I am currently sitting on the couch in the living room and eating ramyeon which is basically noodles with spices and other things but the taste of this dish is just out of the world. After getting pregnant my taste buds have become so sensitive in a good way and can easily get addicted to a different kind of food and can easily differentiate between the spices and tastes.
It was a sunny afternoon and I had woken up just before two hours and the first meal of the day is this delicious thing. Eating Ramyeon is making me remember Rosie and Henry where I ate the soupy noodles and had a hearty conversation with Rosie about a life that a mother figure will explain to you from the start but I never had the privilege in my life.
A sigh escaped my lips at the thoughts of my estranged family which made my blood boil. They are not worthy to even think about them for a second.
Jeon had already left when I woke up, Mrs. park was in the kitchen by the time I came outside of my room all freshen up with a grumbling stomach.
The last time I ate was last night on our date, thinking about it made me all giddy and beam with happiness. Mrs.Park was already preparing Ramyeon for me and within a minute she gave me the hot steaming bowl.
I made her sit beside me while she asked me about the surprise and like a teenager I gushed about every single thing that happened last night. She had tears when I explained everything to her and I can see her love for Jeon through her tears and eyes.
I gave her a tight hug feeling the motherly warmth she emitted. Rosie was the only woman who hugged me as a mother should to her daughter and after that Mrs.Park hugged me like I am her daughter. I lost one mother but I got two mothers.
" You two were broken souls who mended each other with warmth and love. I am happy that you guys found each other." I was surprised by her words because how would she know that I was broken? I know as a fact that Jeon has not told anyone anything.
A smile formed on her face seeing my surprise and confusion.
" I can tell it from the way you look at Jeon." She added more confusion to my already confused brain.
" How?" Only one word came out of my mouth. She smiled at me warmly, taking my hand in hers and caressing it.
" You sometimes look at Jeon like you are not good enough for him and you have that fear in your eyes that one day you are going to lose him." Hearing her say the words which came to my mind many times made my eyes wide in surprise.
"I….I just got hurt before and I had that fear in me for so long but now I know for sure that Jeon won't do anything to hurt me." I said truthfully because I know how much Jeon loves me and cares for me.
" I know that dear! You both deserve each other and every happiness in the world." She hugged me tightly, patting my back tenderly as a mother does to her daughter.
Our mother-daughter moment was cut short by the incoming video call. Mrs.Park got up from the couch patting my head lovingly and went towards the kitchen.
I retrieved my phone from the table to see who is calling me now. Maybe Jeon is calling as he didn't say goodbye to me in the morning or maybe it is Siya.
Siya is face timing me, I answered the call before it ended and came face to face with an anxious and nervous Siya!
" Hi! Why are you being so anxious? What happened?" I asked, waiting for her response. What made her that nervous, I have never seen her like this.
" Is Jeon with you?" This is the first question she asked without answering my question. She is making me nervous now.
" No, why?" I heard the doorbell ring which made me surprised because everyone who comes here knows the password to the door and who might be ringing the bell.
Mrs.Park went to open the door and I turned towards Siya to see she was still on the phone but waiting for the person to enter the house. She heard the doorbell too. From her expression, I can tell that she heard.
I heard a female voice from the door and they are talking in Korean with the way Mrs.Park is laughing. I can tell that she already knows the visitor.
Ha-ri came into my view and she had the same nervous and anxious look on her face as Siya.
" Did you see anything?" She asked hurriedly, walking towards me. Her words surprised me. What is happening? I don't know what she is saying.
" Umm, What?" I asked brows dipped in confusion.
" You have to be calm and don't take it to heart, Enya!" Siya's words flowed through the phone and Ha-ri turned towards the phone surprise coating her features.
" Yes and Jeon is taking care of everything, Enya, and don't get hyper after seeing what I have to show because it's not good for the baby and you," Ha-ri said sitting beside me and unlocking her phone.
She is typing something on her phone, Siya is still on the phone, and Mrs.Park is standing beside me with the same confusion as me. What the hell is happening around me? Why are they being so nervous around me and about something?
Ha-ri took a deep breath and gave her phone to me, I took the phone in my hands and saw the contents of the phone which made me gasp in horror.
How in the hell did it happen? we were so far away from the city and no one really knows Jeon has a home here as he said to me that no one beside him and Mr. Park knows about it.
" What is this? How?" I asked, dumbfounded with wide eyes and horror written all over my face. I am not that afraid about it but still, it will affect Jeon's concert and image.
" No one knows who took the pictures and posted them online and how the pictures are trending but it's all over Korea and I don't know about international." Our last night was in pictures in front of me plastered all over the internet.
The pictures are of us dancing on the beach. My face is hidden but anyone can tell that I am pregnant and Jeon's face can be seen too. Anyone can see our love through the pictures and that made me smile in this situation and somewhat made me feel calm.
" Jeon is going to take a big hit from this. In Korea, the fans are so brutal about their idols and their personal life." Ha-ri murmured beside me, making my heart stop for a moment. How can I so selfishly think about myself when Jeon is going to suffer more from it?
I retrieved my phone from the table and ended Siya's call. I didn't even know that she was still on the call and listening. She knows too that's why she called to let me know about it and this means the pictures have reached international attention too.
I dialed Jeon's number waiting for him to accept the facetime. I wiped the tears which were streaming down my face hurriedly not to show how affected I am by the news. I need to stay strong for Jeon and support him in this difficult time.
He answered on the last ring with a big smile on his face but I can see his distress and worry through his eyes and the crinkles on his forehead. I know he is so worried about me and our daughter but he is hiding his worry behind his smile.
We are both doing the same thing for each other so we both cannot be worried. If this is not love then I don't know what love is called.
" How are you holding up?" I asked, tears started pooling in my eyes. I don't want to show my tears to Jeon but seeing him like this is making it so hard for me to not cry. Why every bad thing happens to good people, we never wanted to hurt anyone but why is this happening to us when we thought everything is going to be alright and we are going to be happy for the rest of our lives but no, someone has to break everything up, a beautiful world which we made for us.
" I am more worried about you, baby! I don't care what people think or what happens at the concert. I just want you to be alright." Jeon is blinking back his tears and controlling himself to not cry in front of me.
I want to be in his arms right now and I don't know how it is possible.
" It's going to be alright, Jeon!" I smiled through my tears and he nodded at me with his pretty smile which stole my heart.
" I want to be with you right now! Please!" I choked out, not being able to control the emotions I am going through right now. I want to be with him to calm him down and myself.
I gasped clutching my stomach, tears streaming down my face and blurring my eyes. I felt another hard kick in my ribs and the phone tumbled from my hands with Jeon shouting worriedly and asking what happened.
I started rubbing my palm on the bump trying to calm the karate kid inside of me. She is going haywire in my stomach doing cartwheels.
Maybe she is feeling what I am feeling right now and she knows that I am upset and sad and this is her way of telling us that she is with us.
" Little one! This is not the way to show your momma that you are with me like this, mommy is hurting baby." I coeed and rubbed on the tummy. She stopped whatever she was doing and I took a deep breath with the relief of the pain.
Ha-ri is holding my phone and he is showing Jeon what I am doing. Jeon has tears streaming down his face with a smile, adoration, and love shining in his eyes.
" Enya! Baby! Please go with Ha-ri, she will take you to Mr. Park's house and I will join you there." Mrs.Park came beside me and put her hand on my shoulder silently telling me that everything is going to be alright.
" Why can't you come here? " I wanted to stay with him alone in the safety of our home curled up into his body.
" Our home is not safe now, Enya and there is a possibility of paparazzi swarming our home so you should go with Ha-ri and Mrs.Park. I promise that I will be waiting for you when you get there." He gave me a small smile which made my heart fill with love. How can he love me so much that he is worried about me in this situation but not about his career.
I nodded at him mirroring his smile and ended the call. I turned towards Ha-ri and Mrs.Park who were standing there with smiles of their own.
" I have packed all your necessities Enya and if you need anything then we will order them." Mrs. Park said, showing me a suitcase. When did she pack?
" When did you pack?" I expressed my thoughts to which she smiled at me.
" When you were talking to Jeon, I received a call from Mr.Park to Pack your clothes and necessities and I did." She answered.
" Okay! Then let's go." Mrs.Park helped me to get up from the couch. I thanked her and in return, I received her warm smile.
" Take these sunglasses and a mask. You need these to hide your face." Ha-ri handed me those to which I just looked at her in confusion.
" What if those b******s are lurking in the shadows and waiting for you to come out and take your picture? So that's why we need to protect your identity." How can I forget that, my head is clouded with worry and nothing is going inside my head other than the only thought that I want to surround myself with Jeon and his scent.