Gold's POV
"You are not being serious with this, are you?" Chase asked and I just wiggled my eyebrows. I am too busy admiring the soft fabric in front of me.
I am imagining her reaction and I was kinda hoping it's how I am picturing it.
"Stop trying to reason out with him. He already got everything taken care of. Even our boss wasn't able to shake off that lovestruck kid's decision," I heard Mono stated and I just smirked.
Not even our boss can stop me this time.
In the past years, the public had been eyeing both me and Synn. A lot of people had assumed that we were in a relationship. After all, there were times when I deliberately sneaked into their concerts, of course, with one of the boys with me.
Both our company never really released any statement. They let us decide.
Our relationship had been a roller coaster ride. We fought, broke up, made up, then fought again. It's a cycle like how any other relationship is. But what I am so thankful for is that all those faults, those misunderstanding, made our relationship stronger.
My brothers had been my source of strength. They kept my feet on the ground and like what I said in the past, I may have been a manifestation of all their personalities put together.
But then Synn came.
I thought everything was perfect. Yes, Steffy had made an impact on my life. I loved the girl even after all that had happened, I won't deny that. But I was kinda thankful because if she hadn't broken me, I probably wouldn't have this kind of relationship with Synn.
With her, I get to realize how after everything I've been through, I wasn't even half to where the road to the end of maturity is.
I was fucking immature. I overthink. I go overboard and don't think of what others would feel. I can still remember how the boys had lectured me about my crazy double standard remark. I felt so little I apologized to Synn.
I am a work in progress and Synn is the same. There were times that we had to sit in front of each other and tell our worries and fears. Our relationship isn't perfect. I get really jealous over the guys who, for some reason, are able to still get her number. I had hit Alex on multiple occasions because of that. And Synn gets really childish sometimes too.
"Did you reach out to her team about that? And Synn, does she know?" Eros raised his eyebrow.
A small pout came out of my lips.
"You're just jealous I used your favorite color for this," I banter and he smirked.
"I look good on whatever I wear. Shut up kiddo,"
We both chuckle when he stuck his tongue out and made a face.
"But seriously Gold, that's a very huge decision and a big risk too. I know we've discussed this as a group a lot of times but we wanna know, are you seriously ready for the consequences of this action?" Mono asked and I saw how all of my members were looking at my direction.
We were sat on the couch as we wait for the start of the awards show.
Right, I'm pulling this shit on the biggest awards show of the year, MAMA.
I know what they were worried about. There are times when we get pretty upset whenever there is bad news about us especially since we know a few of our fans will be so sad but we've come across ways on how not to mind them. We've worked our asses to be where we are right now and we have loyal fans. However, I know what I am about to do can do some damage to both of our teams.
But I'm ready. I know my brothers aren't afraid of the consequences or the public's reaction. They were simply concerned for my wellbeing and for Synn's, how this will emotionally and mentally affect both of us.
"I got this," I tried cheering them up and that's when one of the managers stated that we have to be ready for the show.
After the red carpet and a few interviews, we were already enjoying our fellow idol's performances.
I felt a hand on my knees, stopping them from shaking, my eyes immediately darting towards my right.
"Hey," I frowned. We were already on our designated locations were other idols were also seated.
My knees were shaking but it wasn't because of performing. Of course, I still get nervous because of that but my emotions are more of due to excitement and the adrenaline rush inside me. Plus, the fact that Synn and her members were seated just two tables away from us.
My members were so annoying. They strategically sit to where I can see her so I was forced to sit on a place where my back was facing Synn.
Then there they were, greeted by the loud cheering of the crowd.
ROY4L is now a name to be reckoned with. The girls didn't simply build a wall of success, they built an empire. How many have they and my group broken records of each other? Though it's quite saddening to see a few of our fans fighting, we always congratulate each other.
I heard Raze laughing when Synn suddenly twerked.
As much as I would like to admit it, her being so fucking hot and having so many admirers still gets me. I'm jealous, I admit.
And when she did her rap part, I had to stop myself from standing and jam real hard.
Calm down Gold.
I was clapping so hard when they finished and that's when a staff came towards our direction and told us to prepare.
Showtime.
"Tss," I heard Zero scoffed when I was wearing my shirt.
"Don't disappoint me, kid," he tapped my shoulder and I chuckle. Way to calm my nerves.
I put on my jacket and let our makeup artist do a retouch.
My hand reached for my chest.
If I'm gonna do this, I gotta do it with me looking like someone she can be proud of.
Watch me, cupcake.