Solstice's Pov
I guess this is the part where my moon is slowly coming closer to me. Are we going to have an eclipse soon? Are we going to be okay soon? 
 
I'm the sun and he's the moon. Is this the eclipse that I've been waiting for? I'm glad that he looks like he's concerned about me now, but he never said, I love you to me. I always say I love you, but he didn't say it back to me. 
It's been two months since we made love, and he's getting closer to me now. He cooked for me, took care of me, and we even now sleep in the same room and eat in the same area. I didn't expect this, but maybe he loves me now. I don't know but I'm still having a bad feeling. Last time I thought we were going to be okay but he left me. 
I have a feeling that someone is going to leave me. I feel like I'm going to lose someone, but I don't know who it is. I don't want anyone who enters my life to leave me. 
I sighed. It's early in the morning, and Luan is not here anymore. He went to work just to fix something. For some reason, I'm feeling nauseous. There it comes. I ran to the bathroom and puked in the sink. 
I placed my hand on my tummy and I looked at myself in the mirror. I'm not dumb not to assume I'm pregnant. What the hell should I do? I don't want to tell Luan or my friends, even Baba. I positioned myself to run to the bedroom, and I remembered that I may be pregnant, so I walked gently and slowly just to be careful. 
I really assume that I'm pregnant because we did that— 
I grabbed my phone and searched.
“What should I do to know I'm pregnant? “
Missed period? My period is late, one to two months now.
Frequent urination? Ahh I always pee now.
Swollen breasts.. Uh yeah it is swollen I guess
Nausea??I'm feeling nauseous right now.
Ohh pregnancy test or check up!! I don't want to take pregnancy test, I want to have a check up.
Hmm
I should go to a hospital for check up.
I should search for a hospital that doesn't have a connection to Luan. Before he became the CEO of his family's company, he was a licensed doctor. Luan is really a talented guy. He is smart. Luan is still a licensed doctor and he has his own hospital. If I find out that I'm pregnant, the first person I want to tell is Baba. Well, I actually want to tell Luan first, but I don't know if he will like the news. I want Baba to help me tell Luan. 
—
“Congratulations, Mrs?“

“Miss Knox, “ I smiled at the doctor.
"You're 8 weeks pregnant and here's a verification letter for your pregnancy to show your loved ones that you're pregnant. Please be careful when going home, Ms. Knox, and congratulations again, “
“Thank you doc, thank you, “ I bowed my head and went out from her office.
I can't help but be happy. I'm pregnant. I can't wait to tell them that me and Luan are going to have a baby. Is this a new life for us? Are we finally going to be happy?I hope Luan and I are going to be officially together.I want to tell Baba now. 
I looked up in the sky, smiling.
“Thank you for giving us an angel, “
I looked down to my tummy and gently placed my hand on my tummy, gently rubbing it.
“Hello baby, I'm your mom, mommy Solstice or mommy Sol. Call me anything that you are comfortable with. I hope your daddy will be fine with my pregnancy, “I muttered as I rubbed my tummy.
“Mommy promised to love you always.“ A tear fell from my eyes, but it wasn't a tear of sadness, it was a tear of joy.
As I rode a taxi to Baba's company, I looked at the verification letter with a smile on my face. Baba will be happy to hear this news. 
I walked into the building and people were greeting me here and there. They know me as Baba's kid. When I was a kid, I used to play around here and talk to the people here. I remember scolding Baba when I was a kid because he got mad at the employees. 
I happily walked to Baba's office. I didn't knock anymore and I went inside Baba's office.
What I heard there broke my heart into pieces. 
“It's been months since you came back here, Luan. Are you still planning the annulment with my daughter? “ Baba asked Luan. 
 
He was sitting in his chair, and Luan was sitting in front of him. There was a chessboard on the desk, and they were talking while playing.
“Actually, I was planning to—” I cut Luan off.
“S-so you're still going to file an annulment?“ I approached him as tears escaped my eyes. 
"So what is that all about? You take care of me, make me feel you love me, be sweet to me and everything. Why? Why do you have to give me hope if you're still filing for an annulment? Do you really like seeing me suffer? Do you hate that much, Luan? Do you?? I know... I know I took your freedom away from you. I know I became selfish, but isn't this going too far? “ I wiped my tears, but they just kept falling. 
I want to be mad at him, but I don't know, I just can't. Maybe I loved him too much? But this is enough now.
I don't want to destroy myself for this stupid love. 
So he's the person who I'm feeling is going to leave me? As usual, it was Luan who would always leave me. He doesn't care about me. He will never love me, as he previously stated.
Luan stood up and walked towards me, but I avoided him and walked to Baba. I'm forcing a smile just for my baby. I don't want to give this letter, I don't want to inform people that I'm pregnant without a smile. 
I then walked out of the office, running to the elevator, and tried to close it as soon as I could so that Luan couldn't follow him. As I got into the elevator, I didn't see him. He didn't follow me. He doesn't really love me.
I looked down and tears were falling from my eyes. I thought it was going to be the time when my heart would be fully healed because we're okay now and we're going to have a baby. I guess I was wrong again.
I'm hurting myself too much now.