After that I just kept quiet. There's nothing I can do after this. I thought everything would just disappear, but it turns out it's not that easy. This time I also felt a little depressed about it and kept thinking about it even to the point where I couldn't sleep. Right now I can't do anything either. Once I do something, that's when I imagine how messy it will be. My desire to live peacefully will likely be destroyed if this continues. When I first heard what Eliza said, I found it strange to say the least. The person was candid with me and that I thought was quite suspicious. Right now I feel a little wary and keep thinking negatively. As if my mood had gone dark. This time I really didn't care anymore and tried to get used to that kind of thing. Even though time just flew by, it felt like I was in a coffin and couldn't escape. My legs slowly started to hurt. I always thought the worst possible thing and after looking again it turned out it was true. Even now I feel that this world has collapsed. Since I felt tight and uncomfortable, I suddenly kept imagining how I could go through all this. The question continues to haunt me for now. In fact, I almost lost my appetite. The next morning. I woke up and started my day as usual. When I look in the mirror, it's not just me. These eye bags are clearly visible as if I forgot my bedtime. For a moment I stole my face again and after that I immediately prepared to clean myself. After everything was finished, I left alone the same as I usually do. Previously, when Eliza was still with me, I was a little worried that that person would do something behind my back. It turned out that the person left quickly unlike what I had previously imagined. It feels quite relaxing. Although it looks lonely, I feel like this is much more than what I wanted. Today's weather is also suitable for just starting the day. On a short journey, I received a message from someone via text message. The person seemed to want to ask something quite important to me. I feel this is unusual. For a moment I just sat there and didn't reply to the message. But, when I asked again, I thought that person really needed my help. I quickly answered the message and told him what I knew. Right now I can't understand myself. At the same time I also felt like I was too stupid or something. I often swear and do various things right in my heart. It's just that now I feel a little calmer than usual.
“Oh, Aria. It's you," someone said to me. I quickly turned towards the person.
“Oh, hey.”
"You also have morning class apparently."
"Yes. You are right."
"How are you? The last time I saw you was at that meeting."
“As you can see I'm fine. How about you?"
"Just like you."
“That's good.”
"Oh yes, have you decided what you will do in the future?"
"What? Oh, I don't know. I still feel confused."
“I see. It turns out that people like you can also be confused."
“What kind of person do you think I am? Why are you talking like that?”
“You're smart. I think smart people tend to be more idealistic.”
“Ah, not everyone is like that. So don't get your hopes up."
After I finished talking to that person, it felt like I had just been freed from suffering. Although I don't think the person is strange enough, I just see how this all works. At that moment I felt like I was in another zone and it just kept repeating itself. Even now, my feelings are still the same. When I started to lose where everything was, I could no longer remain calm. At the same time, I also feel that this is really outrageous. I'm fed up with all this and something new is coming. When I feel that this world has begun to turn unusual, I often feel overwhelmed. Just like that time. I also can't stop myself until now it's still the same. In the past time, I often encountered strange things and it also didn't go well. I'm really losing myself right now and that's exactly how I feel. To the point where I felt fed up with it and now it's still the same. I slowly stood up and then left. This time my mind has started to improve. Previously I remembered several things that really bothered me. Now it's gone. I'm back to walking with who I am now. The beginning is something I've already seen. But, I also thought there might be something else. I feel like that's going too far. Until now, I'm still the same. While everyone is starting to win their lives, the truth is that I am not at all. Honestly this is driving me crazy. I can't do anything. As soon as I discovered something that was quite surprising, for a moment I felt like someone was taking me into a realm that was very difficult to understand. I feel this is really terrible. At that moment I was shaking and didn't know what to do. Meanwhile, right now it's somewhere else. Eliza is seen alone. A look on your face that shows you are in trouble. Suddenly someone approached Eliza. The person looked confused by the person in front of his eyes who was none other than Eliza. They both stared at each other for a moment. The woman's face was still watching Eliza. Even though he didn't know him at all, he didn't feel strangely disturbed. The person then gave something to Eliza. Eliza quickly turned around and then smiled kindly. It turns out that something unexpected always happens, even very strange things. Without delay, Eliza immediately said something to this woman.
"Thank You."
"Yes. You're welcome."
"But, why did you give this?"
“I think you are not in a good mood. I hope it is much better now than before.”
“Ah, I see. You're so kind."
"Does not matter. Today the weather is good.”
"Correct. I can't believe I see something like this."
“Oh, it turns out I have to go. See you later."
"Yes. Be careful. "Have a nice day," Eliza said to the person while waving.
'Strange, why do I feel uncomfortable with the current situation? Is this what is called guilt? But why?' Eliza muttered to herself. For a moment, Eliza looked up at the bright sky.
People often think something makes them happy. Something that doesn't even seem real. Not only that, fantasies that are so deceptive are also material for their consideration. Even though they already know what will happen, according to their thoughts, it has absolutely no effect. Some felt it was strange, even completely unreasonable. It's like there are insects infesting the food. This time it didn't feel much different from that. Something that looked quite unpleasant. Problems keep coming and keep being in the same room. Pieces of the puzzle come back to haunt him. I'm fed up with this. The sun feels warm, the atmosphere of the people also seems very good today. After I came home from campus I felt very bored. At that time I also dared to go to a further place. My feelings started to get mixed up. I feel like there's something that doesn't even make me comfortable. At that moment I felt that maybe this was normal. For a moment I saw someone who looked like someone I knew. But I lost track of him. Now I'm back to focusing on myself. Even though in my mind I was starting to feel curious about it, like it wasn't just me. Suddenly something like that came.
'Who is it?' I muttered to myself.
An atmosphere that I don't want to lose. Various things that should feel comfortable, at that moment I felt that all of this was supposed to be there. Even though it made me feel sensations that were even more absurd, at the same time I never cared. Even though it continues to annoy me, I feel like it will only make me uncomfortable. This time I got annoyed because my mind suddenly started to get confused. I quickly tried to calm down. Suddenly I also remembered one thing that was quite important but I ignored it. I became disappointed.
"Oh, you're here too," someone said to me while patting my shoulder.
“Oh, Jennifer.”
"You don't usually want to attend a busy event like this? What makes your heart move?”
“Ah, what a coincidence, I'm bored. And when I saw the information in the chat group, it turned out that there was an art exhibition near campus, that's why I came here. Did you come for that yourself?”
"Yes. You are right. That's because I'm also taking part in this event.”
"What?"
“Wow. You don't need to be so surprised. I think you're overreacting. "Actually, I was just taking my time and suddenly it occurred to me that I should do this."
“I see.”
To be honest, I'm still surprised that Jennifer is here. I don't think I believe it. But on the other hand I feel like this person is really good at it. I also recognize Jennifer's abilities. But I don't know why I still feel uncomfortable. I couldn't think straight. My heart felt like there was a lump in it. For a moment I took a deep breath and went back to enjoying the atmosphere in this place before I finally returned to my house. After that, I started to return to my usual calm. It's really strange how my mood always changes at any time. This is really troublesome.
'I think I should go back home,' I said to myself.