Luna's POV
"You're lucky to have a friend like him." I muttered as I sat on the ground.
It has been two days and I decided to go back to the columbarium where the ashes of Devon's best friend lie.
"It has been two years but he still can't forget about you." I smiled.
After my drama over the rain, I sent a message to Jiro once I got home informing him that I was already fine. of course, I did not tell him that I walked two hours in the rain because I don't want him to flip over me and scold me like a nagger that he is.
I covered my mouth as I cough.
"Stupid cold," I whispered.
"Who are you?"
My body flinches a little after I heard someone spoke behind me. Not long after, I am facing to a lovely woman, most probably in her early forties, smiling at me.
"Good afternoon." I bowed as I greeted her.
"Do you know my daughter?" She smiled as she moves forward, putting in the basket of flower that she's carrying.
I shook my head in response.
"Oh, then why are you here?" she looked at me confused as she sat beside me.
"I was just visiting her. Ahmm-" I'm not sure if it's okay to tell that I knew Devon, afraid that she may be mad at him.
"Do you happen to know Devon?" she suddenly said and I stared at her startled.
She was still smiling so I just nodded.
Her face was so inviting; I can't help but be truthful to her.
"Where is that young man? I have been waiting for him for ages," she said as she chuckled.
My eyes looked at her confused.
"Aren't you mad at Devon?"
She looked at me, her eyebrows raised.
"No. I love that kid. Plus, I know my daughter loved him so much that I was thinking how she have loved him more than just a friend even though they have broken up."
My heart started beating rapidly.
Of course, Devon loves her back. He won't be affected like this if he doesn't.
"I was sorry for Devon. I knew he was a devastated as much as we do and it hurts us that he had blamed himself for what happened." she looked at me and I can't help but cry after realizing that she was already crying as well.
"Lily never blamed him. I mean, it wasn't her intention but I guess it was her way of letting Devon go. But then I think what she did make a huge impact on Devon's life. I heard Devon stopped from singing." she said as tears continuously flow down her cheeks.
My chest tightens at the sight of her and my hands automatically reached out as I grab her hands.
"Lily, my daughter. she loved Devon. She knew Devon was having a hard time because of her that's why she said those words so he would leave." her hands landed on her chest and I moved towards her and rubbed her back.
"But Devon never left." she smiled while crying.
Somehow, the fact that Devon did all those makes my chest tighten as well.
He loves her.
My throat started to hurt.
He never left Lily but he did with me.
That fucking hurts.
I know it's stupid to get envy with someone who's already dead but that's the problem. You can never compete with someone who's no longer here.
And my heart ached real hard with that thought.
She looked at me and smiled.
"Is Devon alright?" she asked.
I smiled back. I don't know why but I feel like I should do this to make her feel at ease.
"He wasn't but he's getting better. He was finally here the other day. And I think he's starting to gather himself back together." I told her.
And then she released my grip on her hands and took her bag.
She then pulled out a pink envelope inside and gave it to me.
"Here. Take this," she said. "Lily wrote this letter before she died. We've read the letter thinking that it was for us but it turns out it was for Devon. We tried to give this to him but he was gone and we can't take a hold of him."
My eyes landed on the letter in my hands.
"I hope he gets better once he reads this. And please tell him I'd like to see him soon." she smiled as she hugs me.
Before I knew it, I was again left all alone.
A smile tugged at the corner of my lips as tears still flow like a stream on my face.
"At least Devon's mind can finally be at peace." I muttered as I wipe my tears away.
"Oh fuck, I look like some lunatic laughing all alone." I told myself.
Once I fixed myself, I decided to head down to Haven Heals and give this letter to Devon.
He needs to see this and to be honest, I wanted to see him badly as well.
My eyes scanned the front of the building as I stare before the very same building where Devon's dream all started.
I pulled out my phone and sent him a message.
"I'm outside. Please go out. I need to give you something. This is important." A sigh escaped my lips as I decided to type another message realizing that Devon might not go see me. "This is about Lily."
I stood just outside the door while the guard was looking at me weirdly.
He must have thought that I was a fan or something. He was about to go near me when I saw Devon running.
Yeah, he'll run for her but he won't for me.
"Devon..." I whispered and I heard my heart shattering into pieces.
That feeling of wanting to hug him so badly but you can't because you no longer have the right to do so? I finally knew that feeling, just now. And it fucking hurts. It hurts that I am questioning self if it is still normal for me to be able to face him despite my heart almost not functioning.
I tried to smile as he walked towards me. "I just want to give this to you." I told him as I reach for his hand.
Shit. Just merely touching his hands makes my knees go weak.
"Lily's mom gave this to me. And she said she wanted to see you so come visit her." I cheerfully stated trying to mask the pain that is killing me inside.
"Luna..." his voice cracked as he tried to reach for me but I quickly took a step backward.
"Don't." I whispered.
Please don't make it harder for the both of us.
He was about to step forward when someone coughed from behind.
"Devon, why are you here?" he raised his eyebrows while looking at me.
I bowed at him immediately.
"Good afternoon. I'm Jiro's cousin. I just gave something to Devon but I'm about to leave."
I bowed once again before turning my back on him not even sparing him a glance.
"Luna!!!" I heard him called my name but I didn't look back.
I don't have to look back.