We showered together and I am currently sitting on the couch in the living room. Jeon is in the kitchen making us dinner, we skipped lunch due to our love-making session. I am fully sated and satisfied and I glow on my face that is missing from the last week.
" Jeon! Hurry! I am hungry." I called out to him.
" In a minute babe!" I turned my head towards the Tv on which the Korean drama was playing.
"Here you go!" Jeon handed me my plate and sat down beside me. The plate consisted of Indian chicken curry and rice which I was craving.
" Awww! you remember?" I cooed at him. When I was talking to him on the phone yesterday I told him that I am craving Indian food, and today he cooked it for me.
" Of course! How would I forget something my baby craves?" He pecked my waiting lips chuckling at my enthusiasm.
" Let's dig in then, I am more hungry now." I giggled at him and started scooping food and filling my mouth. I moaned at the taste of the food. There are all the spices in the curry and the chicken Is so tender that it melts in my mouth.
" It is so good, Baby! I love you so much." I said in between bites and my eyes filled with tears. Nowadays I am crying about small things too.
" I love you too baby, and don't cry please." Jeon caressed my cheek and I nodded at him and went back to my food. We ate in silence just watching the tv, it's not a tense silence but rather a peaceful one but I can see that Jeon is somewhat tense about something.
He took my plate from my hands and went to the kitchen to do the dishes. I have been taking so much rest it's time I help him some. I know he is going to reject my help but still, I wanna help him.
" Why are you here? Go and get comfortable on the couch I will join you in a minute." Jeon turned around halfway through washing the dishes.
" I wanted to help so let me help." I stood beside him and started wiping the cleaned dishes with the cloth.
" Are you alright?" I asked him not looking at him and he stopped washing. When my head turned towards him, he is already looking at me and he has this vulnerable look on his face that shook me to the core. I have never seen him like this, he was always so bubbly and cheerful that I didn't know that he has demons too. I was always so focused only on my demons and past that I never saw past his happy face.
" I am so sorry, Jeon!" I choked out seeing him vulnerable and small. I don't know what else to say to him.
" You don't have to Enya, I guess I am sorry that I never opened up to you. I should have told you the moment you told me about your past." He shakes his head trying to wrap his head around something which is bothering him.
" I understand what you are going through and what you were going through because I was there too and if Ashley and Justin hadn't shown up at the mall then I wouldn't have told you about my past too." Yes, if my past hadn't shown up in my present then I would have told anything to him at that time. I was so unprepared and so not ready.
He just nodded his head and came toward me and took me into his arms.
" If you want to know about my family then we have to sit down." He took my hand and led me to the back patio where there is a love seat and made me sit down on it. He sat down on the bean bag in front of me.
" First of all, please look at me the same way as you always do after I tell you everything."
" I always look at you with Love but nothing Jeon." I took his hands in mine and kissed them.
We sat in silence for a minute and I don't want to rush him. I will wait for him to open up.
" I…I don't know where to start. I never had a normal childhood and I was so Jealous of Ha-ri because she had what I didn't have." He looks so sad and vulnerable breaking my heart for him and the kid.
" it's normal to get Jealous Jeon and I was Jealous too when I saw my classmates had normal parents who are the part of their life." I never shared what my childhood looked like with anyone.
He gave me a small smile and continued, " I don't know much about my dad, he died when I was 2-3 years and whatever memories I had with him were the best years of my life." His childhood Is not entirely sad and I am happy that he has his dad for some years which he can cherish lifelong.
" Your dad might be like you, right? All charming and handsome." I joked and he nodded at me.
" I am more like my father, growing up I heard a lot about him from our servants and others and I have seen his pictures and I exactly look like him."
" And I don't have any other siblings and I was a lone child who didn't have many friends other than Ha-ri." I gave a sad smile.
" You are lucky that you didn't have a bitch of a sister like me." We both laughed at that.
" I know I am lucky!"
" Like you, I had nannies to do everything for me. From waking me up to attending parents-teacher meetings." I know how it feels when you see other kids have parents with them and we have nannies with us.
" My mom inherited everything after my father's death. She worked day and night to be where she is now, if it costs her son's well-being she doesn't care."
" Half of Korea is under my mom, she is like a big-shot of Korea." My eyes widened at that to which he chuckled.
" Yeah, she is super-rich and influential. I never liked to be in the limelight, but look at me now."
He is not telling me everything, whatever happened he is hiding it behind all these things.
" I can agree with you on the limelight, I suffered a lot because of my parent's constant parties and galas where I have to attend and mingle with everyone."
He became serious and he is clenching his jaw and fists. I know what I am going to hear is much worse than mine.
" I was not like this before…." He stopped and closed his eyes like he is living a painful memory.
" Like this?" I whispered not wanting to pop the bubble we are in.
" Yeah, like fit and thin." What does he mean by that!
" In Korea, we have beauty standards, it's not like the government issued that but the people here formed this absurd thing called the perfect ideal body type."
My eyebrows dipped in confusion and surprise at that because where I came from we also have beauty standards but not like the perfect ideal body type.
" Everyone here should be thin and have to have a body which has abs and no body fat. If you don't have any of these then you will be embarrassed and ridiculed.
" What? That is seriously absurd!" I gritted out.
" Yeah! I was a fat kid between these people like a black sheep between white sheep. I was constantly bullied by my classmates." He is not looking at me and his head is hanging low. I can't relate to him on how much he suffered. Kids can be brutal in bullying.
" I was always told to eat less or not at all, I tolerated everything at school but home….." His words came out choked and when I went near him he was holding a sob which threatened to leave.
What in the actual hell he went through? Who the hell scared him so much?  I appreciate how he has this cheerful personality despite him going through all the nonsense.
" Don't hold it in, Baby! Let it all out. I am not going anywhere and I will hold you as long as you want and I would have loved you then too." I'm kneeling in front of him holding his hands. I touched his cheek and started caressing it, his eyes closed and tears streaming down his face.
" Do you want me to hold you?" I asked him and he pulled me up onto his lap and buried his face into my chest, his hands went around my waist. He started sobbing so hard in my arms that I started crying with him. I have never seen him like this and I never thought he hid so much pain within himself. I want to protect him at all costs.