I don’t know how can I face Celine’s older brother, Curry.
That was the first and last day that I’ve got the chance to talk to him.
It’s been two weeks since the day I’ve got discharged from the hospital.
Every time that her brother and I cross paths, I can’t look at them. The only reason that I always come back to the hospital is because of the woman I love.
I’m a coward, Yes. I am afraid. Afraid of the things that they are going to say to me. The lines that will come out of their mouth are words that can instantly kill me. They knew that I was gay, yet, I don’t care. Just, don’t take Celine away from me. Even if I just look at her from afar.
The nurse is also annoyed with me because I keep on asking how Celine is now.
I also slept in the waiting area while waiting for her brother to leave the ICU, just to visit her.
I don’t care even if I do not have enough sleep.
One day, I am at the hospital. At night, I am at the house, doing sort regarding about the company, because I don’t want to work at the company. I would just feel lonely.
No Celine means, NO LIFE.
That’s why, I’m here, just looking at her.
Her skin got, even more, paler than the last time I visited her. I want to hold her hand, but, Creed’s word kept me from doing that.
I may not be 100% man, but when it comes to my words, I’m manlier to take responsibility.
I... Love You My mon amour.
I love you. Only you.
You’re the only exemption.
I love you, Yue.
Those words suddenly popped inside my head while I’m intently staring at her, because of those words, I remember the times that we are very happy, together.
We were so in love.
Yet, what happened?
Is this what God wants?
How can He take someone precious to me?
I shook my head. No. I should not blame anyone for this. it is all my fault.
This is not the right time to point fingers at others and blame them.
I look at my wristwatch.
It’s 7 pm already, I am waiting for an international conference call.
I should head home.
I took one last glance at her.
I look at the patient monitor, and, OH, GOD!
Please, No. Her blood pressure ad heartbeat is dropping.
The flat line is seen in the patient's motor.
I panicked.
I look around, searching for a nurse or doctor.
Shit! There is no one.
I run into the hallway to see if I can find a doctor.
Please, just wait, Celine.
Fuck!
Finally! I grabbed the first doctor I spotted, he looks so confused and shock when I pulled her towards the ICU.
Shit! I don’t care anymore. The life of the woman I love is at stake.
As soon as we got there. He immediately attended Celine. He pumped his hands against her chest, yet there are no changes.
He got out of the ICU and shouted, “Code Blue! Code Blue! ICU CODE BLUE!”
I don’t even know what that means, all I know is when he uttered those words, there is a lot of medical staff that went inside.
I went near the nurse.
“Pleases-e s-save h-her,” I begged.
Instead of answering, she just shoves me out of the ICU.
I just go with it.
I can’t do anything. Damn!
I just look at them giving Celine a resuscitation.
Please, God.
S-sav-eh-her.
I tightly closed my eyes. Trying to suppress the emotions that I’ve been holding back.
After a while, Celine’s two older brothers arrive.
They rush towards me with their red swollen eyes.
Creed holds my two shoulders.
“What happens? Is she okay?” he said while shaking both of my shoulders.
I want to respond, but I am still in shock and speechless, and completely devastated.
He continued shaking my shoulders, but I just remained silent.
We stop when the doctor went outside from the ICU.
Curry immediately went near the doctor.
“Relationship with the patient?” the doctor asked.
“Her brother,” Curry answered.
The doctor then nodded.
I am now standing behind Celine’s two older brothers. I am so nervous like there are loud drum rolls inside my chest.
Any moment from now. I might be going to break down.
I can’t bear to hear any bad news about Celine.
I just can’t.
I closed my eyes. Praying for good news.
Then the doctor said, “The patient is now out of danger, Mr. Navarro. He can now be transferred to a private room, then well just wait for her to gain consciousness.”
Fuck. Really?
My knees wobbled and the tears that I’ve been holding back gushed out of my eyes.
I’m relieved.
My heart is filled with happiness when the doctor said those words. It was like my whole world rejoice.
Every tear that I am shedding, expresses the emotion I couldn’t hide anymore.
According to the doctors Celine is on stable condition, for now. But she is still under observation for about a week. After that, she can be discharged from the hospital.
I can’t wait to see her and hear her voice that I’ve been missing a lot.
I stayed for a night in a hotel near the hospital.
The lounge area of the hospital is not available, and I can’t stay also in her room because of her brothers.
That’s why I decided to watch her closely by staying there at the hotel until she wakes up.