Haiden's POV
"Sorry but I need a drink first. you can't expect me guys to just barge inside looking all sober like this," I almost scream in panic as the boys tried to pull me inside the unit, the sound of the music blasting inside ringing in my ears.
Did they leave the music on?
"What nonsense? You need to do this, plus, this is the woman you're obviously head over heels with, or at least talk with each other. Confess, settle things out or something," Rome said as he tries to push me once again.
The seven of us just arrived at the unit we were staying and we can't come in. Or I can't come in.
I didn't know what made me but the moment I said those words, there's no turning back.
When Jake answered Rosie's call, we were about to go home. Imagine our shock when we realized that Rosie didn’t noticed that Jake had already answered. And Jake, being a good younger member, decided to share what he was listening to putting the call in speaker.
"You were teasing me last time!" my heart fluttered at the sound of her voice. The image of her confessing to me earlier came into mind.
She was so beautiful and hearing those words coming out of her lips was heaven, I wasn't even able to respond. And just when I was about to, one of our managers came in and took me since we will be late for the awards show.
I wish I was able to respond. Her cheeks were blushing and I felt bad for leaving her hanging.
"Who was staring at the goddamn ass Lisa? It's not my fault you can't control your thirst babe,"
I almost choke when I heard what Jessie said. Lisa was staring at my butt?
"Yo Lisa, go get that booty," Rosie screamed and Jake was laughing over his girlfriend's words.
"Let's just go celebrate ahead of the boys. Let's celebrate for them and their fans. They work hard for it," It was Samantha and we all smiled as we remember the awards were bringing home. Our fans are really amazing.
"To Lisa's hormones!"
"And to our Haiden that she gets laid soon!"
"Fuck off ro. And please tone it down when you and Kook's doing it. I swear you sounded like he's banging your ears or something," I heard Lisa complaining and Jake just shrugged his shoulders.
"Dude, I agree with her" Jason scoffed.
"At least we do it in private, unlike someone out there who's making out on an unlocked room,"
"That was one time, and I was drunk, okay?"
I heard Josh hyung groaning at what Samantha had said.
"Be thankful it was Vash who entered the room and not Jake. Imagine his shock if he sees his older sister banging someone," Jessie added.
"I am not thankful for that!" Vash hissed and Josh just hit him on the shoulder.
"You're not one to talk Jessie. We all know Yohan added a double lock and made his studio soundproof because you guys bang each other almost every day. No wonder the guy always lack sleep," Samantha whined. "And tell him to stop asking me where you are if he can't reach you. Ge'ez, why am I best friend with him?"
"You, sneaky brat," Lisa exclaimed.
"Tsk, as if you're not dreaming on doing it with Haiden," Jessie bantered back and the boys were pushing me in tease.
"Yes Lis, where did you and Haiden went earlier? Did you two had some five-minute sex or something?"
"Right, did you?" Josh hyung asked and I just waved my hands at them.
And just when Rosie realized that we heard everything, I ended up being in a whole lot of mess.
I just asked Lisa to wait for me in my room, after I heard them talking about sex.
And now, here I am, chickening out.
Not that I don't want to do it with her, I swear to God I do. I fucking do. But even just her smile makes my knees go weak. How am I supposed to stay with her in my room like this?
Before I can even mutter another protest, the door sprung open and a drunk Jessie came into view.
"Woah!" Yohan hyung muttered as Jessie pulled him for a kiss.
"Holy shit!" Rome exclaimed ad our jaw dropped on the floor at the sight of our dorm.
Pillows are scattered everywhere, bottles of liquor on the table, some chips on the floor, a giggling Rosie and Samantha were hugging each other on the bean bag while Lisa was at the top of the table dancing.
They were dead drunk.
"Oh God, how much did they drink?" Jake asked in awe.
My eyes bulged at the sight of Lisa. And I almost stopped breathing when I realized that she was wearing my shirt.
The moment she caught eyes of me, she started jumping dangerously which made my heart almost leap out of my chest.
In a flash, I run towards her and guide her down.
"Oppa!!!!" she giggled as she cupped my cheeks, my arms wrapped around her waist. Beads of sweat started forming on my forehead at the sight of her.
"Li-Lisa..." I whispered.
A huge yet seductive smile spread across her face and I swear I can faint any moment.
As if her actions weren't enough, she had to drop another bomb on my face.
"You look hot oppa," she stated before grabbing my hands as she pull me towards my room.
Once we're inside, the blood on my face drained at what she said next.
She leaned closer until our face are so close with each other, "By the way," I watch as she started playing with the hem the shirt she is wearing, "I'm not wearing any bra..."
She smiled at me then turn her back and I watch as she sexily walks towards my bed.
"Fuck," I whispered.
And then she turned around, she raised her hand as she urges for me to follow.
Fuck.
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Lisa's POV
"Shit," I whispered, my body frozen in place as I dare not to move. I felt something heavy resting on my waist.
Shit. Shit. Shit.
"Lisa, you really are stupid," I scolded myself. The memory of what happened last night repeating before me.
I remember getting drunk and all but my memory isn't clear uo to when we all started dancing and singing on their dorm.
Jessie thought it will be better for us to stay in their dorm so we transferred but ended up getting even more wasted.
I groan internally at the sight of Haiden. He was sleeping peacefully beside me, a small smile emerging on his face.
Silently, I tried assessing myself. Aside from my headache, I don't feel anything unusual right now. And I'm still wearing a shirt - his shirt.
How did I end up here? Did I go here? I mean, he told me to wait on his room but no matter how much I try, I don't really have a memory of it.
Did I drink too much?
My eyes scanned the look on his face. He was smiling as if something good had happened to him.
Badump.
Badump.
The loud beating of my heart is ringing in my ears.
My right hand reached for his face and slowly, I trace every angle, each detail I try to imprint in my mind.
Beautiful...
Jung Haiden, what are you doing to me?
"Aist," Slowly, I removed his hand from my waist. It'll be weird he wakes up with me beside him.
But just right after I lifted his hand, he started moving and my breath hitch when he suddenly moved and pulled me closer, my face now almost buried on his chest.
I gulped.
He's not wearing any shirt.
"Hmmmm..." the hairs at the back of my neck stop up at the sound of him moaning.
Good Lord. How am I supposed to leave?
"Good morning," I heard him whisper and my eyes widened when I saw him open his eyes and locking with mine.
I started coughing when he suddenly smiled.
"Is your head okay? You were so drunk last night, do you want to get up and grab some hangover soup?" he stated before pulling me even closer, his other hand brushing the hair covering my face.
"Huh?" I asked confused.
Soft chuckles escaped his lips. He seemed to be enjoying the confusion I'm currently into.
"You're so adorable hunn," he whispered and my body stiffened as he moved closer, my eyes automatically closes, my hands balling into a fist.
Oh my God...
Is he going to kiss me?
I waited but the kiss that I was expecting never came. Instead, I felt something soft touching my nose so I opened my eyes and I almost shrieked when I realized that he was bumping nose with mine.
"Your cheeks are red, hunn. Are you getting shy about what you did last night?" he started teasing and I grimaced.
"I really did something huh? Lisa, stupid," I whispered and his laughter echoed inside the room.
He looked at me amused. "You don't remember?"
The moment I nodded, he suddenly overturned our bodies, trapping my legs between his as his hands pinned mine above my head, a loud yelp coming out of my mouth.
"What are you doing?" beads of sweat started to form on my forehead, nervousness seeping through my body.
"You don't remember doing this to me last night?" he smirked and my eyes almost popped out of my socket.
"I did?" I asked exasperated and I grimaced when he nodded.
"And this," my stomach churned the moment I felt his lips lightly touching a sensitive part of my skin just right below my ear.
My eyes automatically closing when I felt him leave trails of kisses even marking me a little.
"Oh shit," Before I even knew it, a moan escaped my lips, my core tightening at the emotion he was suddenly making me feel.
"You were so naughty last night," he murmured in between kisses and I squirmed underneath him.
"O - oppa..." I stuttered and I felt him sucking my skin a little, my body arching unable to handle the tension building up on my body.
"You.... I was trying to hold back because your drunk but it was so hard. But it's even harder because of what you did next,"
He stopped kissing my neck and pulled away a little.
Did I do something more shocking than this?
"You fell asleep while on top of me Lisa," he smirked and I felt his hand loosening its grip over mine. And when he did, my hands automatically covered my face.
It was so embarrassing.
"But you were still adorable baby," he cooed and I felt him lay down beside me pulling me back to his chest.
"I'm so sorry, I was so drunk..." I apologize before trying to stand up but he just pulled me back.
"Where do you think you are going? We still need to cuddle," he stated and I felt him getting my other hand as he put it on his waist, my mouth hanging wide open at his gesture.
"Let's date Lisa," his eyes were locked into mine and I suddenly felt like I was floating on a cloud nine.
"What did you just say?" maybe I heard it wrong,"
"I said let's date, officially. Be my girlfriend, be mine," he stated, his voice soft and I felt like he said it lovingly.
It sounded surreal. But Haiden is literally an angel, him sounding like one isn't impossible.
Did he just ask me to be his girlfriend?
"Why?" I covered my mouth when I realized that my thought just slipped out of my mind. But then he just smiled.
"Because I like you and because I like you to be mine only - your attention, your love, your smile. I like them all to just be mine. Can't I do that?"
My heart melted at his words.
"I want to be able to kiss you, hug you and call you my girlfriend in front of everyone. I want them to know you're off limits and the closest that they can get is to admire you from afar. I can do those right?"
A chuckle escaped my lips at what he said.
"What do you mean? Nobody pays attention to me anyways,"
His eyes widened at my words. It was if he was about to say a lot of things but decided otherwise.
And I almost laugh when I saw him pouted. So I did what I was dying to do ever since.
I moved forward and gave him a quick peck on the lips. His lips parted in shock and I wish I had a camera with me so I can get his reaction.
"Okay," I answered.
"Okay what?" he asked confused.
"I will be your girlfriend. I will be yours and Jung Haiden will be mine. Is that good enough?"
A huge smile stretched on his face and I giggle when he started doing waves with his body even though he's hugging me.
He was so happy and so am I.
I have been dying to be his girlfriend, and now that I am, I don't have anything to ask for.
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Haiden's POV
"Yah, stop grinning like that, you idiot," I smack Jason's shoulder as I see him staring at my girlfriend rather, too intently - Lisa, dancing in the middle, oblivious about the fact that almost every eye of the trainees and back up dancers are following her every move.
Jason hissed and looked at me incredulously.
"Really? You're going to be like that? What are you going to do if she ended up being an idol, huh?" he exclaimed as he massages the part that I hit, Josh hyung laughing over Jason's words.
We were on the side and resting as Lisa continuously watch over the dancers and teach the choreography for our next performance.
She was wearing a pair of black shorts and my loose black shirt which I didn't know is that beautiful or was it because she was the one wearing it?
"Well, that can't be helped. I mean, whoever sees her right now will think that she is," I mumbled, my chest suddenly tightening.
I wasn't the jealous type nor am I a boyfriend who'll get mad if I see her wearing something revealing. But then, seeing them look at her like that feels like something inside me is flickering, like a fire burning deep inside.
Am I afraid to lose her?
Probably.
Scratch that - I am.
Even to our fans, I always feel like I was the least on their favorite. I mean, I wasn't offended but sometimes, it hurts me too especially when I am on a v-live celebrating something but they end up telling me things like stopping the things that I usually do.
Someone told me to stop making sound effects once and I said okay because I thought it annoys them. But then it's not something I can easily stop.
There are times that they look for the other boys too.
I am just so glad there are some who makes me feel that I am loved.
But Lisa, I don't think I will be okay losing her.
My heart skipped a beat when I heard her laughter, the joyous sound filling my ears making my insides melt in happiness.
"You like her that much?" I was startled when I heard Yohan hyung's voice, his arms crossed over his chest and my eyes followed his line of sight - Jessie.
The dancers were on a break and as usual, the girls were chatting.
Lately, the girls tend to stay with each other rather than us, their boyfriends and it's fine as long I have her attention afterwards - our me time.
It hasn't been a month and only the boys and her friends know. I haven't told about her to our managers but I will. It's not that we're hiding our relationship anyways. Dating bans have been lifted off our contracts a few years ago and in all honestly, it's not like we have dating bans at all. We never dated that much, busy schedules and complicated life.
I bite my lower lip when I heard her beautiful laughter once again. If this continues, my heart would go weak any moment.
"Yeah, you like her that much," I was caught off-guard at what Yohan hyung muttered. i totally forgot that he was asking me a question.
"Is it that obvious?" I scratch the back of my head as I continuously stared at her. It was as if I don't want her to leave my sight.
"Well yeah, I mean, everything about you is transparent and you look at her like she's some precious gem and all. If you keep on doing that, I'm going to get into trouble with Jessie," he chuckled and I pouted.
"I wasn't overdoing it," I whined and he just raised his eyebrow.
"You weren't but it was so obvious how you always look so worried whenever she's not beside you. You even get jealous at your members admiring her dancing. But the saddest thing is, you don't show her," he looked at me amused and I grimaced.
My eyes focused back on her and realized that she was already looking at our direction, her smile directed at me.
In all honesty, I'm still struggling is showing my affection towards her. Deep inside, I'm still scared that she'll change her mind and I'll lose her.
My fears, they are restricting me. And I feel like I'm starting to hit rock-bottom. I want to show her how I feel but whenever I try to, something inside me is pulling me back. I'm not sure if it was because I have been used to being that.
Lately, the boys tell me not to keep my pains to myself and they openly tell those on interview. I'm afraid the fans would worry actually but I knew they were saying those things because they mean it.
"Isn't it enough that I she knows what I feel about her?" I asked and Yohan hyung looked at me worriedly.
He turned his body until he was facing me, his eyes catching the boys which I knew were silently listening on the side.
"You shouldn't be restricting yourself like that Haiden. Tell her how you fell. Show her. She may be patient with you but you got to do it one way or another," he told me and I was startled when I felt a pair of arms snaked around my waist, an all too familiar scent filling in my ears.
"Babe..." her voice rasp maybe due to the dryness of her throat, I had to remind myself it wasn't good even though it sounded too sexy to my ears.
"Lisa..." my cheeks blushed when I realized how her face is now buried on my chest, the boys teasing us along the process.
My eyes scanned the room and realized how the trainees and backup dancers are looking at us in shock.
My body stiffened a little, surprised by her sudden action.
"Those dancers kept on asking for my number and wouldn't believe I'm taken so I thought about showing them who owns me," she pouted lifting her face so our eyes would lock with each other.
"What?" I exclaimed, what she just said slowly sinking in. Before I knew it, my arms automatically wrapping around her body securely pulling her even closer, but not before I saw a smirk showing on her face.
"I'd like to see them try," my voice getting stern in a minute. The next thing I knew was me kissing the top of his head and her scooting in a little more.
The expression on my face automatically changing.
Lisa, she's mine.
My eyes scanned the room and made sure everybody sees.
Nobody touches my girl.
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Lisa's POV
"Have you seen Haiden?"
Jason raised his head as he stretches his legs while on the floor. He was warming up perhaps to practice.
They were supposed to rest but Jason wanted to do some stretching and all.
"Ahm, not sure? He may be on the other practice room," he mumbled before focusing his attention back to what he was doing.
"He isn't there," I told him and he raised his eyebrow.
"Maybe he was with the others,"
"Okay, let me check," I told him even though I already knew the answer. I don't wanna worry Jason too.
Jake was with Rosie doing God knows while Jessie and Yohan was there on the studio writing songs together.
Samantha unnie went out on a date with Josh oppa and Vash was eating on the cafeteria.
Rome is busy writing on his studio and Haiden is nowhere to be found.
It was last night when we last talk and he was sounding very irritated about something.
It's been months since we started being on a relationship and all I can say is that Haiden was a total sweetheart.
It's not like that at first but when he started, he had been very open in showing his affection towards me even though there were some other members around or even the trainees or dancers.
They were on a vacation after their comeback has just ended and recently, I started to notice how he was acting differently. Not me because he's the same whenever we are together but I can't exactly point out what it is.
He had been camping on his studio for weeks but he wasn't there today.
Two days ago, I realized that he was getting frustrated because the melodies he's working on doesn't seem to work more satisfy him and it's starting to annoy him.
I would have told him that it's okay but I don't want to stress him further.
Now, it has been three hours since I was trying to contact him but I realized that he left his phone in the studio.
I was walking in the hallway when I saw their producer, Donnie.
"Oppa! Did you see Haiden?" I asked and he look at me confused.
"He went out earlier saying about finding to you. He said he must have snapped at you last night and can't really focus so he went home," he answered and my mouth went wide open.
Was he on my room?
I was camping at their dorm and didn't even bother going over mine before coming in here.
After thanking him, I went straight to Jessie's unit.
A smile escaped on my lips.
He didn't exactly snap at me over the phone. He just sounded a little annoyed which I can understand since he hasn’t been sleeping a lot lately.
"My baby..." I whispered to myself as I slowly opened the door of my room, his form automatically greeting me as he lay on my bed, eyes closed, sleeping soundly like a beautiful creature that he is.
Slowly, I moved forward as I stare at his beautiful face.
Sometimes, I wonder how I got so lucky for having him.
He is so selfless. Never once did I see him doing things for his own but for his brothers first. He was never greedy.
He was just that: the sunshine everybody knows.
But even I know that there are things hidden behind those smiles.
Every pain, every insecurity, every sorrow he felt were all buried behind those smile.
Carefully, I sat on my bed and pull the blanket to cover him.
He must have been so exhausted that he fell asleep while waiting for me.
My hand reached for the locks of his hair as I slowly brush them.
"I love you..." I whispered.
Jung Haiden the way I see it, he was slowly sinking, the heavy feeling he was trying to hide, all the burdens he was trying to carry on his own, he was slowly drowning and I can't allow that.
I leaned a little and gave him a soft kiss on his forehead.
Just doing that makes my heart flutter.
"You've pulled me out from the rock-bottom, now it's time I pull you back, baby. Let me save you this time," I whispered to myself.
With that in thought, I slowly moved and lay beside him my arms automatically reaching for his body, pulling closer.
He must have felt my presence as he opened his eyes a little, a smile automatically showing when he saw me.
In instinct, he moved closer and wrapped his arms around me instead, even kissing me quickly on the lips.
"I'm sorry, Lisa," he whispered and I knew he wanted to say a lot more things.
I know, baby.
I watch as his eyes slowly drift him back to his slumber and I can't help but admire his features.
"Jung Haiden, I love you..." I told him and I closed my eyes the same way he did.
I love you so much, my sunshine.