several friends from campus and they were quite nice. We chatted for a while before finally going our separate ways because of different classes and majors. When I got to class, I sat down and then read a book.
'I think this is much better,' I muttered to myself again.
Today's material is quite energy consuming. After three hours of studying, class finally ended. I feel a little tired than a normal day. When I decided to leave immediately, I suddenly heard two women talking about something. I don't think it's surprising that it ended like that. This was predictable. It seems that humans are very difficult to change. Without further ado, I immediately left this room and went where I wanted. After that I felt much more at peace. Sometimes other people will think that I'm lonely. In fact, I actually felt very happy. I arrived at a cafe close to my practice place. This is my first time coming here after college. Initially I intended to invite other people but as I expected the situation was not possible. Finally I went alone. Enjoy sweet foods and several other dishes. I feel like this is real life. When I started to get bored with this world, I hoped that one day I could meet someone on the same frequency and be able to live a good and prosperous life. That is a dream that I want to make come true. To be honest I really wanted something like that. I can't even imagine it. In this place I also felt there was something fun. For a moment I felt Dejavu and it was no different from this. My breath feels relieved. The truly peaceful atmosphere made me comfortable. I feel like I'm in another world. That's how far comfort has come to me. Sometimes everything is almost the same and I can't tell the difference at all. On the first day I entered the practice room, everything felt foreign. I was the only one standing in the front row. When I looked back, it turned out that people were busy with their own friends. There are even groups. I feel very annoyed and feel inferior if that is not my world, not the place where I should be.
“This is too peaceful. But somehow I even like it?" I muttered.
Right now in a room full of antiques. Someone is seen sitting while reading a newspaper. Not long after, Danielle entered this room in a hurry. As if he was trying to get something done. An elderly woman then looked away and stopped reading the newspaper. For a moment, he watched Danielle's face change as soon as he saw her. Danielle still didn't speak and continued to stare as if she was trying to say what was in her heart but still needed courage. Danielle finally had the courage to come clean.
"Grandma."
“Hmm? What is it?"
"Actually, I've been wanting to tell you this for a long time."
“What do you want to say? If it's just to disturb my rest time, you should just go home."
"Excuse me. If it's really annoying. But, I really want to cancel that training.”
"What are you saying?"
“I don't want to train with the mentor that Grandma chose. Because I prefer the one who usually trains me."
"Can't! You have to follow what I say.”
“But that doesn't help.”
“Don't argue. I've paid dearly for that guy. So don't make too many excuses."
"Then why don't you just practice with that person," said Danielle, who then left the grandmother.