Waking up, my eyes traveling to the ceiling above me, just few days I've been out from here, I am already beginning to miss the feelings of a good sleep, though the bed wasn't really great like my average sleeping bed at home, but at least they are more preferable than spending the night at the station.
I felt her hand across my Abs, realizing that she was lying right by my side, her head placed on top of my stretched arm. I brought them up, pushing her into me through her back, showing her how protective I am over her.
We were becoming friends, I stopped viewing her as a whore after that day spent with her at the restaurant, I caught to get an understanding about her and I am really glad that I did, if it wasn't for her, how would I have really gotten out of there?.
I made sure last night was an unforgettable one, she loves it the way I love it too, both of us looks quite damaged in the inside and that had an effect on our desire. Heartbreak can ruin you and damage your way of thinking, as well as your sexual life. I went through a hard childhood, as we all know, not a way a child should live his or her life. For her, she told me how her toxic relationship has ruined her, I would have said that there's always two part of the story, creating a doubt in between, but seeing her view on life, I happened to realize that she did was saying the truth concerning her past, just like me, experience ruined us and both of us decided to follow a path that offers inner peace and protection, but less care and feeling towards people on the outside.
She understands Life from my own perspective too, though it's not quite advisable for a lady to go through with this kind of decision because it looks more masculine in nature, a woman trying to be a leader, trying to be in command of herself, she believes that she was on the wrong path, choosing a protection from another source, more like shaking hands with the devil. I really don't trust anyone, not her, not even myself, but from what I've seen, she's automatically submitting all power over to me, submissive to my decision, and I believe I understand something about this, she's repeating something that ruined her, I am not the only one sacrificing here, she's sacrificing too, letting go of her miseries to take another chance with, her courage really visible.
“ Are you awake Charlie?....”
She asked me, I looked at her, but can only see her hair, she was looking down lower, not to my face. Using my other hand, I raised her face by holding her jaw, making her to look up at me. “ Why are you repeating a mistake that ruined you?....” that's the question in my mind to ask right now.
“ I don't know, I just don't know what I am doing and the truth is, this time, if something like that happens, I don't think that I can find myself the same kind of protection again, because right now, all I am trying to do was to let it all go and submit to someone who worths the risk. I don't know whether I should be telling you this or even say what I am about to say, but going after what I believe I need, I want to be an open book and might possibly end up like your friend if things go bad....”
She sniffed in, the sound quite wet in the ear, signalling she wasn't pretending right now, rather, she's really crying. I think I understand the meaning of her tears, she's bleeding in front of a shark, knowing that I might possibly strike knowing that she's vulnerable, but somehow, she's trying to trust me, but aren't they all the same?, Very soon, she'll get over this feeling of hers and decide that staying independent was the best for her. She have had a taste of independence before, I don't think you can avoid it again after having a taste of it, because it tastes like redemption.
“ How did you get that note?....”
I never asked, but believe that this was the right time to do so. She got herself up, one hand still placed on my Abs and the other resting on the bed to balance her weight, my hand was still on her lower back, her bare tits pointing before me like they were just meant to be watched by me. 
I don't know how she easily got me that night, but lust, I resist lust, only if I am determined to, and now seems like one of those times. “ I once told you that I've been stalking you, with those abilities, I believe that I might possibly find something, anything at all, so I break in into this room in the middle of the night when you were still in the station, I didn't take much time to find the written letter, it was on the floor, right in between this two beds, I had to pick it up, after I had done reading the contents, I believe that I can possibly get you out with this, so I put it my all....”
“ You're reckless.... But I love it....”
I said to her, bringing a smile onto her feature, like the compliment was really something she deemed special. She bent forward, kissing my lips before saying. “ I can't possibly fill in the void left by Barrett because I am no guy, but I can block that space by creating mine and give you my love in my own way.....”
That really sound romantic, I should be careful to allow this get on my head. My phone began to ring by the top of the locker where I kept it, picking up, it was an unknown number.
(“ I'm sorry Charlie, I really am.... I deserve whatsoever punishment I get, forgive me.”)