“You're good at playing the piano, where did you learn it?” he asked. After I played some classical music, he gave me some feedback.
However, my shoulder slumped because of his question. He became worried, “Oh, sorry for that, if I asked you something.”
I forced a smile for him, “Nah, it's okay, I learned it from my biological mother,” I replied.
“Eh? Really? I don't have any talent, I just want to go here if I'm going to review for my exams, and I love to listen to music with different genres,” he examined.
I went back to his side, he moved closer to me, “It's getting cold,” he whispered. “I will turn it off if you want, or I can decrease the cooling number of the aircon,” I offered.
It seems like he doesn't want to answer my questions. He put his head on my shoulder, but he's still reading some topics from his book.
I didn't move, instead, I decided to put on some earphones, and listen to some songs.
I checked my wristwatch, it's already 10:19 in the morning, lunch break is near.
Likewise, after a few hours, I'm sure that I will feel hungry. It's embarrassing, but yeah, I'm used to it.
“You know what, Sammy, since the day that I met you, I don't know if I should be mad at you, or I should be embarrassed because of what you saw back then,” he said. My eyes widened, I forgot to play some songs.
“However, if you're thinking something, I rejected the girl's request, plus, we were still young that time, and my mind wouldn't accept if I agree to her thirst.” I remained silent.
“I know, it's a good idea to reject her, and I pay her time, and needs in exchange of she will be going to disappear from my surroundings,” he added.
“From that day, I felt guilty for not knowing your name, and where was your school, not until I met Zoe Amethyst, which was looked like the exact facial appearance of you.”
“My mind thought that it was you, but when I knew her name, my mind controlled my feelings, like it's convincing me that it was you,” he muttered.
I don't want to believe in his story, but he sounds like a sincere, and honest man. I assumed that it was the reason why Zoe Amethyst accepted him to be part of her life.
“I immediately decided to go to the same school with Zoe, but unfortunately, I never knew that you were the one who she's always telling me,” he explained.
I closed my eyes and took a deep breath, and let it out slowly.
Not only that, but I felt sleepy, plus the aircon feels great. It's good to sleep in here.
I couldn't help myself, but yawn. He holds my hand and squeezed it slowly.
Furthermore, I don't want to assume something because I need to prove it, and I need some strong proof.
My heart was racing like it's going to throw up, and beating like a drum.
“I'm going to say this not because I want you to feel jealous, but because I want you to know the reason why we broke up,” he whispered.
He still didn't know that I'm not playing some songs, that's why he keeps telling me his memories.
“We broke up because her parents were against our relationship, however, they won to separate us from each other, Zoe didn't fight with me, she listened to her parents, and she left me all alone.” I don't know what to feel.
“Although she's afraid because her parents were threatened me by their usual words, they are going to kill me, or my family if I won't break up with Zoe,” he added.
I'm sleepy, and I can't control it. He speaks continuously.
“To be honest, I'm not afraid to die, because that day, my heart was still into Zoe, and my eyes were blinded by the appearance, not until one day, I realized that I need to value my life.”
His voice was soft, and he speaks slowly. “It may sound selfish, and it sounds like I didn't love Zoe, but I won't deny that I truly love her that time, but when I saw you once again, I realized something.” I can't hear him clearly, all I know is I want to sleep.
“I realized that my life is important, and there's a lot of opportunities that I might grab for the future, there's a lot of time to find you, and to help my parents,” he explained.
“The realization hit me that hard, but my soul left my body when I heard the news that she's already dead, 5 years ago after we broke up.”
I yawned once again, and he intertwined our fingers. “It's hard to describe my feelings right now, but all I can say is I will protect you even though my body and mind can't do the same.”
I remained silent because It's hard to find those words to say to him, just not to make him feel disappointed.
Furthermore, I'm still listening to him, while my eyes were closed. I just want to take a nap, just for a few minutes.
I moved closer to him and fixed my position, I'm sitting sideways, and hugged his waist. He becomes silent.
“Hmm, I'm sleepy, just give me some minutes just to take a nap, I'm tired,” I whispered. I felt like he's touching my hair gently.
The complete darkness was the only one that already appeared in my vision. I can feel his warm body and slow heavy breath.
He's trying to breathe normally, however, his breath is like a pumping ball or a balloon.
I can feel his heartbeat, it's like my heartbeat. It was beating as I ran a thousand miles just to reach him.
He kissed my cheek that makes me feel comfortable. It feels like I'm safe with I'm with him.
He doesn't have this kind of style that looks like a person who was counting all the grass, and sugar. What I mean is, he is not the type of guy that can hurt you.
We heard the bell rang after a few minutes. My system suddenly awake when I heard the bell.
“It's lunchtime! Let's go!” I exclaimed. I hold his hand, and pulled him to stand up, and decided to go to the cafeteria. Someone shouted that he or she wants to have some pictures together with Harvey.
He's hesitating to accept, so I agreed to let him picture with the students. He rarely goes out of the room, when the school hour was already done.
I saw Sapphire, she was sitting at the corner, and there's no one wanted to befriend her. I don't know their real agenda.
Sapphire is a kind lady, yet she doesn't want to show it in public, she only shows it to her closest friends.
I waved my hands, and so she can notice my gaze between the flood of the students.