I felt betrayed.
Betrayed by the world. Tricked by destiny and played by fate.
I walked out of the hospital and went straight to a pub. I want to forget everything just for today.
I know the pain won’t go away by drinking myself out.
But this is the only way I know that can make me feel numb for the meantime.
As soon as I enter the pub, I walk straight to the bar counter.
I know the owner of this, I always go here.
I smiled bitterly.
This pub is where I celebrate my achievements, birthday, promotions and other happy momments.
But, now?
How can I celebrate huh?!
How can I pretend to be happy when I’m obviously not?
How can she forsake me?
Am I that easily to forget? Ironic isn’t it?
The sound of a chair being pulled made me come back to my senses.
A girl wearing a sleeveless white lacy top and black mini skirt.
She looks like a slut in that outfit. But when I looked at her face, No. Actually she looks like a sexy angel. I remember someone to her.
She turned towards me.
“What?! Got a problem with me, dude?!” she said.
I smirked. “Woah. Take it easy. Don’t worry, I’m not trying to hit on you.”
I took a sip of the scotch I got on hand.
Her face smoothened the moment I said that.
“Sometimes life is full of happiness, but why is it always fucking hard in every fucking way?” she muttered while gulping her drink.
Maybe, she’s like me. I thought to myself.
I am not the only who happens to have a problem right now. All of us has our own demons to slay.
“Life is hard, yes. But it’s the challenges that makes us stronger. It gives us courage to face every obstacle we encounter.” I answered.
She looked at me.
“You know what dude? You have a point. I came this far, why will quit now? I already committed many sins.”
I drank the last drop of scotch on my glass and smiled bitterly.
I envy her. She has the guts to continue onward. While me? I think I still don’t have.
Ironic isn’t it. I am the one who gave her advice, yet I am not doing those advises.
Damnit.
If I could just turn back time,
“By the way, I’m Eriya Madrigal.” She told me and handed her hand.
I smile and shakes hands with her. “Eriya, huh? Unique name. it suits your beautiful face.”
When I said those words, he smacked my shoulder.
Woah. That was a strong one.
“What was that? Are you trying to hit on me, mister?” she said.
I laughed back.
“No shit. I was just amazed by your guts. I remember the woman I love.” I said.
I don’t want to tell someone about her, but it just slipped on my mouth.
I want to rant about my frustrations.
“That girl must be super lucky. Look? You remember her even if you’re not together. It means that you treasure her. You love her. Conditionally or unconditionally. I think you are the type of the guy that will
do anything, and will do impossible things to be possible. You’re quite a nice guy. Damn that lucky bitch.”
That statement hit me like a stone threw from above. It makes me realize thing.
She can’t remember me, right?
Why don’t I start from square-one? Getting to know her and to court her.
Her mind forgets but I’m sure her heart cannot.
I stand from the bar counter.
I need to go to her.
I was about to leave when my phone rings.
Creed calling..
“Ye—” I was about to say something when he interrupted me.
“Carlos! Come here quick! Something happened to Celine!”
My heart beats so fast and loudly, while entering the hospital premises.
It won’t stop beating rapidly. It feels like my heart would explode any moment from now each step that I am doing, my hands trembles.
I am nervous.
That’s for sure.
Why would Creed ask me to come here?
What happen to Celine?
Hearing him say that with trembling voice makes me think that something bad happened.
And, that’s what I’m afraid of.
It is okay to me that she loses her memories, but she needs to be healthy and alive.
I can’t take it if she will be gone. I’d rather die, too.
When I am in front of her private room, I stopped. I took a deep breathe to calm myself.
Hah!
I placed my hand on the knob of the door.
And, slowly turned it.
While opening the door, my world takes slow motion.
I closed my eyes as soon as the door swung open.
Silence enveloped the whole room.
As I opened it, I saw nothing.
Empty.
There are no one here, Just bed sheets.
No! This is not happening. God, please.
I walked slowly to the hospital bed. I touched it just to be sure that my eyes are not faking it.
And when reality struck me. I broke down.
My tears fell down.
Why?!
Why did He take Celine away from me!
An empty room means the patient tat was admitted here died.
I lay on the bed and started sobbing.
I cry like a crazy one. I can’t even stand straight. It’s like my toes turned jelly.
In the middle of crying, someone tapped my shoulder.
I looked at that someone. To my surprise it was ..