Jesse ’s POV:

"Mom, wake up! Mom, what did you do!?"

I'm panicking because Mom isn't breathing anymore. When I saw the medicine she injected, it had expired a long time ago. It turns out that this is not the only drug waste, there are three others next to him. What emotions do I feel? My hand was shaking with nervousness. I want to stand mom up and tell her off but I know what's really going on.

"Mama, please, wake up. You said I'll just cook and you rest? Why did you leave me? You said, mama, leave no one behind! That's a different kind of rest! Why did you give up on me? Why did you give up right away? " I wailed.

I tried to shake Mom but she was dead. I listened to her pulse but it was no longer beating. He is no longer alive, I can't accept it. I can't do without Mom. I love her very much, no one doesn't love their mother. Because if they don't love, they shouldn't be treated as human anymore.

"Mama, why did you leave me? Why did you leave me? I thought we were together and close!" I cried and hugged Mom.

I couldn't do anything but cry and hug Mom. I don't know why he did this and what was in his mind. Just whatever his reason is, it's not good. Why did she give up when the two of us were fighting? Why did she leave me to fight alone? Did I think that the two of us would leave this place when the time came? And at that time I can treat her.

When I woke up and realized what was happening, I kissed Mom on the cheek. I kissed her and told her not to leave because I was going to wipe her, dress her, and put make-up on her. I always tell Mom she's so beautiful because it's true. Inside and outside, her heart was full of joy. Even though mom is the only person I've met, I know she loves me very much. She is the person who made me feel what love feels like. A true love from a mother. I don't even think that my former cheerleader has given up. I know mom has a reason but it's still not good.

I went to the bathroom and got a weight full of water. I brought it to mom's room. I took a beautiful white dress. I pulled out a bag of bimbo and found a letter. I immediately took it and read it.

From: Mom
To: Jesse

My daughter, if you read this I'm sure I'm gone. I'm sorry if I can't make it to your 18th birthday. In that one week I couldn't do it anymore. Don't worry because I don't have a mental illness, I did this so you don't have to worry about taking care of me. I also feel my body giving up. My whole body hurts so much and it's giving up. I can't take the pain anymore my child, I'm sorry if I left you early. I know you are strong, you can handle this. Mama loves you very much, I love you!

I know there are many questions running through your mind. I have uploaded the videos that I requested from your father before so that you can study them. Those are the bullets about Project Melos and the Melos Syndrome, everything will be explained to you. I also have a video tape left in the basement so put that on and watch it. I told them what happened to me then, I'm sorry if I lied to you before, Jesse. I am a scientist whose specialty is Biology. I am one of the team leaders of one of the Biology Field teams in Project Melos. I have been involved in that project since I was pregnant with you for almost a few months.

I know I've been keeping a lot of secrets from you. Forgive mom. I know you want to get out and see the beautiful world but I'm just afraid you'll get hurt. You are different, my daughter. You are among 'The Perfect Children' who were born then, there are six of you including Carolina who is your Aunt Bonnie's daughter. You will also find that on the videotape in our basement.

The world is crazy. It's dangerous and the only person you can rely on and trust is yourself. As you go out and fight the world be careful. I'm not here to guide you but I know you can do it, Jesse. You are my daughter who will change the world.

To be honest, I don't have any news from the outside either, I don't know what the event is. There is a radio in our basement that is connected to your father, call there and ask him for help. You can trust your father but he can only give you so far. Also, I don't even know at this time if Robert is still alive.

Again, be careful my daughter. As I leave I wish you a long life and strength. Don't neglect yourself, remember mom's instructions to you.

This is the last one, mom has an order. I have a casket that I made that is in our basement, and I made a haystack. That's where the dead are laid. Put me there and bury me behind our home. Please offer me a little prayer as I always ask you before we go to sleep.

Goodbye, my beloved, I love you so much. I will watch over you wherever I go. Keep going because you have to get over my loss. This is a test for you, I'm sorry that I hurt your feelings. You all know that life has a limit, don't you? I'm sorry, my daughter, and don't ever repeat what mom did. Keep going keep living and be free from this world.

Goodbye, my daughter, Jesse Villanueva. I love you.

Your mother,
Annie Villanueva

I cried and hugged Mom's letter tightly. I ran the distance between us again and hugged her. I understand mom, for so many years my safety was on her mind. He sacrificed a lot for me, and I am now. I want to continue what Mom studied. I promise that all his sacrifices for me will not go to waste. Because if Mom has faith in me, I also have faith in myself.

"Goodbye, Mom. I love you so much. Thank you for taking care of me and loving me for the past year. You are the best mom in the world. It's so nice of you to rest, Mom. Oh, I'm going to miss you so much. You will always watch over me, just like you said. Give me a sign in every decision I make. Thank you for everything, I love you so much. Until the last instructions you give me, I will follow I'm sorry for being reprimanded at times. Goodbye, Mom. I love you so much," I smiled at mom and kissed her forehead again.

I took a towel and hid the letter that Mom had given me. I wet the towel and wiped him. I couldn't hold back my tears while doing this. It hurts so much, it hurts so much. This is how it feels to lose a loved one. It's very painful, especially if you're weak, you might not be able to handle it. Maybe that's why mom raised me to be strong-willed and brave so that I can be prepared for these kinds of events, especially the day she's gone.

After I wiped Mom, I changed her clothes, her favorite white dress. I also braided my mom's long hair. His hair is a little loose on half of her face because of Billy. But even so, my mom is still very beautiful. She is the best for me and the most beautiful.

When I dressed Mom, I also put a little decoration on her face. A little blush on the lips and cheeks. After that, I looked at her like he was sleeping soundly. I wiped my tears and left the room.

I took Mom's coffin which was in our basement. I climbed it and brought it to the garden. I have also dug deep like I read in novels. I love to read so I learn a lot because of that.

I cried and sobbed as I dug my mother's own grave. It hurts to think that this will be our last meeting. In just one moment that I looked at him, she lost her life. Maybe he thought and planned everything for a long time, I didn't even feel it. If I wish, I wish there was nothing I could do.

The rain caught me before I could dig a hole almost up to my chest. I climbed out of the hole and lifted Mom to bed in her coffin. Mom is very light because she lost weight due to her illness.

When he was properly placed in the coffin, I tied it. My tears kept falling as the rain fell. My chest is tight, if only I could wish for time to go back, I would. I won't let Mom do what she did earlier.

I pulled the coffin and that's where I really struggled. I'm so muddy I'm dirt. I slowly lowered the coffin into the hole using two ropes.

When the casket came down, I picked flowers and dropped them in Mama's grave. I also offered a fervent prayer as he requested before it was completely covered.

It seemed to be raining when I finished covering the pit. I made a cross as a sign that Mama is buried here. I prayed again for a moment before leaving Mama's grave.

When I entered the house, I couldn't stop the gust of my emotions. I almost threw all our plates in the house. My hands are bruised from the beating but they will heal soon. While healing, the blisters on my hand are still coming out.

I showered and went to the room. I face the mirror naked to look at myself. Now it occurred to me what I really am.

My hand ran down my small waist. My body is as beautiful as Mama's when she was young. I also have a small face like Mama. I have a pointed nose and fierce eyes that I got from my father. I smiled bitterly.

If I am human, I am beyond the criteria of being a normal person. It is no longer unknown to me that when I leave this island, the outside world is full of bad people and greedy people. Mom didn't want to tell me directly but I knew that. As I read in the novel, villains or antagonists do not disappear in English. They always block the hero's good deeds and success in their plans.

I don't even know enough about the outside world but eventually, I will know that too and learn how to live like them. I also know that Mom wants me to be free. I will do anything for us. If I can fix the world he ran away from, I will. I will do everything so that what happened to my mom never happens again. I'm smart and can feel, I can handle it all. Not now, but the time will come.

I got dressed and ate what I cooked earlier. I'm still in tears and can't forget what happened. It's still very painful and makes my chest feel tight.

I am reborn the bullet that I watched earlier. I tried to focus my full attention on it. If I want to learn, I have to listen and study.

I also think that it contributes a lot to the identity of an individual outside if you have completed something and have an education like Mama used to. She is a scientist, how long will it take me to be like her?

I finished the documentary about Project Melos and I learned a lot. I learned that we are called 'The Perfect Children'. We had six children who were pre-mature and born at the same time. That's why mom said she gave birth to me early. That was because of the explosion of their research facilities then.

That's why Mom had a big burn on her face and body, that was the reason. That's probably what killed Aunt Bonnie, mom didn't realize that she told me that even her daughter Carolina went out with me.

But can we all be the same? Can their body heal like me? Is outdoor life fun for them? Were their mothers able to protect them like Mama did to me?

I have many questions in mind so I have to prepare. One day I will know everything, I need to prepare first.