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Chapter 42 A Divorce

Ava's POV: 
" Iam not a whore, Vincenzo. I won't hide from your whore. Iam Mrs.Marino on the papers and I won't let you disrespect me like that." My tone came out strong and steady. I won't care what he will do with my show of defiance but iam past the caring about anyone other than me.
My body may surrender towards him but I won't let my soul or pride surrender to him nor anyone.
" Ava! I don't care about your morals or pride right now. Do as I said." He growled, anger shining in his eyes at the same time a bit of respect shine too but what iam clearing seeing how he is discarding me for that woman.
" No. I won't." He moved towards me in one long stride and held my arm trying to push me towards the bathroom but i didn't know where the courage came from but my hand strike his face before i can register what i did. The sound of slap resonated in the empty office.
" I won't let you disrespect me like this." I repeated again what I told him before and walked towards the door with my head held high not giving him any glance to see if he is seething or not.
My heart feels like it's ripping apart and tears threatning to fall down but i held them back not wanting to show any weakness in the open where the vultures can sank their claws and rip me apart.
Clicking of heels sounded when my head turned towards the corridor from where Maria is walking forward like she owns the place.
" Umm! What are you doing here!" Her eyes narrowed, filled with accusation and doubt. I rolled my eyes at her stupidity.
" Why won't I be here where my husband is." I sassed, a smirk and a fraction of satisfaction spread through me at her face which dropped instantly. I was never this petty but both of them is changing me into something iam not.
" What are you doing here!" I asked, tapping my foot impatiently like I don't have any time for her or any nonsense.
" Nevermind." I turned around towards the other corridor ready to walk away but her words stunned me to my core and I froze.
" He will easily get bored with plain girls like you. He will always choose me over everyone." Her voice sounded so sure and arrogant. A scoff left my mouth and my heart hardened.
" You can have him. I don't run around men like a desperate whore." With those words I walked away. They can have each other, i don't want him if he won't give me basic rights and basic respect i deserve.
" Where can I find a bathroom!" I asked the bodyguard who stood near a room.
" That way Ma'am." He pointed out to the door which stood at the end of the corridor. I am controlling my emotions and tears, I just need to be alone to let out everything, I can't hold till I reach my room. 
Everything feels too much.
I locked myself inside the bathroom and slide through the door, tears and silent sobs rocking my body and the hurt and humiliation which i had been gulping down since my father sold me like a lamb engulfed me and i can't hold it any longer.
I know iam weak and pathetic for always trying to please people and never want to hurt anyone but in the end I am the one who stands the other side getting hurt.
My throat is closing up and i can't able to breath properly as iam wailing without any sound. I don't want everyone to know that iam breaking down.
I will just have this moment for myself and after this I will harden my heart and become someone I will always hated, a heartless and feeling less monster.
I am not going to get anything from Vincenzo and I am so sure if it and iam not going to fight for him when he doesn't treat me as his wife. 
A sudden knock startled me and i jumped apart in fright. 
" Ava! Are you in there!" Vincenzo's voice boomed through the door and i closed my mouth to not let him hear me breaking down like a pathetic loser in the bathroom.
" Ava! Open the door!" He demanded, how dare he! How dare he demand something from me! I didn't made a peep, i don't want to see his face right now.
" I know you are in there. Open the fucking door before i break it down." He has the audacity to order me like this. He is really an heartless monster. What the hell does he want more from me! He still wants to flaunt his ex-fiancee infront of me.
" Fuck off!" I yelled weakly, not really in the mood to take his childish tantrums.
" Open the door, Ava!" He demanded again like petulant child who doesn't take no for an answer.
" I said, Fuck off! I don't want to see your face nor want you near me." He always brought my ugliness which i didn't knew i had in me.
" Iam going to break this god-damn door and i don't care what you want or what you don't." A bang sounded like he is really trying to break the bloody door down. I got up form the floor and stood back, disbelief and shock at his action.
" What the fuck are you doing, Vincenzo! Leave me alone. I don't want you here." I screamed, anger courisng through me at how he is trying to barging inside despite being asked not to.
" I am not stopping till this door gets opened." He sounds pissed but i don't care what he feels anymore. If he is stubborn then iam too.
He kicked the door two to three times more and the door opened like someone has blasted it. He didn't needed much force to open it. I have already wiped every emotion from my face and I know my face looks all puffy and tear stained but let him see how much he hurt me.
" Happy now! What the hell do you want!" I asked, glaring at him. He is wearing his signature black shirt and slacks with folded sleeves, highlighting his tattoos and veins on his hands. He is is sight to behold but right now iam hurt and pissed.
He is truly a gorgeous devil who will seduce you with his looks and charm. 
" I just want to check upon my wife. Is that a crime!" A scoff left my mouth at his words. He surely is mocking me with those words.
" What do you take me for, Vincenzo! Am I a puppet in your hands! An idiot! A naive little girl who you think will take anything and be alright!" If my glare and anger could kill someone he will be six feet under by now.
Iam not holding back anything and I won't hold back.
" You are all those things you think you are Little Ava. You are nothing but a tiny pawn in my game and it was never my plan to tie you with me but yours and my father's greed pushed you into my life so don't expect a happily ever after from me nor any loyalty towards you." His words hit home and i staggerd back at the way they pierced. Its not been a long since we were married but I feel something for him but hearing him say all these things and saying iam nothing but a pawn hurts, no, breaks me completely.
I was never a priority nor enough for anyone in my life but with Vincenzo i imagined for a good and happy life but I was seriously a stupid little girl hoping for something which will be impossible to get.
" Okay! Thanks for being so clear about it." I gulped down my emotions and feelings and looked into his eyes. I don't want to be anyone's puppet nor be the same stupid girl who believes everything which shines.
" I want a divorce, Vincenzo." He blurted the words, not flinching nor hesitating. I can't stay in this sham of a marriage and suffer my entire life.
I want love, respect and loyalty from my man and Vincenzo is not the man who will give me these things. 
My heart is breaking into million pieces and i don't even love him but it's an mere attraction and how much my body craves his touch, it's just an physical attraction right! and still those words paining me.
It shouldn't hurt me this much when it's just a attraction, right! I never felt what love was and no one showed how love should feel nor what it means to love someone.
Everything is so confusing and frustrating and i need to distance myself from Vincenzo. I can't stay in this marriage and lose myself slowly.

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    pls ml

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    IonasRobert

    it's beautiful

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    good

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