"Blaire? You should eat first. Come on! Let's eat!"
I just smiled in the air. I didn't bother to look at her, at them. It's Sunday and this is the day that luke needs to leave the country. I don't know why but I feel like I want to stop him from leaving me but I shouldn't keep him. This is the best for us.
I'm the one who pushed him away. Spoke hurtful words to him so I have no right to stop him. Besides, we were not a couple anymore.
"Hey!" Anne tap my shoulder so I looked at her. "Since yesterday, you were still looking at the sky and you really ignored us."
I looked again at the sky. "My apologies, Anne."
"What's the problem? You are being like that two days ago." She said.
"She's right! We were asking you but you still won't open your mouth to talk." Roxie said as she tap my head a lot of times. I glared at her but she just laughed a little.
"Nothing. It's not that important anyway." I smiled at both of them. "Let's go. I'm hungry."
I left there first and then went to the table where everything was served. We just eat silently when someone's phone rang. My friends and I look at each other then we turned our gaze to Anne. It hers!
"Oh! It was," She looked at me slowly, "luke. He wants a videocall." I nodded and she immediately answers it. While me, I continue my lunch.
"Hey," She started.
I was surprised when one by one of my friends stood up and went behind Anne. I frowned at their actions.
["Uhm, hi everyone. Is she there? Can I talk to her?"]
"And why do you want to talk to her?" Roxie asked him.
"That's right! You two already broke up, right?" Alice added.
"You can't talk to her. We won't let you even if she's here. You should mind your own business, freak," Lev said.
Anne looked at me like she's asking me. I just wave my both hands while shaking my head. I don't want to talk to him. We're done!
"Sad to say but she already left. What do you want to tell her?"
["She left? Where did she go? I can't contact her."] Luke's voice is obviously unhappy. ["And I know that you guys are mad at me but believe me, I love her and I can't do that to her."]
"Whatever. What do you want to tell her and we will just pass it to her," Anne asked him.
I heard him sigh. ["Uhm, you know, I'm leaving today. So, I just want to say goodbye to her."]
"Leaving? You're going back to France? Why?" Anne simply looked at me while she frowned.
["Mar... m-marrying Margareth."]
I suddenly let go of the spoon and fork causing it to fall to the floor and stare at my plate. Did I hear it right? He will still marry that bitch? I feel something on my throat like I want to cry but of course, I stop myself, so my heart feels heavy now.
"W-what? WHAT THE HELL DID YOU SAY?" At once they said as their eyes widened slightly.
["Uhm, That was what daddy said. I can't say no to him. Even though that I don't want to marry her."]
"Are you really crazy? You are telling us that you love blaire but you will still marrying that woman just because you can't refuse to your dad." I looked at Roxie.
"Remember this, never come back to the Philippines because when we see you here, you should be prepare. Stupid!" Alice said while gritted her teeth.
"You're such a freaking moron. Blaire hates you so much! We hate you too! So don't you dare to come back here again!" Lev said and she suddenly walkout.
"I can't believe that you can easily give up on Blaire just to marry that bitch. Aish!" Anne ended the call and they approached me.
Why is this happening to me? I took a deep breath then I pushed them a little then I ran to the room and I locked it.
I sat on the floor and leaned against the door as I rubbed my chest because of the extra weight. There's really something on my throat, I can't swallow properly. Wait! I shouldn't cry. I shouldn't cry because I'm strong and that's not a big deal!
But... I ended up lying on my bed while crying silently because I don't want them to hear that I'm crying because they might be thinking that I'm weak. That will so be embarrassing on my part.
I just wanna cry and cry and cry until the pain is gone. But because I've been crying quietly for a while, I fell asleep feeling bad and I don't know how to be okay.
When I woke up, it was dark outside and I could hear nothing from outside the room. Where are they? I stood up and went into the bathroom and wash my face. Then I went out after that.
"Guys?" I look them in the kitchen, living area, balcony, but I saw nothing even their shadow. "Where are you guys?" I whispered.
I took out my phone from my pocket in the back of my pants. Then, I called Anne but she didn't answer, so I called Lev but she didn't answer too and I did the same with my other friends but no one answered my calls.
Where the hell are they? Why did they leave me? Then after an hour, the door opens and they came in with a beer in both hands. What the hell? They drank and didn't even take me with them?
They looked at me. "Oh! You're awake! Are you waiting for us?" Lev asked.
I just rolled my eyes and look at the T.V again. "Where have you been? Why did you leave me here alone?"
Alice sat down beside me and put her arm around my nape. "So you locked the door and then we called you but you didn't answer, what do you want us to do then, just stare and wait until nightfall?" She said sarcastically.
I just frowned and didn't answer. I can't help but feel sad right now. It's as bad as my sin. I feel bad for myself.
"Shh! Alice! Come on, you need to sleep na, your mouth won't stop!" Lev said and she immediately pulled Alice up then they went into the room.
"It's fine! We know you’re having a hard time so cheer up!" Roxie said and I just automatically smile.
"We would have liked to know what happened because I heard from your sister that Luke went to your house in almost one week. Right?" Anne drank her beer. I just nodded.
"But if you are not comfortable with telling us about that, it's okay! We understand. Well, of course, we have a rule. That is number 4 which is 'Understanding each other situation'."
Why does Lev suddenly appear, like a fool. Aish! I took a deep breath and just smiled at them before stood up and went to the kitchen.
I need water. I can't breathe, not literally. I just... never mind!
"So, let's sleep? We need to go to thr university tomorrow," I said when I stopped in front of them in the living room.
They smiled and thumbs up at me. "Sure! Sure! Sure!" They said simultaneously.
I don't know but I feel like I don't want them to know what happened about that. It's humiliating? Argh! I really don't know. I lay down on the bed next to Alice then forced to sleep.
The next day, we quickly showered and dressed because we were late. We also took a shower at the same time, as in! Of course we're in bras and panties, duh! It's not embarrassing for me because we're used to it.
"What’s that?" I laughed. "Shit! Why are you wearing it turned inside-out? Fix it!" I pointed to Anne’s shirt while laughing.
"Oh my!" She immediately takes off her shirt. "Shit! This is really f*ck up! The T-shirt is so stupid." She said, so we laughed.
"What? Game?" Roxie asked. We frowned because of what she asked. 'Game?'
"What game are you saying?" Alice suddenly complaint. I just laughed because she looked disgusted.
"You fool! I mean, are you all ready because we're going to be late! Please hurry!"
After two minutes, we hurriedly came out of the unit and run towards the elevator. Good thing because the elevator opens right away. We haven't gotten in yet but we're so sweaty.
It only took us a few minutes and we got to the University right away. We didn't bother to say goodbye to each other, we went straight to his room.
I stopped in front of the door of our room when I saw that our professor is not there yet. I took a deep breath and immediately went straight to my seat.
"Are you okay?" I looked at someone besides me. It was my friend, Eliza.
"Oh! Yes, of course. Uhm, what time is it now?" I asked my friend because I left my wristwatch and my cellphone so I don't have anything but myself and my bag.
She looked at her wristwatch. "Hmm! 7:40 am. And why are you sweating profusely?"
My brows furrowed. "I thought I was late. Roxie told us that it was already 8. Oh God!" She laughed at me.
"She fooled you then." She smirked and tap my head, I quickly took away her hand then I glared at her but she just ignored me and go back to her seat.
That bitch! Get ready for me roxie later. He even hurried us so that I could leave my cellphone behind and it was too early.
I just watching my block mates talking to each other, laughing and smiling at each other, studying on their own, busy typing on their phone, flirt with their boyfriend/girlfriend until the professor came.
What an eyesore!
He started the class and I was wondering because the whole class seemed to be quiet which rarely happens. I mean, we were quiet then and listened to him but it's not like now, it seemed “hindi makabasag pinggan”.
I just ignored them and listened quietly. I didn't know what he was saying, I didn't understand anything even though I was listening. No one enters my brain no matter what word he says. Aish! What's going on with me?
"Okay! Uhm, I need to say something on you guys." After I heard that, my sense came back.
"Okay sir!" My classmate said.
"I am standing here today to formally say goodbye, as I will be leaving the University very soon. I acknowledge that it wasn’t always easy or smooth, so I’d like to apologize to anyone whom I may have offended or hurt over the years as your teacher. I hope it’s a mutual feeling that we had a great time together."
"Sir..."
He sighed deeply. "Before I go, I want to say two things to the students." He smiled. "One is a request: I’d like to ask that you all continue to believe in yourselves. You’ll need this inner confidence in all aspects of your life, be it academics or the workplace.
The second is a prayer: I pray that we never forget each other because some of my favorite memories involve the students at this University."
"Yes sir!" They said.
"Uhm, sir?" One of my block mates raised her hand.
"What is it? Do you want to ask something?" She nodded as I looked at her.
"Is this because... of your relationship with the... student?" My eyes widened a bit. Relationship with the student? Really?
"Is it true, sir?" I can't help it anymore so I asked.
He slowly nodded. "Yes! I don't think that was wrong. I just fell in love with someone. Is there something wrong with that? Even though I knew it was forbidden, we gambled. Good thing, they didn’t release who that student was, I might be going crazy if it happens... I don't want to ruin her life."
"Don't worry sir! It's not big deal to us. There's nothing wrong with that. You two... just fall in love in a wrong time." I said and I smiled. He smiled and looked at Eliza for a moment.
I looked at Eliza and she's crying silently. I approached her and tap her shoulder. "Why are you crying?"
She looked at me with wide eyes but dhe suddenly wiped her tears. "I'm just sad. I'm sad... he's leaving just because of loving someone."
I just nodded. I don't know what to say.
Our prof. had already arranged his belongings before facing us. He took a deep breath before looked at us one by one then he started to say something again.
"I may be leaving now, but that doesn’t mean we should be sad about it. There’s a lot to be thankful for. Let’s think back on the good fortune that we’ve had of learning together. I will definitely not forget the countless hours that we spent in the classroom, the numerous tests that I set and you failed at times, and the disastrous school trips. All of it will be cherished. We always had a good time, despite being serious too, and I’ll always treasure that. I guess that it’s also fine to admit now that you have all kept me on my toes this whole time. Thank you for that. Stay healthy and goodbye!"
He left after that. I sighed. The following subjects just went fast and I didn’t seem to understand anything they were saying, I wasn’t in the mood. I just want to go home!
It's lunch and I'm just walking alone to the cafeteria, everyone here looks happy and has no problem, I hope so am I. Then someone bumped into me, I looked at her but she suddenly pushed me causing me to sit on the floor.
Ouch!
What the hell? The pain of my ass! I just close my eyes in pain while holding my side. How dare she is to push me?
I looked up and I suddenly frowned, I blinked a lot of times also. What the hell is she doing here? I stood up and faced her.
"Darcy?" I uttered and looked at her unbelievable.