I keep pacing back and forth inside our cabin. After that kiss, I practically excused myself from him and ran here like a cheetah. Why do I keep on running away from him every time something like that happened, you ask? Well, it’s because it was so good for me that I panicked again.
I contemplate if I should give Bryle a chance or not and take all the risks. Is it really worth it? Well, maybe it is. Bryle confessed to me so maybe he thinks that it’s worth it.
I stop pacing back and forth and pick up my phone at the desk to call Paulo for some advice. He’s the only one who knows the real deal so he’s the only one I can run to whenever I need some help regarding Bryle.
After two rings, Paulo finally picks up the call. [“Hello, Alwin?”]
“Pau! I need your advice!” I say, direct to the point and I can hear some shuffle on the background.
[“What is it, Alwin?”]
“W-Well... It’s about what we’ve talked about that night at the restaurant...” I start, “Actually... I don’t know what to say, Pau. Bryle has been persistent on his feelings towards me and I don’t know if I should give him a chance or not. Should I, Pau?”
I hear him sigh, [“Listen to me, Alwin... Only you can answer that question. You own your heart and feelings. Try to question yourself then understand and follow what your heart says and wants. Just like what everybody says, “Follow what your heart desires”.”]
“But I don’t know how, Pau! I’m so confused. I don’t wanna get hurt!” I exclaim.
[“Alwin, stop giving yourself a hard time. Remember that Bryle took the risks when he confessed to you so why don’t you do the same? If you won’t experience pain, then you will never learn from it.”] He talks like a philosopher and all he had said has a point. [“Oh! I have to go now, Alwin. Break time’s over,”] he says and cuts the call.
I consider what Paulo had said to me. I try to remember all the things Bryle did for me, the emotions he carried when he confessed, and the emotions he generated when he kissed me.
Maybe it’s not that bad to give it a try after all.
~
Bryle comes in with water dripping down his topless body. I gulp at the sight and look away. It’s not good for my health.
He isn’t bringing any towel with him so I rush to the bathroom to get him one. He confusedly looks at me but proceeds on wiping his body dry in front of me. I blush at the sight and force myself to act normal.
“Alwin,” Bryle suddenly calls out my name.
I snap my head towards his direction, “Y-Yes?” I stutter out.
“I’m sorry for what I did back there,” he starts and I blush when I realize that he is talking about the kiss earlier, “I’m sorry for making you feel uncomfortable around me. It’s just that— I really like you and I want you to feel my sincerity when I’ve said it but... you are just so irresistible for me that I can’t control myself whenever you’re with me, Alwin...” He tries to explain. The towel is already wrapped around his waist even though he is still wearing a shorts.
I manage to look at him in the eyes and stutter out, “I-It’s okay. It’s fine...” I murmur out just enough for him to hear.
“No, Alwin. It’s not fine at all! I am the reason why you’re acting like this right now! I—”
“Bryle,” I cut him off before he could even finish what he was saying. He immediately stops talking and looks at me with a contorted face, “I-I’m sorry for making y-you think like that. It’s not what you think it is,” I pause for a second before finishing my sentence, “I-I like it. I like you...” I say to him — more like a whisper in the air — and I see how Bryle’s contorted face turns into a shocked face. He probably heard what I’ve said.
“A-Alwin...” He calls out to me but I just look away from him.
Oh my gosh! This is so nerve-wracking and embarrassing! I just literally confessed to him that I like him. What will happen now that I’ve finally let out what I’ve been wanting to say to him all these times?
Bryle takes a step forward towards me until he is only an inches away. I slowly look up to him. He is smiling widely at me and it makes me feel shy.
I squeak in surprise when he suddenly pulls me into a bone crushing hug. “B-Bryle!” I try to wiggle myself out from his tight hold but he just hugs me more.
“Alwin, I am so happy right now...” I hear him whisper close to my ear and I abruptly stop wiggling around, “Thank you.”
He slowly pulls away from the hug and looks at me fondly. I bravely looks back at him and say, “Me too.”
He chuckles at my response and suddenly claims my lips into a lip lock. I am shocked at first but I manage to regain myself and kiss him back gladly. We lick, suck, and taste each other’s mouths like there is no tomorrow. My anxieties and observations dissolves one by one as I clutch the back of Bryle’s head to pull him even closer as our bodies meld into each other effortlessly while our lips crash against each other.
We are out of breathe when Bryle finally breaks the kiss. We look at each other’s eyes tensely while panting heavily.
“So, can I finally call you mine now for real?” Bryle asks in an eager tone and I enthusiastically nod my head before giggling happily at him.
“Y-Yes, Bryle. I’m yours now for real!”