Their conversation went on for a long time. Brian was silent for a moment as he thought of something that sounded familiar. Hana who saw Brian surprised like that made her feel surprised. Brian then took a sip of the wine in his glass and he still looked like he was thinking about something. Without asking enough Hana then continued to eat and in her mind she was still wondering what happened to Brian as if she felt something strange and seemed curious. All this time he was really interested in Brian but he couldn't express it for various reasons. He was happy to be with her now but it didn't make him feel enough and wanted to know more.
"Did something happen doc?" Hana asked Brian
"There's something I want to confirm."
"Make sure what?"
"Can you help me?" Brian said to Hana with a reassuring look. And he instantly couldn't resist
"Of course. If I can help you I will be flattered," said Hana to Brian with a happy feeling as if she had hope.
"Then let me tell you something."
"Yeah what is it?"
“You know a pianist named Yurian Frances?”
"I know doc. Besides, the name is familiar to me."
'As expected,' Brian thought
“Before I met him for the first time somewhere. At first I thought he was just an ordinary person and when I found out the truth it took me by surprise and what made this really surprising was that he seems to have a personality disorder. So do you remember him? In his medical record, I accidentally investigated it and he was indeed treated at the hospital where you worked before. Do you remember?”
"Right. impossible not to remember. It's just that I can't do anything especially if I interfere it will be difficult for me."
'It turned out to be true.' Brian thought
"That means you've taken care of him? What really happened?"
"Honestly, I don't mean to reveal the patient's privacy, but you need to know that he is experiencing it because of past trauma. I was a nurse there and diagnosing her really surprised me. The trauma that happened in his past and made him unable to get out of the darkness is what happened."
"Past?"
"Right. because he is always obsessed with affection that's why he always makes himself a little narcissistic when the reality is not like that."
"In the medical record there is also a note that he also experienced anxiety."
"That's right. because every time I see him and ask a lot of things to fill in his nursing care he often shows symptoms like that even more so he looks like he is in a state that makes him seem scared but accompanied by paranoia. That's why every time I treat him sometimes I feel afraid and once a psychiatrist treats him himself he shows another side and that is what is listed in the medical record as a syndrome. The disease tends to be difficult to cure.”
As soon as Brian heard Hana's words, he felt sure about the condition Yurian had in the past. But the question was whether he had recovered or not at all and that made Brian feel anxious in no time. Yurian who he had known even though not for years seemed as if he had known him for a long time and it made Brian feel that he had to help him in dealing with this predicament. Everything that makes him curious about something as long as it doesn't interfere with his life, he will do various ways to find a solution to this problem. Brian did have an interest in Yurian which was why he insisted on finding out what had happened to him. He's not really a psychiatrist but he has friends who are in the field and maybe he can help him even if it's just a little.
"So how? what did the psychiatrist over there say is Yurian feeling better?”
"Ah, it's actually like this doctor, at that time his condition was very serious, but because he was undergoing treatment he felt better than before but his family demanded that he quickly return to the music world, that's why he only did therapy for a short time. Her hiatus was due to her mental health condition but they all covered up that fact and only published the news that she was just physically exhausted. I know it's risky to tell the truth that's why I can't bear to see this reality."
"What do you mean? You don't have to feel guilty about not being able to heal him."
"Not like that. I mean not so. I just feel incompetent.”
"I understand."
Hana said that she really regretted her actions even though it wasn't a good thing but she couldn't hold her head up when Brian talked about Yurian. It seemed that he was very hurt because of such a case. Brian just realized something he had forgotten he felt what was wrong in his head and he made himself seem to be in a state of confusion. He seemed to have lost his mind for a moment. Hana who saw Brian suddenly felt strange and she then asked Brian again.
"Doctor. Are you okay? Wait, you look pale?” Hana said to Brian with a slightly worried tone
"Not. It's okay," Brian said to Hana while holding his own forehead
"Then are you drunk? Wait for me to bring hangover medicine. Please drink to feel better.
"Thank you Hana," Brian said as he drank the medicine
"Yes. I both feel that you should go home immediately, so how about I call a taxi so you can come back and rest.”
"No need. Thanks very much. Oh yeah, there's one more thing I wanted to ask."
"Yes, please. You can ask me anything."
“Do you know Yurian's past. Didn't you say he was like that because of his past?”
"Then I didn't hear clearly because he never spoke about his past although I had to know it to make it easier to diagnose. He never said anything I only heard it from the doctor and also his parents.”
"So I mean what's the past? It doesn't matter where you heard it from," Brian said in a heavy tone because he was still under the influence of alcohol
"He was involved in a scandal. If the public finds out it will destroy him and what's worse he could end his life."
"What scandal?"
"Narcotics. That's what I heard because he was depressed by various factors that's why he fell there. That's what I know."
Hearing what Hana said took Brian by surprise in the blink of an eye. He then fell silent in shock and didn't say a word. If it is seen from the medical record data, it is not listed there and only contains psychological data, in other words there is someone who deliberately hides it in order to protect himself. Brian was still guessing about it and he then remembered Yurian's words that he would rather die so he meant it was about everything that happened to him even in the past.
"Then the discussion this time is enough to end here. And then I'll ask you for help."
"Okay. With pleasure doc."
"See you later."
"Okay doc."
Brian then left the restaurant and he then called a taxi to go back to his apartment. Not long after that a taxi came and he got in. When he got into a taxi, not long after that someone called him and it was Yurian. He said something.
"Hello? What's wrong Yuri?" said Brian
"Are you home yet?"
"Not. On the way. What is the problem?"
"Sorry about my aunt she is like that. please don't take it to heart."
"It's not a problem. Are you home now?"
"Not. Today my aunt took me somewhere and we are still here.”
"Oh, I see. Have a good time."
“Brian did you just get drunk? Your voice is like that."
"No. Just a few sips of wine.”
"Oh I see."
"Yes. See you later."
"Okay."
Brian then hung up the phone and now he had arrived in front of the apartment building. He then got out of the taxi and headed to his house through the elevator and finally arrived at his door. He then opened the password to his house and went inside. Brian turned on the light and saw that his house was quite tidy so he immediately lay down on his bed. his head still felt uncomfortable because he drank a lot of wine with a high alcohol content even though he had also taken the antidote for hangovers it didn't have a strong effect. Now he lay holding his head. After a while Brian went to his kitchen to get some water to feel better and went back to his room. He looked at his cellphone which kept ringing because of the group chat notification he and his friends had. Brian ignored his cell phone and he was still lying on the bed pulling his blanket. Until finally he woke up and sat looking at his cellphone again and this time he played an online game to relieve his boredom. Brian does this often and it's like a condition where he's addicted to something. He plays games with other people who are also gamers. He didn't feel like he had played for an hour and sure enough he was getting sleepy so he stopped his game and went to bed even though he hadn't showered yet. The night that made him exhausted with activities that consumed enough energy he then closed his eyes and would walk to dreamland. The ticking of the clock graced his house with a calm that it was like in the silence he lay and was now where he dreamed.
In a different place in a residence belonging to Hana. He casually entered his house and as soon as he saw the pet of a white cat approaching him then he held the cat gently. Not long after he went to put his things and at that time he went to the toilet to clean his face. When she was in the toilet while washing her face she remembered the incident today where she went to eat with Brian made her blush in an instant. After he finished cleaning his face and wiped his face then he went to his room and immediately put on a face mask. Not only that, he also took his cell phone and called his friend who also works at the same place as him and Brian.
"Hello?"
"Yes. Hannah what's wrong?"
"Hey you know today I'm very happy."
"What happened? Until you like that? is there anything good?"
“Earlier when I was in the glass tower, it turned out that doctor Brian was also there. Without thinking I met him and we chatted for a while and you know what happened?”
"Do not know. So what?"
"He took me to dinner."
"What? Seriously? Did I hear wrong? Wow, it looks like I have a problem with my ears."
"Hey this is real. We eat together and drink wine too.”
"Oh yes? Good then. You seem to have made some progress, huh."
"Don't make fun of me. But he doesn't seem to notice."
"Hahaha, I'm so sorry for you."
"But even so he asked for my help you know."
"Is that true? What for?"
"There's something that involved my job back then and that's why I'm helping her it's so nice how she needs me."
"You are crazy. What does he want? Wait, you said your job first? What do you mean mental disorder?”
"You seem sensitive too. It's true there was someone who turned out to be my first patient and Brian's doctor seemed to want to know about the patient. that's why he asked for my help. What do you think?
"Well why are you asking me. It's explained you have to help him anyway that way you can get closer right? Ha ha ha."
“You really are huh. Of course I will help him. Oh yeah, do you think there's anything strange?"
"What's weird?"
"Dr Brian was looking pale as if he couldn't accept the truth."
"Maybe he's drunk. You were drunk at the time, weren't you?"
"That's right."
"Then you don't have to think about things that don't matter. Just remember what you want to do.”
"I know. But there is something that makes me unable to calm down.”
"Especially this time?"
"What do you think my actions have been bad?"
"Hah? What are you talking about?"
"I mean my behavior. Is there anything that makes someone feel uncomfortable and again it's a sight to behold or something?”
"Hey, are you drunk? You talk like this."
"Am I crazy?"
"Oh fuck. Enough. I want to sleep until later.”
Her friend Hana then turned off her phone. Hana who saw her cellphone then opened Yurian's social media. He saw that the person looked fine but he didn't know why he didn't feel happy at all and immediately turned off his cell phone. Hana then lay on her bed and she was still thinking about what Brian had said earlier and it made her overthinking.
The next day at Brian's house. He was still asleep even though the alarm had woken him up and he just ignored it. Not long after the alarm went off for the second time now he turned it off and then woke up with a messy face and messy hair. Brian then yawned and he got out of bed to open the window curtains. As soon as he opened the curtains he looked outside and saw that it had snowed. No wonder he felt cold and almost froze to death. He then went to the kitchen to prepare breakfast. When he opened the fridge he took some vegetables and cooked them into soup. After he finished cooking the soup then he ate it along with the garlic bread. Brian who felt cold he then took his blanket and put it on while playing his food in the living room and he also didn't forget to watch television. This time he saw the news this morning. When he was busy watching the news he realized something that he had to do morning service today. Although he was a little lazy finally after he finished his breakfast he then took a shower and when he was done he got ready to go to work. He had not driven in a long time because his license was withheld due to an incident while still at Baverley he was forced to use public transportation. After he arrived at the stop he looked around and not long after that someone came and sat on a chair at the stop. The person looked at Brian and then he smiled and so did Brian. This time he had to wait a little longer because it was still very early. While waiting for the bus he then reads a book that tells the story of a person's journey in search of a purpose in life. Brian seriously read it and the bus came. Then they immediately entered the bus. Brian who was reading the book had to stop and then he continued again once he had boarded the bus.
"Very cold."
"Yes. And again they say a blizzard makes this road difficult."
"Is it really like that?"
"How about this? We could be late."
"The news of the day warns us that a blizzard is coming."
"What is this."
People were just getting louder because of this morning's news. Brian who was casually sitting reading his own book didn't care about it and only focused on himself. It was true that there would be a blizzard but he didn't care about it and preferred to live his day as usual. Today's weather is according to the news forecast. The morning was already gloomy because of the blizzard. Brian then looked at the window of the bus and outside there were a lot of people who were annoyed because the road was jammed due to the snow in front of the road and blocking it. When several people evacuated the area it made the journey even longer. Brian didn't need to worry because he had already informed the hospital that he might be late because of this condition. They understand and he still looks calm until now while reading the book again. On the bus there were a lot of complaints from them and it made him lose concentration so he immediately put on earphones to feel calm and peaceful.
After 20 minutes of driving, Brian finally arrived at his workplace. He then casually entered the hospital room and followed the shift in service that was taking place at the time. he was a few minutes late and it didn't matter. After he left to continue his work he then saw a high school student who was sitting on a patient queue chair with a gloomy face. Brian then approached him and asked the boy.
"Hey kid, what happened? Why are you so gloomy?” Brian said to the boy gently
"Doctor, am I going to die?"
"Eh? Why ask like that? What is the problem?"
"My parents told me to have surgery today as soon as the X-ray came out they told me to do it right away."
"Then what are you going to do?"
"I don't know what it feels like to run away. But can't. Does the doctor know how to recover without undergoing surgery?”
"When it comes to that, it's very difficult. After all, I'm just a doctor, not an almighty one."
"That is true."
"See you later," Brian said to the boy as he left
Brian then went to his room and as soon as he sat down in his chair suddenly someone knocked on his door and walked in. It turned out that as soon as he entered the room, the person who met him was a schoolgirl whom he had met in the corridor. The child came with his parents and he immediately showed the X-ray results from the hospital that referred him for surgery here. Brian then examined him and sure enough the child did have to undergo surgery to remove his appendix. After Brian saw the contents of the file then he asked the patient several questions.
"You're the student from earlier apparently."
"So the doctor will operate on me?"
"Right. so for now how do you feel?”
“Actually I only had pain in the left side of my stomach and it hurt like I was being stabbed by something. Is that appendicitis?”
"So true. it is a symptom of appendicitis and because based on the results of this x-ray you do have appendicitis which is quite severe and therefore must undergo surgery. How are you ready?”
"Am I going to die?"
"Hey, you can't say that," said his mother
"In that case, it is better to pray for safety."
“It turned out that way.”
"So how? because if you don't do the surgical procedure you will suffer forever so it's your decision, please think carefully."
"Okay. I'm going into surgery."
"Certain?"
"Of course. I don't want to suffer."
"Okay then," Brian said to the boy with a smile. And at that moment the patient left Brian's room and was preparing to undergo surgery this afternoon.
Brian then he conducted an examination of the patient who was in the postoperative room. He saw that the patient was recovering and would return home in the near future. After he finished the examination, he soon found a new schedule for surgery. He then rushed to the changing room and immediately got ready with the equipment he was wearing and headed to the room which turned out to be an operating room. The patient who will undergo the procedure is a student from the previous school. He was then taken to the operating room for a procedure to remove the appendix.