Solstice's Pov
I read the next paragraph while Luan was beside me, feeding me. 
 
“While I was out in the country, I slowly realized that I like you. Every day that passed, I was in my room, feeling empty. You know that feeling that there is a missing piece in your life? That’s what I felt, Solstice. I was missing you at that time. I wanted to be with you. I missed your greetings every morning, afternoon, and night. I know that you texted me, but I want to hear you greet me personally. I missed how you asked me to give you hugs. I miss how you checked on me every night to make sure I'm fine and I’m asleep like I’m a child that needs to be checked on. I missed how you secretly kissed me on the forehead every night when I was asleep. I missed how you put effort into making food for me even though you don’t know how to cook. Missing you made me realize that I like you. "
I looked at him, blushing brightly after I read this paragraph. “You knew?! “ I hit him on his arm gently. 
 
“Knew what?“ He stared at me, confused. 
 
“You know I was kissing you secretly?Oh gosh, this is so embarrassing,“ I face palm myself. I never expected he would know it. 
He curled his fingers and placed the side of his index finger on his lip. He looked down and laughed a little. "Well, sometimes I pretended to be asleep.“ He looked at me. 
"So, uhm, you missed me while you were gone, huh, darling, you missed me," I teased him.
 
"Yes, I miss you, and please continue reading," he said, holding my face and turning my head to face the laptop.
I pouted and gasped as he slipped a spoon full of food into my mouth."Eat," he said.
“When I came back here, I was happy that I’d see you again. I saw you again when you were standing at the entrance. When I came in, I saw that you were trying your best not to look at me, but at the time that Kiara spoke, I was happy because you stared at her because maybe you’re jealous. I was scared that you don’t have feelings for me anymore, but with that jealousy in your eyes that I saw, it made me a little happy. I was trying my best not to hug you. At that time, I was trying my best to stay professional. That time was the hardest time for me to stay professional. I was fighting myself just not to show how much I felt for you at that time. As I got into my office, memories flashed back in my mind, especially those memories that I had treated you badly. I regret those times that I didn’t treat you right.“
“Hah, who told you I was jealous of that Kiara bitch?“ I rolled my eyes. Well, it's true, I was jealous. I was her wife. I should be the first girl that would talk to him when he arrived here. 
 
"You yourself, darling, it was your face, expression, and eyes that told me," he stared at me sharply with a smirk on his face.
I scoffed and continued to read the next paragraph.
“At the time that you heard me and your father talking about the annulment, I was going to say that I would not continue the annulment and instead I was going to confess my feelings to you. Darling, that time I didn’t know what to do. I was going to chase you, but your father stopped me because he asked me if I was really planning to continue the divorce, and I told him that I wasn’t. That time you asked me if I hated you, no darling, I don’t hate you, I like you, and I love you. On that day, I don’t know what to do. I’m a doctor, but I don’t know what to do. I was shocked to learn that you’re pregnant, and I’m sad because we lost our first baby. I’m sorry that I didn’t do anything that could have saved our baby immediately. If my mind hadn’t gotten blank at that time, I’m sure I could have found a way to save our baby. I promised our baby that I’m going to take care of you this time.“
While reading this part, this was the time where my tears started to fall from my eyes. I could feel a sharp pain right now. Our baby was still alive if I hadn't reacted that badly and let him explain. 
 
“I'm sorry, sorry because I didn't—” 
 
He cut me off with a tight and warm embrace. I could feel his palm gently rubbing my back and he whispered, “shhhh, don't say sorry, it's fine now.“ 
“B-but—”
“No buts and go continue reading,“ he broke the hug and wiped my tears with his thumb.
“Now, I want to treat you better. I may not be able to express it, but I will try. I will try to be the husband that you always wanted. I’ll be your man now, my lady. I’ll make it up to you this time. We will be happy now and will build a family together. I will do my best not to hurt you anymore. I will be wise with my words, so I won’t hurt you. I will make you feel loved this time. I promise to treat you better this time. I love you. “
“I love you too, “ I said and looked at him.
I smiled as I felt arms around my waist. He looked at the screen of the laptop and mumbled, “I will really treat you better now.“
“Can I request something? If you say you'll treat me better, don't change your ways of how you want to treat me as your lover. Don't do such things that aren't your way, okay?Just show your love in Luan's way, not in other's ways,“ I mumbled.
I want him to treat me in his way of showing love. 
 
“Noted my lady,“ he mumbled.
I continued to read and finished reading it. I was happy to know that he made an effort to make this essay to tell me everything he wanted to tell me. I'm happy because through an essay he was able to express himself. 
 
I love the last part of the essay. 
“Let me make myself a better man for you and let’s make our relationship better. I love you.
this time, all promises will be kept
the moon and the sun will meet
this is our eclipse, m'lady
i will love you eternally
”