When I got home, I felt like it was getting worse. After I thought about it, there was only a shadow that continued to stalk me. Slowly, I tried to calm myself. By now it was starting to look dark. Contrary to what I expected, my mind was always confused for a second. Without delay, I sat down and then turned on the computer monitor. One thing is definitely stuck in my heart, I feel a little shaky. This feeling came back and I felt uncomfortable. On the one hand, I also can no longer escape like I did back then. For a moment I just felt annoyed and forgot to say anything to myself. While thinking, I also don't want this to happen again. Like in a dream, when everything came back right before my eyes, I couldn't feel anything anymore. That dominant looking color kept haunting me until I couldn't breathe. Slowly, I also want to get out of that maze. But strangely, until now I still can't avoid it. Even though I wanted to, in an instant it was as if someone was pulling me back in there. At that time I almost went crazy. At the same time, I also cried so hard that my chest was tight. Once I woke up and realized it was just a dream. The feeling of despair I felt immediately disappeared and I began to feel relieved. This time I tried to find out some things that I thought were quite strange. I couldn't just sit there while looking at the quite beautiful view. Sometimes it hurts and I believe that there is something behind it all. I felt sure that there was something. As soon as I found one of that person's accounts, I started searching and it turned out I found something quite important. In the blink of my eye I couldn't believe what I had just found. It felt like my chest was feeling tight again and I couldn't hold it in anymore. My mind is just as confused.
'What's this? Impossible!,' I muttered to myself.
Meanwhile, right now it's somewhere else. Someone seems to be playing something. The smooth-looking hand started holding the pen and not long after that, the person stopped his movements. As if feeling a little disturbed. This person, seen from any angle, was as charming as a prince in a fairy tale. Even several women in this cafe were seen looking at him with eyes full of amazement. After that, he realized that they were indeed paying attention to him and then glanced at the group of women while flashing a smile that immediately fascinated them.
“Hey, can you not make them even crazier?” Said a young man with messy hair right in front of him.
“Shut up.”
"It turns out you're still the same. Your bad nature is quite dangerous.”
"What do you mean?"
“You can drive them crazy. Didn't you hear what I just said? "Jeez, this bastard," he said, shaking his head.
“Kiel.”
"What? Why are you suddenly calling me that?”
"Can you guess what's in my head?"
"Hah? What else is it this time?"
“It turns out you can't. That's good."
“Hey, what are you planning? Don't tell me you're going to cause trouble again?”
"No."
"It's best not to ever act again. Everyone is after you, Bastian."
“Aiming at me? Are they out of their minds?"
“How would I know. That's what I saw clearly."
At that moment, both of them were surprised. There is nothing more surprising than that. It had been a long time since the two of them talked about many things which was quite strange. Meanwhile, right now I'm still busy with what I did before. Nothing was really fun and I felt a little frustrated because of that. Until time has passed quickly, I still don't expect what I found. In an instant I immediately took my cell phone and then checked the person's number. It turns out it's not important if I ask now. I immediately gave up my intention and returned to my other activities. Several tasks have piled up. There's something that keeps bothering me. I couldn't do anything for a while because of that. But on the other hand, I feel annoyed because I don't know why my feelings are even more chaotic. Sleep time is also very disturbed. Usually I only sleep as late as 10pm. But now I often have insomnia. I've tried it several times and it still doesn't work. Now I've given up on that and just let it go. After I think about it, it seems like I'm completely unaware of what's been happening to me lately. I feel like I've really lost myself. When everything started to look dark, I imagined one very important thing. I felt such a terrible sensation. But it came unexpectedly. Instantly I was annoyed by this and it turns out that now it's haunting me even more. Slowly I got fed up and I quickly took the alcohol in the refrigerator. It feels much better now than before. Outside there was also the sound of heavy rain. I imagine where I am right now, full of confusion. Doing anything also feels uninspired. I'm still under this strange pressure to this day.
“Jeez,” I muttered while taking a deep breath.
Right in one of the other places. Currently they are both still in the same location. Kiel and Bastian are still talking about similar things. Kiel started to say a lot of things he knew but it made Bastian seem like he didn't believe what he was saying. Kiel is still excited to tell his friend everything and it turns out he still has something quite mysterious. Bastian immediately stopped his activity which had been continuing to draw designs. Now he seemed to be starting to get curious about the nonsense his friend was saying this time. Bastian's eyes looked quite curious.
"So you know all that from them?" Bastian asked, trying to confirm.
"Yes. They told me themselves.”
"You're still dealing with those people, apparently. What are you after from those bastards?”
"Ah, I think you're aware of that too."
“That's what it turns out to be.”
"Come on. This is not the time to be hostile and continue to hate each other. In fact, it would be very profitable if you tried to be nice even if it was fake.”
"That's enough. That didn't interest me at all. Just a waste of time."
"You're stupid. What else you want, it's up to you."
"Yes. It's really not the time for me to deal with them anymore for a while.”
The next day. When I went to a small town. Today I intend to go on holiday. After almost a week of feeling crazy, I've suffered a lot. For a moment I thought about how to calm myself down and forget all the bad things that had happened. Immediately I intended to just go on a trip. Coincidentally, one of my friends invited me to go to a small town in the north. At first I hoped it was just luck and I didn't have anything to worry about. After I agreed to that, right then and there I got ready to go there. Finally I decided to go with my friend.
"Hey, is that all you brought?" Lucy asked me.
“Ah, yes. This much is enough. Why?"
"Good grief. Even though we will spend a week there. Are you sure it's okay to only bring one suitcase?”
"Yes. I think this is enough. Besides, I won't do much, I mean I'll just take a vacation as needed."
"Okay. I understand. Up to you. By the way, what about your other activities? Are you okay with leaving that behind?”
"Right now I don't have any activities. So I don't have a problem. It just so happens that I also want to go win myself.”
“That's good. I'm pleased to hear it. Let's go."
We immediately boarded the train as soon as it arrived. Slowly I found this enjoyable. After that I also thought that there were some things that I always missed. Nothing ever crossed my mind even though it was just a memory. Sometimes I also think that it will only make me feel bad about living life. In the end everything is like that. It's been a long time since I went to a faraway place. I feel like I miss the days when I always traveled without thinking twice and was only ambitious for my pleasure. This time I really wanted the old atmosphere. The old me and it makes me want to go back.
"Oh yeah, I heard the news that the event looks like it will be cancelled," said Lucy.
"What is the event?"
"You did not know?"
"No. What is going on?"
“Previously someone told me that the event they were preparing for the city's anniversary would be held with great fanfare. "But, they suddenly announced that the event would be cancelled."
"Why?"
"Don't know. The person also didn't tell me the reason. That's all they said.”
“It can't be without reason. Don't tell me something happened?”
"That could be the reason. I myself don't understand why they do it. Even though it's a little more. Do you think there's something strange?”
"It is clear. The cancellation just doesn't make sense. Maybe they are keeping something secret.”
Honestly, I don't want to get involved in anything. I just find it annoying. And most likely it won't do me any good. But, seeing Lucy's words that seemed to move my heart, I couldn't help but make some comments. Strangely, I myself spoke spontaneously as if there was something I really needed to say. After we talked for too long, it didn't feel like we were getting close to our goal. Upon arrival at the station, we immediately went quickly to the desired location. The atmosphere of this place is very lively as I expected. However, I didn't care about that and then continued our journey to the vacation spot. It feels like I've just been reborn.