"Hi baby, how are you? JA's private message to Zacky. After a moment of waiting, there was already a reply.
"I'll never be okay if I am hurt."
"Your brother blamed me for what happened to you. I received insult from him. You guys never believed in me. So it's better for you not to talk to me. Spend time with your brother. I guess you need to talk.
Upon reading Zacky's responses, JA became emotional again. She knew she hurt him but she was hurt too. But because she thinks of him as her friend, she wanted to settle everything with him. But Zacky needed time to be healed so, she had nothing to do but stop chatting with him for a while.
Inside the hospital, the doctor called Jareed for a private talk. JA was left with Nanny in the hospital bed. She was thinking on what could be their topic of discussion because she felt there was something wrong with her health, so she needs to get ready of herself whatever it is.
Jareed went back to the hospital room. She looked at her brother and she found out that his eyes were getting red as if he was about to cry.
"Sweetie, the doctor said you may be discharged this afternoon. I need to settle first the hospital bills and then we can go home", Jareed snorted
"Are you okay boo? What's wrong? What did the doctor tell you?", she asked curiously.
"Nothing sweetie. He just said that you are truly blessed because he did not expect that after two hours that you were declared dead, a miracle would take place", he explained.
"Is that all boo?", she asked wanting to get her brother's reaction.
She knew Jareed was hiding something from her and she wanted to find it out as soon as they get home.
*********
At Arcelo's residence
JA went inside her room and laid her body on the bed. She noticed her luggage was already inside. It means, her brother had gone to Gillian's house to get her belongings. She was looking at the ceiling trying to figure out a lot of things. She hurriedly stood up and went to her brother's room.
"Boo, can I get inside", she knocked on the door.
"Yes, come in sweetie"
Her brother was sitting on his bed, focusing something on his laptop. She was very sure that was work-related matters. She stood there for a moment while waiting for her brother to finish what he was doing.
"Come, sweetie, sit here beside me", Jareed said, then he moved a little bit to give her enough space.
"What do you want to ask me first?", Jareed asked in a casual tone.
"I wanted to know what happened to me before I was brought to the hospital", she uttered.
"Gillian called me using your phone and she cried while telling me that you lost your consciousness. So, I had to rush there. I decided to bring you to the hospital because your hands were already getting cold, and you were not breathing", he said trying to hold back his tears.
"When you were in the hospital and the doctors were trying their best to revive you, I contacted Zacky and again I put the blame on her. I'm really sorry sweetie", he sobbed.
"And when the doctor declared that you were dead, I feel like everything had fallen apart. You can read our conversations sweetie.", Jareed was becoming emotional as he handed down his cellphone to her.
She sat on the couch and started reading the messages.
"Why did you block my sister on Facebook? This is really what you're planning to do. I read your convo in messenger"
"Dear, sorry. But my Facebook account was hacked, and FB authority deleted my account"
"JA fainted again and she was here in the hospital. She is not breathing anymore. Are you happy now?"
"And you're blaming me again? Despite the insult I got from the two of you, why am I still here?"
"You asked me why she called me baby? Maybe because she got the love from me and I got the care from here. Maybe she treated me as her younger sister and I treated her as my older sister.
"Do you really care for my sister? or she is the only one who cares for you? Why do you keep on hurting her?"
"JA is already dead"
After reading all those messages tears were seen, streaming from her eyes. Then she scrolled Zacky's timeline and read his message.
"I got the news from a member of her family that my one and only friend JA ( I cannot reveal the name) who has the username delicate blossom had gone in this world. She was no longer here with me now. You are always in my heart. I love you forever as my sister".
This message made her more emotional. She cried and cried so hard that it felt she was struck by a sharp object countless times. She gave back the cellphone to her brother and then she went out of his room.
She sent Zacky a private message and asked an apology from her. But it seemed Zacky doesn't want to talk to her.
"I am also hurt baby but I'm still giving a chance to our friendship"
"Well, it's not the same with me because once I am hurt, it takes time for me to forget and to be healed. So give me time.", Zacky's response to her.
She had nothing to do but respect Zacky's decision even if it would mean killing her inside. She could not help herself but being emotional every time she thinks of him.
She went to her music room and sat on the piano bench. At times like this, when she is sad and lonely, she badly needs the healing power of music.
After some music therapy, she went inside her room and opened her laptop. She wanted to continue writing her story. She was already in the 12th chapter when Zacky sent her a message asking if she was alright. After some time of exchanging messages, she found out that the one who texted her was one of Zacky's cousins.
"If you wanted to talk to Zacky, then I will call her"
"Okay, let me talk to her.", she responded.
This time JA is not anymore using the masculine pronouns for Zacky because inside her heart she already accepted that Zacky is not a man, so she had to wake up from her illusions.
Yes, everything was just an illusion. And what she felt for Zacky was just an illusionary love. Despite all, it did not change the fact that she love her and care for her so much. But it's time to let go and so she will be free from illusions.
She had to accept that for the first time she was wrong in doing the mental telepathy. She needs to accept that she is only a human being who has limitations.
Zacky is a woman and she was wrong in thinking that she is a man. She is a girl, a young woman who cannot reciprocate her love and definitely couldn't be someone whom her heart is longing for.
Still, she wanted to make friends with her. She wanted her back as a friend and a younger sister. After some time, Zacky responded to her message and asked if she is alright.
"Thank you for coming back to me baby", she said happily.
And why she was still calling her baby?
The other side of her brain asked curiously.
Well, because she was used to call her like that and it will never change no matter what. Her moment chatting online with Zacky is one of her precious times. She was so happy as they exchanged sweet messages. They laughed, throwing jokes at each other and she felt alive and all the pains she felt from previous times were totally gone.
She opened her laptop again because she wanted to update another chapter in her story knowing that Zacky is always there to support her.
One time, when they chatted with each other.
"What are you doing dear?", Zacky asked.
"I am writing. "What about you what are you doing?", JA's message
"I am writing something"
She asked what Zacky was writing and then after a moment, Zacky was sending her a text about a poem written in a different language.
"To whom, you dedicate that poem baby?" JA asked curiously.
"Hmm. Secret"
"Oh, am I not anymore part of your secret baby?"
"I could never hide anything from you no matter how much I tried"
JA was smiling because that really warms her heart. And even if she doesn't anymore thinks of Zacky as a man, her heart fluttered so much whenever Zacky gave her compliments.
Whenever she thinks of her, she could not help herself but smile and she was hoping she would meet her someday, at the right time and at the right place.