"Finally! We are done! Woah! I still can't believe this!"
I looked at Claire and she's so very happy. I looked down not because I'm not happy, it because my heart still aching. I thought it won't be hurt like this again but I'm wrong. Why can't I forget him even now? I was just sitting here and watching over them—those students who also graduated just now.
I should be happy because finally, we're done and our relationship is also done since two years ago. But I can't help it to think about him again, to miss him again, and I can't stop myself from loving him too much even though that he hurt me so much.
"Hey! Why are you just sitting there? Let's go, let's take a picture with them, Blaire!" She pulled me up after she pointed our blockmates.
"I don't want to," I simply said before taking her hand away. She looked at me while she frowned.
"What?"
I looked at her with my innocent emotion placed on my face. I didn't answer her, I just took a heavy sigh before looked down again.
I can see her feet walking to the chair beside me and in just a blink of an eye, I felt her warm hug from my side. I know, it feels so dramatic. So, I pushed her lightly.
"You should be happy right now, blaire. This is our graduation day." She told me as if I didn't know about it
"I know," I uttered.
She stood up and blocked my eyesight so I look up at her. "Oh! 'That's it, why are you still being dramatic there?"
I just scratched my head. "I'm not being dramatic on purpose. I'm just... tired?"
She raised her brow. "Tired?" She laughs a little. "You're lying."
I just sighed when she sat beside me. This is annoying. I don't even know but I want to avoid everyone these past few days, especially with Claire. She was always as predictive of what I was thinking, whether I was lying or not, whether I was really happy or not.
"Are you... thinking of him again?" She asked. This is what I said, she's clairvoyant.
I laughed nervously. "Of course not, why would I?"
She glared at me, obviously unbelieving. I rolled my eyes after I take a heavy sigh.
"Fine! Yes, I'm always thinking of him because I can't help it but it doesn't mean that I still love him." I looked in front, there are so many students taking photos. "Look at them, they're all happy because they were in love, their life is perfect, it seems that they have no problems. I'm envious of them."
I suddenly looked at her when I heard her cursing. I just chuckled because she looks like want to punch me, well, irritation running through her mind.
"Tsk! You don't have to be envious of them. There's a reason behind this, just go with the flow and everything will be alright. Hmm?" I sighed and nodded.
I thought it was the last but I didn't expect him to say much more. She gives me a lot of advice and scolded me at the same time. But none of what he was saying, I didn’t understand, because I was busy looking around.
I don't know if I'm just imagining him again because... like, I suddenly saw him earlier but after a blink of an eye, he'd suddenly gone. Aish! This is so annoying! My heartbeat is faster as unexpected.
"Are you listening to me?" I looked at her and suddenly nodded then back looking around
"Who are you looking for, blaire?"
I suddenly turned to her. "What?"
"Are you looking for someone?" She asked seriously. I adjusted my seating and looked at him boldly.
"Who else should I look for? This is nonsense!" I look away, I heard her whispered something but I couldn't understand.
After a minute of staring at the people, I already decided. I stood up and took a very deep breath and smile genuinely before looked at my sister. I shouldn't be sad today, but honestly, I'm a bit tired.
I approached mommy and daddy and asked them if we could go home right now because I’m a bit tired and they agreed. Besides, we'll celebrate later, I'm going to run out of energy.
"I told you! Don't be too energetic. You're so stubborn." Kuya said and then he suddenly pinched my cheek at the left.
"Hey, stop it! It hurts!" My complaint as I pouted.
"Really? Do you want more?"
"Mommy, kuya won't stop." I complained and we just laughed as well as daddy laughed.
"Stop it, you two." Mommy faced me and Claire. "What do you want to eat, my twins?"
My face brightens. Oh my god! We're going to eat, I'm hungry too. What is really good to eat today? Then something popped up on my mind.
"Mommy?" She looked at me with a wide smile. "Can you just... cook our meal? Well, the last time you cooked for us is when we were a kid."
She's obviously surprised that's why she can't open her mouth to answer. Her widely smile also slowly faded. "Well, if you don't want to, it's–"
"I want it!" She cut me off and smiled so genuinely. "Of course, I will cook for our meal."
The trip was quick for me because I just took a nap when I woke up we were at home. Speed ​​isn't it? It's just like magic. Jeez!
When we already inside the house, I and Claire quickly run upstairs to our room and quickly change. I was so sweaty and tired so I went to bed for a while.
I was about to close my eyes when my cellphone rang. I took it and it was Roxie so I answer it.
"What? Are you going to congratulate me? Jeez! Thank you. Thank you," I said as I answered it. I laughed when I heard her cursing words.
["Your face, you brat!"]
"What do you really need? Why did you call?" I asked. She wouldn't have called me if she doesn't want anything.
["I just... well... I need your help. Please! Please let me. You know, as long as—whatever, I'll get it back from you. Please."]
"Alright! I will send it to you later. You bitch."
She laughed and I guess, she's also jumping. The shallowness of his happiness. Oh my god. ["I know!"] She ended the call after that.
"She's rude," I whispered to myself.
Then after a few seconds, I decided to take a nap, besides, mommy hasn't finished cooking yet so I'll just go to sleep first.
Then when I woke up, I immediately went downstairs and sat beside claire. They were all eating. I think they are started just now so, I'm not late, I guess.
"Did you rest well?" Daddy asked me and I just nodded at him because my mouth is full. "I see. How about you Claire?" Claire just nodded too.
Daddy is looks upset about something. Is there something they want to tell us? I don't think so, maybe they’re just not in the mood. Our snack ended quickly, as did the sunset.
At sa paglubong ng araw ay siyang pagtaas ng buwan, na bilog na buwan. At kasabay ng pagtaas ng buwan ay siyang pagpasok niya sa aking isipan.
Funny because I said my heart no longer hurts when I think of him but I was wrong again. I miss him. If I have a chance to see him, I will not waste my time.
No! Blaire, you shouldn't think of him always. He's just a piece of trash because he hurt you so badly.
So, I just decided to sleep. It is better to sleep than to think of him. Aish! I'm crazy!
The next day, I just rested in my room until the afternoon came. I want to walk in the garden but I'm too lazy to get up. This is so boring, like I don't do anything except eat, take a bath, and staring at the ceiling. Honestly, it looks like a prison but not literally.
But when I heard my cellphone rang, my face lights up and I immediately stood up from lying down to my bed and took my phone, and of course, answer it.
"Hey!" I said happily when I answered the call. It was Allen.
He chuckled. ["Oh! You look so happy. What's the matter?"]
I smiled and shook my head a bit as if he can see it. "It's nothing! I'm just bored today so, I'm waiting for someone to call me and talk to me also."
["Is that so?"]
I nodded. "Yes! Anyway, It's been two years, right? So, how are you?" I asked.
I heard he sighed so deeply. ["Nothing's changed. Feel alone. But I'm fine as long as I'm with her."]
"Oh, I see. How is she? Is she better now than before?"
["Still wild and violent but it's more fine than before. She was able to communicate well, and she just really needed to be watched carefully."]
I suddenly didn't answer, I feel so guilty, I was still fighting her just for luke but it just didn't matter. And I know, this situation is really hard for Allen.
["Are you still there? Blaire?"]
I suddenly came back to my sense. "Oh! Yes! I just can't stop thinking of something." I'm surprised when manang enter to my room holding a box of both of her hands. I frowned.
"Anyway, I need to do something so, I call you later. Bye!" I quickly ended the call and approached manang. I help her to the box.
"What is this, manang?" I asked her while I still checking the box.
"Delivery for you and just for you." She said with a suspicious place on her face.
I chuckled and touch my forehead. "Hey, manang. Don't look at me like that. I didn't do anything, I also don't know what inside of this."
"Why are you being like that? I haven't said anything yet." I looked at her as my lips parted in shock. "I'm getting more and more suspicious of you. Tsk! Tsk!"
She left with her arms in front of her chest and still grinning. What the...
"W-what?"
I ignored manang. I just looked back at the box and immediately took scissors and opened it. It is not that big but enough to be heavy or a little difficult to carry.
"What is this?"
When I opened the box, the first thing I saw was small pieces of paper of different colors, as in very small cut-out paper. I removed them and saw the two picture frames on top, I frowned because this photo of a woman sitting and wearing the graduation gown was placed in the first picture frame... and that was me.
In the second picture frame, it is a picture of a whole family laughing at each other while walking towards the gate at the same time and the one in the middle is the woman wearing a graduation gown, it looks like it was taken from the side but it is very clear... and that my family and me.
"Oh my god! Who did this come from, we didn't take any picture yesterday?" I asked myself.
And under the two picture frames, are three beautiful dresses and a wristwatch. The dresses are so beautiful. Who could have sent it. Then I saw a little piece of pink paper and something was written on it.
This is my graduation gift for you. I hope you like it and please don't ask who I am. Just imagine you bought all that for yourself.
I laughed softly when I read that. It's too bad. Okay! I won't ask who he/she is! I returned everything I took out and I put the box under my bed and then I went downstairs to get some snacks, my tummy feels empty.
"Manang, where's mom and dad?" I asked while I'm still getting my snacks.
"They left. They will come back later." I just nodded.
When I finished getting my food, I said goodbye to manang who was upstairs again. When I'm in my room, I took my phone and call Allen and he answered it.
["So, what's the matter? Hmm?"]
I sighed and sat in my bed. "Can you do me a favor?" I asked.
["Sure! What is it? Just make sure I can do it, okay?"]
I chuckled. "I know, I'm sure you can really do it."
["Okay. Then tell me what is it?"]
This time, I want to be friends with her, it's not just because I pity her. It's because, I realized that if you truly love someone you will do everything to make that someone fall for you, even you look desperate and flirty to others... And that was Darcy before.
She did everything she knew for luke but it didn't really work. But how luke and I relationship ended is like a nightmare to me, the world is so cruel to us, but it was all in the past. I hope, I and Darcy will get over to him soon. And I hope, I can talk to her properly now.
"I want to meet and talk to darcy. Can you do that?"