SIREN'S POV
I seem to have tiny pinches feeling in my heart. Why now? Why do I even need to feel that he is sincere in what he says? Can't he just let me be angry with him forever? Why does he have to upset my feelings? Why does he have to start messing up my life again?
I've been okay for a long time. I'm used to not seeing him. I was able to overcome the pain because of what he did to me before. Why does he have to bother me again now?
When I felt that I was about to fall into him again, I forced myself to get up from my seat.
"I think I need to leave. I wouldn't have come with you here in the first place." I said.
But even before I could turn around, I felt him holding my arm again.
"Please, let's talk properly, don't let this end this way." He said gently. Seems to entice me to listen more. But I knew in my heart, I had to end it.
"What do you want to hear from me? Do you want me to forgive you? In the first place, why are you sorry?" I turned to him. I removed his hand holding my arm. “Are you sorry for what you did or you are sorry to ease your conscience? Besides, How are you so sure I'll be okay with your apology? I've been hurt, Conrad. You broke me. But you know what's more painful? It's when I did everything for you, but in the end, you just threw me away. I made no difference to a rag because of what you did. Then now you are telling me you are sorry? Do you think everything's going to be okay after this?" I tried so hard not to waver.
The man became speechless. In his eyes, I could see how he was trying to regain his every bit of confidence in front of me. Unlike me, he lost his words. And I could feel my heart sank.
I don't know what was that for, but a part of me is hoping he would try harder until I gave up. I was waiting for him to say words I really wanted to hear.
"Okay. I understand. I know I shouldn't force you to listen and accept my apology. I admit it's wrong to think that things were just that easy for you. I'm sorry." He lowered his head.
"Can I ask you a favor? If possible, the next time we meet, just act like we don't know each other." I know my eyes dimmed when I said that. "Let me be angry with you until I can no longer remember why. Maybe after that, I'll learn to forgive you too." I didn't wait for him to say anything. I turned around and left that place.
Outside the restaurant,I found my car parked. I couldn't wait for Diana to come down and open the door for me. I immediately got in. She didn't wait for me to speak and she immediately started the car.
Honestly, I don't know what I should have felt earlier when I saw Conrad.
I knew in myself I still loved him. I know I haven't forgotten him even for a moment. But I also knew in myself that if I insisted on everything, I would only get hurt more in the end. He himself told me before that he did not love me and could not love me either. But when I saw him earlier, when I saw the sadness in his eyes, I felt, and even I didn’t want to, my heart hoped he would say he needed me. But like just before,he disappointed me again.
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We were about to return to imperial heights when Diana received a call from Felix inviting us to go to the Mendez mansion for lunch.
Honestly, I didn't want to go back to that house. But I knew I couldn’t avoid that in the meantime so I nodded to Diana and told her we were going straight there.
After about half an hour we arrived at the destination. Diana immediately came down and opened the door for me. She followed me as I entered the main door and there I was greeted by a tearful but smiling Mr. and Mrs. Harold.
They greeted me with a big hug, which caused tears I had been holding back to fall.
"Oh, Young lady! Why did you just come home now?" Mrs. Harold asked tearfully as she stroked my hair. "Do you know we were worried about you when you left? Where did you go? Why didn't you even call?"
"Carlota. Let the children in first. Save that hello later. First and Second Madam are waiting, as well as Mister Mendez at the table so go straight there." Mr. Harold said.
As we entered, a few more servants lined up to greet us. They bowed at once as greeting.
I walked straight until I reached the dining area where the large table was. My father, my mother and my father's second wife are sitting and waiting there.
My parents greeted me immediately. Olivia stood up from her seat. She bowed her head slightly but  did not approach me.
"I'm glad you came. Sit down, Let's eat." Smiling, Greg said.
"I requested Mrs. Harold to prepare your favorites." I chose to sit next to my mother.
"Ahm, excuse me, I'll just go get the dessert." Olivia said excuses herself immediately before getting up and going to the kitchen.
"This is indeed a pleasant surprise. What's up? Why do we have to gather here?" I couldn't bear to ask them.
"Surprise? Why? Is it surprising if we have time to have lunch together?" Dad asked while smiling.
"To be honest, yes. You're always so busy, so, I wonder why you have time for this."
"Ahm, the food is delicious. Let's eat? Let's talk about things later." my mother grabbed my father and I's attention.
"Right. We still have plenty of time to talk, so let's enjoy the food for now." My father agreed.
I just shrugged before scooping up food. Even in my mind I still wonder why we are here.