Every day feels empty. Even though the strong wind blows. The sound that I heard more and more now became boring. There was nothing interesting before my eyes. Every now and then I look at other angles, it feels the same. One thing is full of me on the verge of doubt. Many other things are getting stranger. After that, I came back convinced that this was only temporary. The straight line that I am now standing on is starting to show something different. I never thought that life was too complicated. My heart can barely bear the pain and it always remains scarred. In the silence of the night, I was again faced with excessive fear. As time went on, I felt very frustrated. Almost every night I have nightmares and they continue to do so. On the same day, I could no longer close my eyes in peace. This I couldn't avoid even when I tried to do it. Little by little it felt like I was being sucked into a hole of destruction. The next day. It was eight in the morning. I tidied up some of my painting tools and not long after that I found an old painting that was dusty. I slowly noticed it. When I started trying to remember, it was strange that I couldn't remember when I made this work. The more I look at it, it's very old. I quickly put it back in the cupboard.
"Gosh, I have so many things," I muttered as I tidied up one by one.
The room I am currently using is just an old, unused room. The last time I was with my family before they went back abroad. It's been a long time since I left it alone and never touched this place. I also still remember that when I was little, I was always in this room painting various works that I wanted. Not only that, I also felt that it was very fun. No one can resist the fun of that day. However, this time it was really different. Here is just an old unused room. In fact, I'm too lazy to clean it.
“I have to finish all this,” I muttered.
When night comes again. It's really very short. There are no colorful days. Since then I've just been spending myself in this room and continuing to tidy up one by one. Until it's finally finished. Now my back hurts quite a bit and I don't want to do it anymore. As soon as I decided to rest for a while, not long after that my cell phone rang. I quickly checked who the call was from and it turned out it was Lucy. I still can't believe that this person actually came to contact me. My heart began to beat as if to alert me to something very important.
"Hello?" I said.
“ARIA!”
"Why? Is there something?”
"Actually I just want to tell you one very important thing."
"Just tell me what it is."
“I think I'll move.”
"What do you mean? Move what?”
“They have decided that I will be transferred immediately. This is not my wish. But I have to obey them.”
"They?"
"Yes. My bastard family."
“Hey, did something happen earlier? Why do they want to move you? What have you done?”
“I just don't want to go back. Only that."
"What?"
“They have been interfering and looking for me for a long time. I guess I have no other choice.”
"Good grief. If it's risky, I understand. Does not matter."
"Okay. Thank You."
"You're going to tell the others?"
"Who knows."
Right now the situation felt strange. Several things started to appear that made me feel worried. Not only that, I also can no longer remain silent. No problems have come so far. There are just a few things that really frustrate me. I talked with Lucy for almost an hour. There was also a lot of worry that could be heard in Lucy's words. Every now and then I also pay attention to myself, who is not much different from Lucy. There's a problem and it's almost going over my head. It's been a long time since I was speechless because I felt so frustrated. Not long after that, I immediately stopped this conversation.
"Strange. What is wrong with me? Why are you suddenly so anxious?" Say myself.
At almost the same time, I also no longer knew myself. Slowly I started to feel tired and then lay down on my bed. It feels much better this time than before. For a long time I felt that something was wrong. It's just that I ignored it several times. This house has been abandoned for a long time. I'm the only one here. I always remember many memorable things. Don't know why it hurts so much. My thoughts are also incoherent. It's almost evening, I forgot to tidy up some of my clothes and now I'm getting out of bed.
"Gosh, I almost forgot something," I muttered.
Somewhere else. Lucy looks like she has just entered the apartment. Slowly opened the door and not long after that Lucy sighed. Lucy almost lay down on the sofa but didn't because she had something to do. Without further delay, Lucy went to the kitchen and took one of the drinks in the refrigerator. Lucy slowly moved into the living room and sat down alone. Quite a tiring night. Every now and then Lucy also thinks and feels worried about something that might happen. A few hours ago. When Lucy was in a cafe with her friends from campus. They look like they are having fun together. But one of them started saying something to Lucy. The woman seemed to deliberately whisper into Lucy's ear and made Lucy immediately fall silent. At the same time, the woman looked in another direction and lightened the atmosphere again. Lucy just remained silent and not long after that took a sip of the drink that was on the table. Lucy also started to get up from her seat and then went to the toilet. One of them saw Lucy leave and then followed Lucy to the toilet. That person was none other than Vicky.
"Oh," said Vicky.
"You're here too, apparently."
"Excuse me. I want to wash my hands.”
"Ah."
"By the way, something happened?" Vicky asked.
"What? Why do you ask that?”
“I saw it too. I take it you're bothered by what Rosela said?"
"What do you mean? I don't understand."
"Come on. Stop pretending. I won't spread it to anyone else either.”
“Why do you want to know so much?”
"That's because the scene earlier disturbed me quite a bit."
"Is it true?"
"Yes. That's disgusting.”
“That guy is just spouting nonsense.”
"Really?"
"Yes. Only that."
"Oh yeah, if that woman threatens you, it looks like you shouldn't just stay silent."
"I know it."
"That's good," said Vicky.
This time, things started to look real. Many things were not even predicted beforehand. Something quite astonishing. To the point where I felt quite frustrated. There are many things that make my head hurt. It just got even crazier. At the same time there are also several other things that look strange. There is already a lot that is strange and it is becoming more and more obvious. Another thing that is most annoying is that it came like rain this morning. I feel really bad today. It's the same with most people, none of whom even look sane. On one side, I saw something quite surprising.
"What's this?" I muttered.
After that I returned to campus as usual. I see the same situation almost every day. This time it really felt very boring. So many things have happened that I didn't even want. I seem to see myself quite pathetic here. I've seen a lot of things that are really troublesome. Lucy also seemed to be in class and seemed to be thinking about something. I have a bad feeling this time. At the same time, it seems quite troublesome. I just need to avoid things that might harm me and just continue acting as if nothing happened. I'm tired of everyday life like this.
'Gosh, what a troublesome view,' I muttered to myself.
Until the time is over, I'm still bored. Not long after that, Lucy came over to me and then asked me to go to a cafe. Of course I agree. Not only that, I also felt that something had happened to this person. I felt something was different. But I didn't want to ask if it might bother Lucy. The wind blows. It didn't feel like the rain had stopped and now Lucy and I started talking about many things together. Once we arrived at our destination, we ordered lattes and then chatted together.
"Yes, I think there is some material that is still missing," said Lucy, who was discussing the results of today's presentation.
“But it's pretty good in my opinion. There's nothing missing, I even learned a few new things thanks to your group."
"Yes. I knew you would say that. But the problem is that I'm still not satisfied."
“Why are you still not satisfied?”
"I don't know, it feels like something is missing. That's quite annoying to me. I feel bad already.”
"Gosh, are you serious?"
"By the way your group presentation was very good."
"Is it true?"
"Yes. The material is very interesting. Yes. That's what I noticed.”
"Thank You. But I'm relieved that it's over. In the end, I only had individual assignments."
We both talked about today's presentation. Nothing troublesome and that's it. I feel like I've had a really fun day. Unlike last time, this time I was quite relaxed. Enjoying your carefree youth is indeed very enjoyable. I thought about something like that and now I do. But I was still a little disturbed by Lucy's look as if she wasn't okay. This time Lucy also looked like she was trying to heal herself. I couldn't guess what was going on inside Lucy's head. It's just that I noticed that maybe something had happened.