Since that incident, I never thought about women again. For 2 years I was really focused on work.
In my opinion, women are all the same, at first my parents always forced me to join matchmaking events with the daughters of all their colleagues, "Zhan, mom has a friend. Eum ... her daughter is beautiful, according to mom she is not only beautiful but also kind. Do you want mom to match you with her?"
I just sighed roughly, I was tired of all those matchmaking. I refused politely, afraid of hurting the woman who gave birth to me, "Mom, I don't like being matched, if Sari's incident happens again, will you bear all that?"
Mom fell silent, since then my parents never brought up when I would find a woman to marry.
Maybe they knew that their son was not ready yet, and they probably knew that their son was currently arranging his heart and looking for his true broken bones.
Until I saw a cute girl in a restaurant, she was very cute, maybe around 19 or 20 years old. 
Afraid to express my love, I didn't dare to approach her, I always took the time to have lunch at that restaurant. 
One day it was very unfortunate because my business was having problems making me leave her, "God, maybe that girl is not my soulmate, but God, if she is my soulmate then I hope You can bring us closer again someday," I muttered softly. 
Actually, if only I had the courage to start, I could have brought her along with me on my business trip. 
I thought if I could really get her then she would accept me, afraid that later the girl would be hurt if I left her continuously and fatally would cheat on her. 
That's why I intended to ask her to go with me wherever I went. Unfortunately my failure made me a cowardly man to express my love. 
Finally I left her. Since then, I never met her again until the new year I met her again, "God, is this our destiny to meet again?" 
For some reason it seemed like she was sad, I deliberately walked slowly towards her and then we collided, at that time I was with my cousin Lili. 
I collided with her, and she apologized. How surprised I was that she didn't recognize me. 
It's a shame that it was just a one-sided love. Lili called me, I went to Lili's previous place and wished her a happy new year and she looked happy. 
'God seeing her happy like that, for some reason I also feel happy. Are you playing with me God? She doesn't recognize me, but why did you bring us back together? What is your plan God?' I asked myself. 
"Sis, was that girl beautiful?" Lili asked, surprising me. 
I was nervous and immediately tried to act normal so that my cousin wouldn't be suspicious of me, "Hm, she's beautiful." 
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After that meeting I never saw her again and it turned out that when I went to the restaurant she had already left and changed jobs. 
Previously I asked one of the employees there, but none of them knew where the girl was. 
I looked for her but I couldn't find her. Until finally I met her at the hospital, how shocked I was when I found out she already had a son, it seemed I was beaten by another man. 
When I found out that her fate was really unfortunate, she was left by her husband for an affair, even worse her husband married her lover. 'If only I had the courage to be honest with her, then take her with me. Maybe she wouldn't suffer like this, what is Your plan God?' 
Ah her fate is almost the same as mine, left by an affair. I encouraged her and I left her when her brother came to her. 
I had to go back to Mama's room, yes Mama was sick at that time and because I was bored I walked around and accidentally met the woman I loved. 
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Another unexpected meeting, we met again at a mini market, I felt sorry for her at that time, 'God, why did you give this trial to the woman I love?' I asked myself. 
I helped to fulfill all her needs and paid for all her shopping, I also gave her some stock for the next 1 month so that she and her son could survive. 
In fact, when I took her to her house and after I finished I left some money for her needs for the next few months. 
Although not much, hopefully it will be enough for her and her son to survive until she can work again. After that I left without saying goodbye. 
And again I met her after not seeing her for several months because of my very busy work. 
It turned out she worked at a fast food restaurant, when I asked about her son she was sad, it turned out her fate was really unfortunate, her son was taken by her brother without her knowledge and became her brother's son, I wanted to help but I had to finish my work first so that I could focus on her. 
Yes, I didn't see her again for several months. Until Mom asked when I would end my bachelorhood, "Zhan, your incident with Sari has been going on for about 5 years, why don't you try to find someone else... you're 28 years old now, honey," Mom said a little worriedly. 
I knew Mom was worried about my future, seeing the woman who had given birth looking sad, I immediately said to calm her down, "Zhan has a woman for Mom's future daughter-in-law, but Mom... if she's not a girl but a widow with one son, would Mom agree?" I asked a little carefully, afraid that Mom wouldn't accept my choice. 
"Mom agrees, as long as she's good, loves you and loves this family. Mom doesn't care about widow or virgin status, you know yourself, right? Before with your father, Mom was also a widow, the only difference is that Mom was a widow and didn't have children," Mom explained, making me happy because Mom had given me the green light. 
"Zhan is happy to hear that, Mom, I hope Mom is happy with Zhan's choice this time. Zhan believes she's a good woman without having to look at her past, Mom," I explained, trying to explain to Mom. 
"Mom doesn't care about his past, what's important is his future with you and you're happy." I was happy to hear what Mom just said.
"Zhan will solve all the company's problems, then Zhan will try to chase after her. After the company is stable, Zhan will only focus on the woman Zhan loves."
"It's good that you have that kind of thinking, son."
I tried to solve everything so that I could approach him. And how surprised I was when I met him again in my old office which I rarely went to.
By all means I wanted him to be close to me, finally all that came true, I'm very happy now that I'm always close to him and he's starting to get used to me even if I tease him he always says I'm a bachelor, hahahaha ... he's really funny.
Even though our ages are only 5 years apart, now I'm 29 years old while he's 24 years old.
At that age he has experienced a sad fate, seeing his suffering I really want to be a rainbow for him so that after this he can be cheerful again like the first time I saw him.