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CHAPTER 15: I LOVE YOU AND GOODBYE
Time flew so fast, 2 years later, Alyn turned to 17. But instead of celebrating her birthday to their home, she was in the hospital for almost 6 months. Doctors can't tolerate her to get discharged because the condition is getting worse and worse. Alyn is breathing with the help of oxygen. Because of this, Mariano decided to find another job for Weekends to double his efforts because hospital bills keep jacking up and Camila will be there in the hospital to keep an eye to Alyn. As for Donny, he was unaware of everything. Alyn told her parents to not tell Donny about it. They just pretended to Donny that they were going out for a long vacation . Donny has nothing to do with it but one thing for certain, he is extremely missing and longing for Alyn's presence, smiles, hugs, laughs, and everything about her. Months feel decades for Donny's side and the same goes for Alyn but she just can't tell what the truth is . Donny started to feel confuse and incomplete of what is going on because he did not receive any messages and updates coming from the family. He is so much worried and because of that, he made his ways to the Police Station and reported everything. His action led him to let the truth come out of its box. He found where exactly Alyn is located. And there! In that specific hospital. It is what it is. He saw nothing and nobody. Alyn's body was moved to another room . He asked the nurses and the doctors but, he did not expect the exact word that clearly came out. She is in the " morgue". Morgue is a place where the bodies of dead persons are kept temporarily. After hearing this, Donny shouted. He said, " This is not the right time to crack jokes Miss!". He cried and his heart is beating in a very quick manner. He stepped forward to the hospital's morgue and there, he saw Alyn's parents crying terribly for the loss of their only child. " No no. This is just a dream. This can't be happening. No, please wake me up. I don't want this. Please wake me up!" Donny said with a shaky voice and tears falling. " Donny, she went to eternal rest already, my daughter" Camila said and hugged Donny so tightly. " Tita, noooo you got to be kidding me. That is not a nice joke. Please tell me that you are joking. That , this is not Alyn." Donny wanted to take the white blanket off, but he can't at the moment. He is not ready to see anything from it. But, when he did the otherwise, he saw entirely Alyn's body and the whole face of her. Pale and breathless." You told me that you will say " yes" when you turn into 18. You promised me that you will stay forever. You said that you will never ever leave me. What did you do? Why?! I don't know what to do now Alyn. You are the only one I have chosen to spend the rest of my life with. I wanted to marry you. Build a family with you and have kids. I wanted to grow old with you. You are the reason why I want to thrive . You are the reason why I smile. You are the reason why I am happy. You're the only and only one that I have but why?! Alyn! I love you! I love you so much! But why?!" Donny was clueless as to what to do but he hugged Alyn to the highest level that he can and even kissed her and it was the " first kiss" ever. A kiss that he wasn't able to do when she was still alive. It was the end of Alyn's life but the love forever stays.
It is indeed heartbreaking and a morose incident for all of them. A moment that is unexpected. Sad, gloomy, and dark. These are the words of Donny in a way of describing his current situation. He can't move on. He can't be happy when his happiness is lost already. Things had changed greatly and Mariano and Camila are trying their best to give acceptance of everything that had happened and cherish those memories that they have with their daughter. Donny can't find any strength anymore to continue his education and everything he usually does. He spends his whole time crying and reminiscing moments. Tears become his friend. Mariano and Camila decided to visit Donny for a fact that the are worried about him. They consider Donny as a part of their lives. That's why, they just can't afford themselves to not think about him anymore and give the letter written by Alyn to Donny. After a while, Camila and Mariano said their sweet goodbyes to Donny. They will be moving to another place in order for them to be able to help themselves efficiently move on from what had happened.
Donny breathe and sat down on a blue couch and opened the letter. Alyn said there, " I probably do not know where to start or how should I start but as long as this letter would showcase how real I am to you or how authentic my love is for you then, I would just write whatever I want to write with all my heart. You know what Donny Smyth, the first time you confessed your feelings toward me, I did not know how to react in the first place because it was my very first time to encounter that kind of situation and I was just fourteen that time. However, I knew how it felt to be admired or to be simply appreciated. I used to live all my life being scared of getting attached to someone else. I used to be so much afraid of love, of commitment, and trusting another human being but I was not feeling all of it just for no reason.
I....am...sick.. literally sick. If I could be honest, I am okay with my eye disability, not being able to see things from afar but I am not perfectly okay with this heart of mine that is not well-functioning at all. First, I am not allowed to experience so much feeling of happinesss. Second, I am not allowed to experience so much feeling of sadness. I have a very weak heart and it is getting worse and worse every single day until I feel like my whole body is entirely affected by it. I tried to hide it myself because I don't want to hurt the people that I love and people that I cherish the most. Luckily, you came into my life. The one who made me realized that I should start changing my principles. You enlightened me. You altered my life to the most amazing level I could ever have. You turned my fear into power. You filled my dark avenue with eternal light, and most especially, you make me happy and you turned my timidity into bravery. I...am... strong now. I... am.. brave now. Don, thank you do much. I know this is not enough but I am saying it with a sense of sincerity, for real. Thank you do much Don for giving me the kind of happiness that I deserve to experience even in the short period of time. Thank you for this adorable puppy too that you've given toward me. Because of it, I would always have something to snuggle with. Thank you for allowing me to feel that I am the most beautiful woman even if I am not. Haha. Thank you for allowing me to experience those moments that I have never tried to experience even before. Thank you for breaking the family rules. My strict parents are now understanding. Thank you for being real and for doing everything in the hardest time. But Donny, I feel bad. I feel sorry for not daying that line that I have always wanted to say. Donny, I am really sorry for my promises I made that I can not fulfill anymore. I feel really bad Don. I am even crying terribly for thinking and realizing how irresponsible I am. I hate myself. But I know that you would choose to understand. Don, I may not acquire the last chance to talk with you and I may not be with you for the rest of your life, and I may not be able to say this personally but I am saying it anyway for the very first time that, " I love you so much Donny Smyth, forever!"
At last, I want to see you losing yourself in the new haze of horizons. Since I love you, I want the best for you. I want the best girl for you. So please, be with a kinf of woman who is precious to be kept. Someone who would choose to understand you and someone who would always choose to be with you for a lifetime, and someone who always choose to love you. Please, always choose her because you deserve her. You deserve to be happy. You deserve to smile.
I know we've been waiting for how many years about my big and true " Yes" and now, I am going to say it actually but for a different topic. Donny Smyth, I would admit that I've always wanted to give my "yes" to you to be officially be your girlfriend but I'd love to still give it to you but in a very different way that, " Donny Smyth, YES! you make me feel like I am the best and deserving of everything. I will be so much honest that I always and always cry because I am so much concerned about you and my mom and dad but because of "you", I realized that I should stop worrying and feeling down, and feeling sad. Donny Smyth, "yes", you are truly the fire behind my tears."Download Novelah App
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