“ A wedding?..... Are you going to tell me that you don't know about this?.....”
I asked, anger in my voice, despite trying to reduce the volume of my voice, I could still hear them sound and clear, they were loud. He was saying anything, he was just looking at me, pity in his eyes, knowing that he did wrong and has already admitted to it with his silence, but I still want to hear them come from his mouth, I want him to speak out, tell me that he was aware.
“ I'm sorry babe, it's all my fault.....”
“ No!.... Don't tell me that, no!.... Just answer my question, was you aware of this or not?....”
I pressed, tears running down my cheeks, he brought me close into him, I wanted to back away, but he held me in, making me to carve in into him, “ Why?.... Why babe?, You could've just told me, you could have just made me aware of this....” I advised him, crying my eyes out into his clothes, all today's memories hit me at once, all that have happened, starting from the cut in my finger to the moment we're in right now, I'm fucking disappointed.
“ I'm sorry babe, it's a family thing....”
I tried moving back out of him, and he allowed me this time, like he knew that he just made a confession that should be looked into, that should be talked about. I was looking into his face, waiting for him to proceed, knowing that he do possibly understand the look that I'm giving him right now.
“ This is how we usually carry it out babe, more like throwing a surprise to our partners, we bring our partner home as a visit, then along the line, throws a surprise wedding.... It might not be considered official, but we're now married, the official wedding can still be done by the decision of our partner, but for the home, we take the responsibility.....”
He said, hand travelling to my left cheek, rubbing them with his thumb and giving me a reassuring smile. I'm still mad and angry at him, but happy that he just shared the truth with me now. He could have just told me this all this time, I could've prepared for it, so many bad things have happened today, what's the wedding now going to be like?, I have made foes out of my soon to be in laws and with plannings that I never thought of also coming up.
It is said that we're now going to reside here, meaning that after the wedding, I'm to be transferring my stuffs here, into the roof filled with big ass weirdos. I can just decide not to continue with this wedding, from the unacceptable scenarios that have played out today, I have reasons to walk away, reasons not to pull myself in into this situation, but looking from the fact, I would probably be the one losing in every aspect.
I'm in love with Liam, and as a 29 years old young lady or can I say old lady now, considering the marrying age, my value is dropping as a woman and I won't be getting another like Liam, not when they all probably want young girls out there. This relationship has been growing for two years already, I can't do anything to hinder the progress, not when I know he does care about me so much, I will always have to forgive right?.
With the terms and conditions within the marriage rules, I feel like I am going back into the past to go get married, but there's a slight difference when it comes to the sexual part, more like that of this current generation we now live in, no one trying to stay committed with one person, sneaking from person to person, but inside this mansion, it's different, you don't have to hide, instead you can as well fuck anywhere you want, even in front of your partner, delusional.
Speaking from the system today, Many ladies and men would love this, to live in such environment like this, but that's not me, that's not what I am made of, all this is new and foreign to me, like I'm about getting myself into something I never signed up for.
He brought me close again, gave me another bear hug, which now lasted for few moments more than the last, before he moved out, kissed my forehead, then my cheeks, followed with my lips which lasted longer than the other, before traveling down to my neck.
I know that the pain and anger is still there, hovering on the air above me, but I feel like this is as well what I need right now to get off, I have quite as well had a lot today since waking up this morning, but with all the dramas that have went on today, I believe I should just allow him to take me on, dominate me and make me release both my climax, my stress, my worries and as well, my pains, probably including the urgent informations that came on today about my surprise marriage which I never expected.
Both of us gasped out together, our sensation hitting at the same time, with him falling out of me and me as well unable to get off the bed, so weak and exhausted, my brain stress free like my body does know that my brain needed this to go back to default setting.
I was too weak to even turn on the bed, but he made it easy for me, he grabbed my side, turning me around as he held me in into him, his hands around me, caging me in, protecting me from everything outside there, from everyone wanting to attack me, I was lost in his hold and too weak to move any muscle as well, with a smile on my lips, I gave him my appreciation for taking all my miseries away.
“ Thanks Babe, you're all that I can ever ask for....”