Synn's POV
"Synn, here..." I reached for the blanket that Arika had given me. A small smile escaped my lips and the girl just really had to wink at me. I bet a few fansite had probably taken a video and soon, I'd see a few clips on Instagram about it. That's just how Arika is. She loves showing affection towards us and our fans go crazy for it. Who wouldn't though? Arika is just so adorable.
"Synn, did you hear the cheers for your name earlier when you sent that kiss? And you twerked. I saw that on the screen. You little shit," Snow teased and I smiled timidly. Our performance just ended and I actually still feel so pumped up.
I can still hear the roaring of the crowd, their cheers when they shout our names. I've always told myself to get used to it but I just can't. Every other performance felt so different. It just gets better and better and I still can't believe I was lucky to be living the dream.
Our eyes were then focused on the next performer. Red Flavor was up next and we were clapping. We were friends with them and I just can't stop myself cheering.
We were dancing along with their music and were singing along.
Just when their performance ended, Elisse started teasing us. "Your guys are up next. Please refrain yourselves from cheering too obvious. I know you love them but calm your tits ladies,"
Our jaw dropped at what she told us and since we were cramped a little closer to her, we all knew she told those while ensuring no one can read the way her lips moved.
"Yah!" Snow hissed and we all laughed.
"Elisse, your mouth gets dirtier and dirtier as days pass," Arika smirked and Elisse's smile started to fade then form into a cute little pout.
Our eyes were then focused on the screen before us. It hasn't even started but the crowd were now cheering with just the VCR - their power.
As much as I can, I tried not to show too much reaction whenever I see Gold on the screen despite the loud beating of my heart. The past months had been very fruitful for both of us. Our relationship isn't purely rainbows and butterflies but I can say I can never wish for anything else but be with him.
Gold and I's relationship had taught me a lot. It made me see my imperfections and helped me grow. I still have a lot more to learn in life but I feel like, a part of me had changed because of him.
We both know what our priorities are. Though we love each other dearly, we try to talk things through and remind ourselves that the world doesn't just revolve between the two of us. We still have so much to achieve and learn.
About revealing our relationship and going public, we've talked about it several times and even our management had given us a go signal. We just haven't thought about when to actually do it.
We stopped being careful about revealing it and there are multiple occasions that fans and the media had thought about the possibility of us being together. Who wouldn't when he and his members would often sneak into one of our concerts and such. Those rebels.
Anyways, I'm not too worked up in revealing us anyways. There are moments when I get jealous when I see articles about him possibly dating another girl but this is just me being stupid. I've given my full trust to Gold. Sure we had a rough start and had an issue with his past girlfriend but that's just about it.
I'm just so fucking glad I went to the fire exit that day.
The VCR ended and the cheers got even louder. A smile slowly creeps its way on my lips.
Cupcake, annihilate the stage, baby. I silently cheered.
We were seated in a place where I can clearly see them perform and when he went out, I had to stop myself from reacting because my man looks so goddamn breathtaking.
When was he not though?
Thankfully, it wouldn't look so bad if we dance along with their song since a lot of idols do the same. We just have to be careful not to show too much or fans would be fast enough to say something. Not that I'm scared but sometimes, it's just so hard to decide what to do or not to do when the whole world seems to follow our every move.
"What did he ate to go crazy like that?"
I was a little distracted when I heard Arika. Her eyes were wide so my brows furrowed. I followed her line of sight and almost choke when I saw Gold going wild on stage. He was standing close to where we are and indeed, he was having fun and giving his all.
They were not doing their choreography for the song and has settled into moving freely so all the members were scattered around the big stage.
And then it happened, our eyes met and as much as I like to look away, something tells me I shouldn't. So I didn't, despite the fact that it probably lasted more than five seconds which is quite long in the eyes of few.
He turned around and went so hard on a dance move so I gulped. But it didn't stop there.
He faced my direction, eyes focused on me. My cheeks blushed and I heard Elisse squealing.
My eyes widened after what Gold did next.
He winked.
He fucking winked.
At me.
In front of these idols.
In front of the fucking crowd.
In front of the whole world.
And after he did. He turned around as the music changes. Boy with Love started and they get in their formation.
The girls immediately glanced at my direction, eyes-wide and questioning.
I gulped. I noticed a few eyes from many idols glancing at us too.
"What the heck?" Arika exclaimed and I felt my heart going crazy. My hand reached for my cheek as I felt it burning.
"He just winked at you in front of everyone. He must have gone crazy," Snow added and I was just out of focus the entire time.
My eyes went back to Gold and I wasn't sure what to think. He was dancing and smiling like he didn't do something peculiar earlier.
I knew their choreography for Boy with Love since I've seen it multiple times but surprisingly, the went freestyle at the final verse of the song and like earlier, Gold glanced at my direction.
What the hell is he doing?
Our eyes met and it was as if the whole world stopped.
My eyes started picturing the very first time we had an encounter on the fire exit, how he was being scary, how I realized how sad he was and how much he was in pain.
Visions of us getting closer as I try to save him from his pain, up to where we fell in love, hurt each other, and learn from all the pain.
Everything... I saw all of 'us' flashing before me.
Gold Simons, he'd occupied a huge space in my heart and played an important role in my life.
Gold...
As if what he did earlier wasn't enough damage to both of us after, he smiled at me once again before heading back to his members so they can do the final pose.
I watch him sing and dance. And just when he was walking backward, he was removing his jacket.
I saw Eros giving another one. It looks a little like the same jacket we had exchanged the first time but with a few shades of purple scattered on it.
He glanced back to my direction while wearing his new jacket and I wasn't sure what's happening but my emotions were all over the place.
His beautiful voice echoed the whole place and unlike their usual routine, he turned his back later than everyone else.
"than a boy with love..." he sang.
And my jaw almost dropped on the floor when he turned around.
"Holy-"
"Shit," Elisse finishes what Arika has started.
With their ending hand signal, he turned his head towards my direction and smiled.
By this time, my heart already jumped out of my chest.
I didn't he'd do something like this for us.
He gave the world an answer.
He gave 'us' an answer.
Him doing this means a lot. For me, it means he's ready to fight for us. That he's mine and he's fucking proud.
A smile spread widely on my face. I didn't care about my members shaking me like crazy.
Fans were screaming, everyone was going wild.
Their performance ended and I didn't care about the fact that even the ONE's members were squealing while looking at my direction, or the fact that a few fans close to us were screaming my name and his.
The boys were already bidding goodbye and thanking their fans, Gold was doing the same.
"I love you..." he screamed and I knew, my heart knew.
"I love you too..." I whispered.
I love you too, Gold. He didn't have to do what he just did but I felt so important. He wasn't afraid to tell the world how much he loves me, despite the possible fallback we may both receive. We all know how some fans are crazy possessive but I was kinda hoping that their love for us is more than enough for them to accept what will make us happy.
We will think about the future but right now, we'll simply enjoy the memories we can enjoy together.
Gold Simons, he's mine. He just told the world that he's off-limits, that his heart was already owned by someone.
Because like what the back of his jacket says, he's already...
SYNNCINATI's...