It feels like home, reviving something that you think will no longer come back. It’s too way far.
I kept wiping my eyes because of the tears that kept falling down my cheeks. I don't even know if I'm going to laugh, or just cry. I'm more than happy. I received a lot of gifts but he is more than those. I'd never expect him to get here. It's like he teleported in sudden. I had wished it but this man granted my wish as he came surprisingly.
"You didn't tell me." I can't face him directly, crying in surprise. Xyler laughed at me and pinch my cheek.
"Why would I? It won't be a surprise if I told you." well he has a point. "Are you happy?" he flashed a smile to me.
"Of course, more than that," I said while wiping my tears. "I had never seen you for a long time. You're like a zombie now for coming back." I jokingly said.
"Well, thanks to her." He pointed out Cephie who was in the corner. She then made a thumbs up to Xyler. I wondered why. Did they have a secret mission that I didn't know? that's a good way, then.
"I'm mad at her." I rolled my eyes.
"She doesn't really have a boyfriend, though. It was me when she was on her phone." Xyler explained Cephie's side. Well, make them sure that they stated a true statement before I really get mad.
So what now?
"Can I take you?" He placed his hands in inside his pocket and stand firmly in front of me.
"To where?"
"Nowhere or anywhere. What would you choose?" he grins. That lips curving to a smile perfectly, I had never seen that for years.
"Maybe that" or "is an answer." I laughed. "Take me then to where we want."
"I'm getting jealous of you guys, I wish I have a boyfriend now," Cephie replied. I looked at him badly so he just signed peace with me. Just try to have a boyfriend, he will lose his home. Xyler just laughed at my reaction and he still seems to agree with Cephie's teasing of me.
"I'll get you one, kid." He added.
"Argh! Don't tolerate her." I narrowed my eyes. I'm deadly serious.
"Shall we go?"
I checked my dress to see if it was okay for me to wear. It's like I still want to change, I'm a little uncomfortable. "Five minutes," I said.
"You're all good, no need to change. Come on!" I didn't do anything so I didn't change either. There I sit next to Xyler. I even told him if it was okay to bring Cephie but Cephie didn't want to come with us. She said she would sleep as well. I told her to lock the door because it was not safe to leave it like that knowing that she was alone. I hugged her tightly before I go inside the car. She waved her hands to me and told me to enjoy the night.
"I'm worried to leave her alone," I said while looking at the apartment away.
"She'll be fine. Perhaps she'll enjoy being alone."
I just stared outside as Xyler calmly drove his car. From time to time I even look at him secretly. I just want to memorize his face for a long time and he hasn’t looked to my side yet. Maybe it's not a dream. It's true that he's here next to me and I'm so happy that even though the night hasn't started yet where we're going, it's like I don't want it to end right away.
It has a lot of thoughts that enter my mind as I simply look at him. The amount I want to ask but maybe when we’re there. I don't even know where Xyler intends to take me, the important thing is that he's here and it's exactly my birthday. His presence is really different. It feels everything turned from colorless to a colorful one. I'm happy with my life but it's more than that when he's there. If then I couldn't see this thing like this, now the fact that my life would be different when he was there would almost hit me. It's refreshing because of a lot of happenings. Time passes by in just a sudden. It begins in a sudden and also ends in a sudden.
but hopefully....
I hope this will be the beginning again. Maybe I won't expect anything anymore. I'll just let the time. The harder it is to control, the harder it is to plan. If he wasn’t for me, I would still be the first person to be happy for him for others, And if not now, when else?
Maybe I'll just keep it. How much I realized when he disappeared. Everywhere he goes, whoever is with him and even a few more years he will be gone. My view of him has not changed. he's still the man I've been waiting for. I know he has a new life now. Maybe a few women have gone through his life but I don't lose hope that maybe soon there will be more space reserved for me.
I never noticed that the night was getting darker. Xyler was asking me something but I was just stunned by the absence so I didn't understand him. I just nodded and he smiled. We have come a long way, the speed of time.
"We're finally here."
I was amazed to watch the waves of cold water from the sea. I took off my heels because it was hard to walk on the sand. Xyler open his palm and I reached it. I moved a little closer and let the waves wet my feet. Cold but fine. The surroundings are not so dark because of the moonlight. Xyler just stood behind me as he watched me excitedly soak my foot in the water.
"It's cold,"
"Try it, it's relaxing." I convinced. It was like a child playing with water. He took off his shoes and approached me like me and he was also happy with the waves of water at our feet.
We just laughed at the two of us. It was like music that our voices matched. Feels very cold in the air. The moonlight shone and hit both of our faces. I was so close that I could see his face again. The moment seemed to slow down when I looked into his eyes. Suddenly the memories came back when I first saw him. It was the first time I looked at him like this but it didn't take long. Little by little I lost my smile as we happily played with the waves. My heart is beating faster. Happy but I don’t know seems sad.
I put that feeling aside first. It's like Xyler and I are crazy and it's like we're the only people awake at these times. He splashed the water on me so the dress I was wearing got wet. My eyes widened as the cold water penetrated my skin.
"I'm sorry," He laughed. My eyebrows furrowed and I frowned at him. Of course, I won't allow myself to be the only one wet so I also wet him with water. He was also surprised when I splashed the water on his face. I laughed nonstop at his reaction. He looked at me as his eyes narrowed so I ran right away. It was like we were kids chasing each other while our feet were comfortable on the soft sand.
I wish this night won't end...