After a few moments, I didn't pass by, but stopped in front of Liza's house. Their gate and main door are closed, but the window above is wide-opened, until someone glimpsed it, so I tried to hide myself from the tall, solid grass by the street.
"Hey! Do not hide yourself there! " The girl shouted from above.
I know she's not Liza, but the absurd ghost named Shaula Olala. And because she already saw me behind the tall grasses, I asked myself if why I was so tall, taller than the tall grasses that barely stood like a pillar. And I completely showed myself to her.
It's the first time I have seen this woman peering out the window of her high house at me, because before she did not mind if I passed by in her house, but as I have said, she's not Liza.'s not the girl that I knew, so I must do something.
In just the blink of an eye, as I turned to leave, the girl glimpsing from the window disappeared. I was shocked when someone held my shoulder. As I looked back, it was Shaula who was in Liza's body. I don't know how she could emerge like that. Perhaps her power as a ghost is still with her even though she's in Liza's body?
"Where are you going, huh?" She asked in a dubious manner. "Don't you want to stay with me for a while and have a good time? Come, let's get inside my house." She caught my hands and attempted to pull me towards her house, but I was strong enough to make her stay, like a wall still stands by me.
I took a deep breath and said, "Shaula, can we have a serious talk? I know that you have evaded Liza's body, but I'm not mad at you." Though I wanted to laugh for an unknown reason, I tried to speak seriously in order to make her believe it.
After I said those words, Shaula stared directly into my eyes. She was frozen, but her hands left mine and stayed on my shoulder. She's facing me right now, and it seems that she's paralyzed. She can't open her mouth to talk. Not long after, I didn't notice that tears were already dripping from her brown eyes.
She was crying in front of me, without making any sounds, just tears, and I felt her sadness. But I could not figure out why she was crying; I'd realized that ghosts, like living people, have feelings, so I moved closer to her, leaving no space between our bodies, and let her cry on my shoulder.
Half an hour has elapsed, and I'm now tired of standing here, listening to her whines and catching the tears that fall. She cried and cried even though there were some people looking at us. Kiko and Kate are also here right now. Eventually, Shaula let go of me, but again, as she hugged me for the last time, I couldn't say anything, but Shaula could.
"I'm so sorry, Ezekiel. I didn't mean to pretend and covet Liza's body. I just did it for you, because I really like you." She smiled, but at the same time, cried. "You are so repulsive; you won't let me rest in peace since the first day I saw you. You already caught my heart. I could not sleep without you. Ezekiel, I know that you have many problems and, you, you, you don't want to be alone. I know you want someone who can embrace you on cold nights.
"If we can't see each other again, I hope that you will remember me, because I will always be there for you. I don't have any bad intentions, and if you want me to leave this body, I will be happy to do it, for you."
Shaula pressed her face against my neck, and I wondered why she thrust her face against mine and caught my lips for the last time; she was my last and first kiss, and it tasted bittersweet.
Although I'm ashamed of the people looking at us, even Kate and Kiko, I tried to savor the last moment with her, and she eventually left with a reward. Meanwhile, Liza's body suddenly collapsed, but because I was alert enough, I caught her in my arms.
What I could whisper was, "sorry." I didn't mean to hurt her. Sorry for being inconsiderate. I was just considering my own feelings and not appreciating everything she have done for me. I'm so sorry that I could only see the negative sides of her actions.
Please accept my apologies for not loving you as much as you loved me. I'm sorry that I loved Liza's body more than you. I know, I can't coerce myself to love you, Shaula, but I'm grateful that you became a part of my life, and I came back to my senses when someone tapped my shoulder.
"Is she just okay?" Kiko asked.
I didn't reply with words, but nodded. I know that Liza is just out of consciousness. So I helped them carry Liza inside her house. It's quiet all around us, and I didn't know why there was nobody inside this house.
The upholstered couch pressed down as we laid Liza on it. Kiko and Kate sat down on the couch beside her, and so I did.
Liza eventually woke up, and everything had changed. You didn't guess it right. But the first person she asked wasn't Kiko, Kate, or me, but Lawrence. It hammered my heart several times, and it bled. But what else can I do? Despite being sad, I know that what I did was the right thing to do. 
"Thanks God you're already awake, Liza. Did you know what happened to you when you're not in your body?" Kate asked.
"Yup, I know everything. Honestly, I was just stuck inside my body, but I didn't know what to do in order to get control of myself again, but that ghost—that ghost was so strong," Liza replied.
I felt ashamed to hear those words from Liza. I thought that she didn't know what I did with her body, which was controlled by Shaula. Perhaps she was crying about what I did, and I regret it all.
"I'm sorry Liza, I didn't know that—" I hadn't finished my words.
"You did not know that I was just inside my body? Watching every move made by that despicable ghost who truly admired you? And what kind of human are you? Why can't you prevent yourself from harassing me? Perhaps that's also the reason why nobody likes you: you're so rude. Unlike Lawrence, you can't respect those girls." Liza's tears stream down her cheeks.
My heart was poked a hundred times by a mallet, not because of her words, but because I hurt her feelings. I felt Liza's anger reaching the underworld as she could kill me because I lost her virginity.
"Now, get out of my house! Forget that we are still friends, because I don't have an inconsiderate friend. I don't want to see your face again!" Her exclamations points pushed me away, so I stood up and stared back, despite the fact that I knew her emotions had reached the clouds.
"I told you to get out!" Liza exclaimed again. "Are you deaf?"
Honestly, I want to stay with her, even just for a while. I want to turn back and embrace her tightly, but there's nothing else I can do since she wants me to leave. I want to say sorry again and again, but perhaps the best thing to do now is to go away and let everything become cooler, because I don't want to be burned by her anger.
I walked down the lonesome street (like an insane man) towards my house. I don't know why my shoulders drooped. No matter how much I raised them again and again, they still drooped as they weighed a ton. I don't like to make myself believe that the earth is turning slowly right now, but my instinct believes it by itself.
Curious is what I became. I don't know why I can hardly reach my house, even though my dogs are now barking. Many things are whispering in my ear. They are telling me something, such as I am doing the wrong thing. I just wanted to die now in order to stop them, so I coerced my feet to walk towards my house, and I eventually reached it.
The door laughed as I opened it, but it cried as I angrily punched it many times. I wanted that door to be broken, but my hands ached, so I stopped and took a rest for a while by sitting on the level. At the same time, perhaps Magdalene had woken up because of the noise I made, which was the reason why she went towards me.
"What's happening to you, son?" Magdalene asked. Because of her voice, I knew she looked worried, although I wasn't looking at her face. Honestly, I'm even mad at her and I want to punch her in the face, but I was just preventing myself from doing it.
I stood up and carried my whole weight, which I could hardly do. I didn't know why I was so heavy, but I continued walking towards my bedroom. I was at the front of the door when my mind quickly changed, and instead of entering there, I entered the repulsive kitchen and searched for something fantastic until I found it above the wardrobe.
It looks sharp and glistening as it blinds me when hit by the warm sunlight that enters through the crystal windows. But everything turned dark after some seconds, when I pierced my bloodless heart. I realized that it wasn't totally bloodless because I felt that it was bleeding, streaming down my abdomen. It even spurts out from my chest, nose, and mouth.
Although it was painful—not going further—what I did to Liza, what she did to me, what I did to Shaula, to Lawrence, to my father, to Messy Sippy—are more painful when combined. And even though it was painful, I chose to smile, like being freed from the sins I committed to everyone.
I smiled because I don't have to be played by destiny anymore. I smiled because smiling takes all the pain away. I smiled because I will be having a birthday party with my beloved mother soon.
I lost consciousness of smiling, and when I woke up, everything had changed. Damn, I'm within the darkness. There's nothing else I can see, except the darkness itself. I felt uncomfortable and became more uncomfortable when someone began calling my despicable name.
"Ezekiel! Ezekiel!" The voice sounds familiar, as I've heard it before.
I searched where the voice came from: above the ceiling? There's no ceiling. Below my bed? There's no bed. Lying beside me? I'm not lying. Inside my pocket? Sh*t, I'm not wearing any pants. The cabinet? I'm inside the coffin. She might be in the toilet bowl, and I'm talking to her.
"Ezekiel!" The voice sounds near to me. "I'm here! I'm here!"
It took me a thousand years to realize that she was none other than the woman who greatly cared for and loved me. The woman who is willing to give up everything for me. The woman whom I eventually found inside my heart.