Suddenly, tears gushed down my face like a waterfall. and while I wet her skin with my tears, my mother just patiently stood there, patting my head as she comforted me.
“Ah, my child, you can cry to me.” 
Those simple words were simple, but they meant so much to me.
I suddenly felt how ironic my gift is, and how I am thankful for having it. It made n possible to meet my mother right now.
I could talk t her like this as if she’s still alive...
but I know it's only her soul now…and this scene would be over soon s I have to grasp the chance while she is still here. 
I realized how I have been pretending t be strong all these years, trying to remain fierce and unstoppable as possible and caging my emotions. and now I am letting everything out. 
“did you have a rough time, living my child?”
She asked, and tears came out more. I was suddenly reminded of all the hardships I had, and I was sobbing and letting everything fall.
“I apologize for not being there.” she suddenly said, and I could feel that she was also crying now.
That must have been her. greatest regret that’s why she is still not at peace with herself.
“I know, you loved me too much that you sacrificed yourself for me,” I said, and I completely understand her. I would do anything to meet her when I was still a child. back when I only had my father Aoullus as my guardian and was still innocent to the world. 
I broke our hug and looked into her eyes to ask one question, “did you have a good life?”
“yes, your father brought me a good life.” I could see she was happy, but she looked. bit hurt. 
“I saw your life. It wasn't easy.” Especially since my father didn't love her first. His first love was Yve, the triples mother….
just then, I felt a blinding light from above, and my mother smiled.
“I think it’s time.” She said as she slowly disappeared and everything was melting.
“What? Mom, I am still not done!” I wanted to ask her more questions and stay with her longer just to keep her company.
“You can ask me next time. But you still have something to do there.”
She replied. and it felt like a fever dream when I woke up from a night of sleep and was face to face with someone.
I blinked, trying to recognize them, and saw three figures looking at me.
Rem. My father, and Gusev.
My father sighed in relief, “oh, thank goodness you are alive! My Daughter!”
I looked at them emotionless, feeling sad that I was able to stay with my mother.
I could see another figure checking my pulse.
“How is she, pack doctor?” Asked my father.
The pack doctor sighed and whispered to my father who was too stunned.
I blinked, wanting to talk but my throat was dry.
Rem gave me a glass of water to drink and I managed to croak out, “What happened? Why am I here?”
They all looked at each other with solemn faces at me, eyes drawing heavy and even though I still felt lethargic, I knew that something was wrong. Something went wrong. 
“What? What’s wrong?” I demanded to them as they still kept their mouths shut, “Come on, tell me!”
It was my father who broke eye contact with me as he looked down at my belly and I looked down to check what was going on when I saw blood splattered all around.
I felt it ringing in my ears as Gusev was the one who tried to break the silence.
He went closer to me, and tried calling out his name, “Arya?”
“No…”’ I gulped, already knowing what was up the moment my father’s eyes dropped. “No, it can’t be.”
I couldn't say it to myself, but I couldn't feel any breathing inside me.
It felt empty inside. Asif, an empty space was voided.
“Arya, calm down.” Rem tried to assure me but I grabbed the pillows and threw them on the floor. I gripped the blanket tightly as I forced myself to stand up.
“No, stay put, my dear. Arya, you’re straining your body.”
I turned to the pack doctor, “No, don’t tell me something, just return my pups to me.”
I was gripping the pack doctor’s arms for support, my knees turning weak as I felt like I was removed from the right to walk.
The pack doctor was looking at my father, and I could see my father shedding a tear to me.
He went to me, “Arya, please, get back to bed, we can discuss-“
“‘Discuss? What did you do to me while I fainted? My baby was just here a while ago!”
“It’s been a week, Arya. You have been sleeping for a week now.”
I frowned at Rem’s saddened expression as he corrected me, “What?”
Rem lightly touched my shoulders and then grabbed my chin to make me listen to him, “Listen to me carefully. Your baby…didn’t make it, Arya. I am sorry.” 
Rem lightly touched my shoulders and then grabbed my chin to make me listen to him, “Listen to me carefully. Your baby…didn’t make it, Arya. I am sorry.”
I felt deaf at this very moment. Rem’s words did not click on me, and I glanced at Gusev in the corner, for assurance. To make sure that Rem was just kidding or lying to me. Because that’s what Rem is. 
That’s the way he is. He has always been the joker, right? So why would I even believe him now?
My baby is here. 
They are here….I can still feel them….faintly.
Trying to fight back.
Gusev has always been a happy person, smiling and laughing, but not this time. 
His usual smile was replaced with a sad expression.
He then tried to mask it with his emotionless expression, and this is the first time I had seen him like that.
So serious.
And pitying me.
I looked at all of them. To my father who was hesitating to approach me, to Rem who was reaching out to me, to the pack doctor who wanted to leave us alone but got pinned to this situation, and I looked at the ground. I fell to my knees, my tears uncontrollably escaping.
“You…lied to me! You betrayed me! You assured me that everything will be fine! That everything is okay!” I sobbed on the floor, “You said that you can save me here!” I yelled to them in anger, “Yet you killed my baby!”
They were silent for a minute, as I bawled my eyes out on the floor, and I was screaming at the top of my lungs, there’s nothing that could compare to the pain I am feeling right now.