ROSALYN
Our practice for the upcoming cheer dance competition was every day so we were all tired every Sunday. I used the Sundays to take a rest, mind and body, and my daddies just let me relax all day. Back then I used to hang out with Jasmin but now the only time we do talk about random things is on our vacant.
"Drink this, I think in any moment you'll just faint."
He handed the gatorade to me and sat beside me.
"Thanks."
"And are you still eating? You should eat more after our practice."
"I don't want to gain weight."
I said and look at me body, I notice that I'm started to gain weight so I tried to eat less that the usual or sometimes I just skip my meals. I must maintain my figure.
"I will not bring you to the clinic once you faint."
He said in a cold voice and I just laugh at it. I won't let you see me in a state like that.
"So heartless."
"But really, try to eat. I'm dead serious, you look like your about to faint."
"Noted, Sir Monteverde."
He just stared at me with a frown on his face and didn't say anything.
"Everyone let's practice one more time, this will be our last practice for today."
"Yes."
After our practice, I went straight to the changing room together with my other classmates. After our last class, I will just stay in my bed the whole day. I'm so tired.
"Hey, Rosalyn are you going to eat outside?"
"I don't know. I'll see the menu for today."
"So, you're going to eat with Nicholas?"
"Yeah, with Jasmin too."
"Does Nicholas have a girlfriend?"
One of my blockmates asked me again.
"Right now, no. I didn't saw him talk to someone."
"You're so lucky."
"Right, I also want to be close with him."
"Yeah."
"We are not that close."
"Huh? Are you kidding me? You two are not close but he was always sitting beside you. You are also the only person he talks with besides his cousins."
"Don't tell me you're in a relationship with him?"
"No. This is to clear whatever you're thinking right now. Back then we were not on good terms and being in each other's presence made us both irritated we just happened to truce. Just finally got matured. Finally."
"Just say it that you are his girlfriend, right?"
"No. We're just friends."
"You are definitely lying."
"Why would I lie, Lina?"
I raised my eyebrows to her and she rolled her eyes.
"I'll go first."
I got my bag and without looking back I left the changing room I almost slammed it but I stopped when I saw Nicholas waiting outside.
I cleared my throat and bit my lip because of this weird feeling again in my chest.
"Why did you wait for me?"
"Jasmin was already in the cafeteria."
"I see."
Without looking at him I started to walk faster. He then catch up on me but I remained looking in front of me.
"What happened?"
"Nothing, why did you ask?"
"Then why I do I feel like you are avoiding me so suddenly?"
When he looks at me I immediately avert my gaze and laugh.
"You're wrong then, hehe."
"I'll just ask our classmates then."
"They won't tell a single thing coz nothing happened."
"We'll see about-"
"Okay, I'll tell you now."
I panicked as I said that, well he just stopped walking and was about to go back to the changing room.
"So?"
"It's just awkward since people started to misunderstand our relationship."
"And?"
"And our classmates thought that we were in some kind of intimate relationship."
I sighed and started to walk. I know how he hated to link with me. Better to keep our distance again.
"Let them think of that."
"Huh?"
"Let them think of that."
I stopped walking and then face him. What's wrong with him?
"Why?"
"What are you talking about?"
"Don't you hate it? People just misunderstood..."
"Rosalyn it'll be better if you just don't mind things like that."
"I really don't know what is going inside your head,"
I murmured and he looked back at me and slightly smiled at me. He was now showing again his expensive smile.
"We are on the same page, lady."
"I hate you!"
"I hate you too."
I glared at his back. Why did you change, Nicholas? I felt like you're a different person, this was really bad for my heart.
When I got back to my room I started to get my books so I can study. But no information was put on my mind because it was occupied by him. I hate his smile. I hate that he changed. Why now, Nicholas? I then look at my mirror and talk to myself.
"Really Rosalyn, are you still thinking of him?"
And in the back of my mind the answer is...
"Because you like him. You just denied."
Biting my nails, pulling my hair again and again. I shake my head.
"Haha, I like him? Gosh, Rosalyn. You're crazy. So, this weird feeling in my chest is because I like him? I'm really out of my mind!"
"Rosalyn?"
I heard Daddy Jeff's voice outside, and I shut my mouth. Did he hear me? then Daddy knocked once again.
"Baby... still awake?"
"Yes, Daddy."
"Is it fine if I come in?"
"Yes."
I put my pen down and stand up. When Daddy opened the door his eyes went straight to my table.
"I'm sorry to disturb you while you were studying."
I shake my head and smile to Daddy. I feel guilty. This daughter of yours was not studying at all and was busy thinking if he liked Nicholas or not.
I'm sorry, Daddy!
"No, Daddy it's fine. So, what brings you here?"
"I just miss you."
"Is there a problem, Daddy?"
I immediately stood up and wdnt to him. I hugged him and Daddy kissed my forehead. I buried my face in his chest and he sighed.
"Daddy? Is everything fine?"
"There is nothing wrong."
"Are you sure?"
"Yes, trust me, darling. Everything's fine."
"Don't hesitate to tell me if there is a problem."
"My baby is already all grown up. I can't wait to see you in your debutant dress."
"I'm still your baby."
"Yes, so don't get a boyfriend too soon okay? Just wait for him, since there is a right time for that. For now I want that we two are just the guys in your life."
My eyes widened and I sighed. I tightened my hug on Daddy and frowned when I thought of him smiling.
"Daddy, stop it. Nicholas is not my crush."
"I didn't say a name unless he was the only person on your mind when I said that."
"Of course not!"
Then daddy held my face and kissed my face.
"My baby is so pretty."
When will I heard that word from him?
"I love you, Daddy."
"I love you too, Rosalyn."
"And what are you two doing?"
"Daddy Alvin!"
I then hugged Daddy and he kissed the top of my head.
"So, where's my I love you?"
"I love you too, Daddy."
After that, I kissed both of their cheeks.
"I love you two most. I'm so thankful that I have you both in my life."
"We love you too, Rosalyn. We are also deligted to have you in our life."
The next days I started to observe my parents and this was the first time I saw Daddy being down, and sighing every time. Daddy Alvin was also the same and I always see them looking meaningfully. Like they were talking in their minds and there was a huge secret that they were keeping from me.
"Haa."
"What's wrong?"
I sigh once again and look at the class of Jasmin who will do perform next.
"Rosalyn."
"Yes?"
"Where is your mind? Is there a problem?"
"No, I'm fine."
"Drink this."
Then I get the bottled water that Nicholas gave to me.
"Thank you. Wow. Their performance was good."
We all clapped when their performance just ended. The judges then compliment them and we all clapped once again.
"Congrats, Jasmin!"
"Thank you, Good luck."
"Yes."
Then I take a deep breath and go to my position. I need to focus. You can't let your mind wander, Rosalyn. No mistakes shall happen. And the time the song started to play my heart started to beats so fast.
No mistakes. You can do this, Rosalyn.
-IAmRoseee