I didn’t expect a very fast -paced event that Greige and Ma'am Phoebe were already engaged. I can't almost move. My tears are starting to pour down on my face. I saw how happy Greige was and kissing his fiance on the lips on TV. I thought he didn’t want a public display! Now, I couldn't help but affected very much.
"Are you all right, Ma'am Thaea?" asked Terylene in a sudden.
"Yes." I lied as nodding my head.
"I shouldn't have to let you know about this but I'm just concerned to you as a friend." As she continued to explain further.
I don't blame Terylene. She really cares about me. I understand that.
Afterwards, I let her go back to work while I pursue myself to focus on work. I don’t have to leave now like yesterday since don’t want to hear any negative feedback from the employees here. Although not emotionally ok, I need to concentrate. It's good rather that will avoid thinking about things can hurt my feelings.
When arrived home, I went straight to my room to take a rest. I have beaten myself up at work. I ate very early for my dinner. It popped my mind as my eyes stared on the keyboard.
"I think I should sing a song again just to relax myself after what happened."
This song can relate me much. I got my phone and started to make a live video on facegram.
"Hello guys. I hope you like this song for tonight." Afterwards, I began to press one of the piano piece first before it finally started to make a melody. Sa Isip ko by Sarah Geronimo.
As soon as I sang there was an immediate message that supposed to convey. There's many reactions and comments on my live video. In a few moments, the chorus went on that more spectators, reactors and commentators appeared.
Sa isip ko'y yakap ka pa
Sa isip ko'y walang iba
Mananatiling ikaw ang kapiling
Kahit sa isip ko lang lamang
Mananatiling ikaw ang kapiling
Kahit sa isip ko lang lamang
After singing a song, my tears flowed all over my face. I cried for thirty-minutes. Then, take a deep breath to say something for myself.
"I'll been never crying again because of him. I have to move on now." As wiping away my tears after say that words.
I looked some notifs on my facegram. It has fifty-thousand likes and reactions with ten-thousand comments. The reason I feel much better so I can sleep calmly tonight.
I woke up because my phone is ringing and noticed that Ginger calling. I immediately took it in the desktable and answered her.
"Hello." My pessismistic response.
"Hey, why your voice is like that?" I sighed as the answer to the question.
"Hey, Bez. Is there any problem?" A few seconds that I'm not responding. "Hello!" Ginger mentioned. "Are you still there, Bez?"
It went me back to trance when I heard her speaking again. "What happened?"
"Nothing." I lied. "Why did you get called?" I Changing our conversation abruptly.
"Kindly open your facegram." It frowned my head of what she uttered.
"Why?" I asked her while opening a laptop.
"Just open it first." It was only she said and still waiting the gadget to turn on.
What's going on that my best friend is excited to open my facegram account. What non-sense things she will show to me? I briefly entered an email and password to log in.
"Is it opened already?" She asked with a bewildered question until there was bombarded notifications and messages on my facegram.
I saw that live post last night has twenty-million likes and reactions.
"Seriously, you're getting famous Bez. You didn't expect that." I heard Gin with an excitement in her voice.
"However that song seems refer to something." I ignored it. "You're going to follow Sarah G's footsteps someday."
"It's impossible though. She is professional and an excellent singer compare to mine. I'm just dolizing her you know."
"You're still, uh. But if you will read all the comments here, you see there a full of nice compliments." I can say that this is really my best friend. No one change her.
It's a serious conversations so I roamed my eyes around the room.
"Can I ask if that song you sang  last night is for him?" I sighed as answering her.
"Awful. I've heard you before that your breathing deeply. What's the matter?"
I thought my conversation with Gin would never end like this because we already focused on the music cover I did last night.
"Hmm, because..." My words twisted on my mouth. It anxiously erroded me. "There is..."
"Tell me. I'm not going to be comfortable now with your expression."
I closed my eyes again that wouldn't have the courage to tell her the truth. Here I am again that will keep trying to speak slowly.
"Greige is now engaged to another woman." It turned into silence after what I said. There are a few moments have passed before Gin speak again.
"Since when?"
"Yesterday." My short reply.
"This is what I'm saying. What are you going to do now? Don't say ...."
"I don't have an idea, Gin."
"If I were your position, you have to move on with him. There's nothing a sense anymore about what you're feeling. I don't know why you still love that guy behind everything happened."
Even myself I don’t know the answer, why. I only suffered for this love. I'm really weak person.
"You know that you're not deserving this a woman like you but more deserving to be someone who will take care of you. It is only Zen. Why don't you just choose him. He loves you very much, Bez.
I try to do my best but I still fall into this situation. I really want to forget but the destiny seems to be giving us the opportunity to meet again.  Instead I  forgetting him, I still ended here. Everywhere I'll go, he is there. No matter how hard I try to move away he approaching me that make me saddest.
After we have talked of my bestfriend, I thought to eat breakfast before proceeding to the garden for simply entertaining myself in a temporary.
As the days went by, it feels better than before which able to focus rather, especially in work. Gardening is a probably a great help for me.
I will tell to Mom and Dad about the company except about termination of it's contract. I'm still looking for the right time to say that to them. I needed more courage and energy.
On Sunday, I went to the church with the maids as I invited them and there, I meet one of my relatives.
I went upstairs when arrived home to change my clothes. A few minutes, a maid is knocking in my door suddenly.
"Come in." As my respond to her.
"Ma'am Thaea, you have a visitor." said Ate Daisy?
"Who is it?" Asking as combing my hair just to unravel it.
"It's Mr. Handsome. He's waiting for you right now in the living room." She said flattering. "Alright, I have to leave now Ma'am."
I just nodded in response and not inquiring her anymore. I sat on the bed for a while to think about my new male visitor. Out of curiosity, I closed the room first and walked downstairs. It surprised me when I saw him staring to my outfit and smiling.
"Troezen?"