I inhale before continuing my backread session festuring Luigi and Empi.
He even call me many time. But I did not answer any of those.
With my arrogant look, I look around trying to find the bottles. When I saw it lying on the ground I glare at the empty Empi bottles.
"What a devil's liquor! This is going to be my last!" I said pissed off.
When I avert my attention back to my phone. I saw my text message to him. It's around 2 in the morning. Pakshit!
"Ang lakas ng amats mo bes!" I'm so annoyed to myself while reading our conversation last night.
But I can't understand my messages except for his replies.
But the last words caught my attention...
Luigi: Te amo.
I frustratedly stomp my feet on the ground. I don't care If I wake my cousins! All I care right now is that I'm super stupid. No!! Not just super-- It's super ultra mega double mega unltri mega stupid!!
We even have a call last nigh! I answered it! It lasted for an hour!
I will never gonna get drunk again--- No! I mean I will leave my phone elsewhere if I'm going to have a drink.
To calm myself down, I go downstairs to have a bath. Atleast it will calm my nerves. Shit! Why do I have to do that stupidness?!
While drying my hair with a towel, I saw a pop out message from Luigi.
Luigi: Goodmorning.
No, there is nothing good in my morning. Knowing that I did a lot of crazy things...
I didn't replied to him. Even though he massage me with a nagging message.
I disconnect my phone in wifi so he can't send me any message. I don't want to talk to him. I'm shy. Embarrass too.
All I did is to stare at nothing. Sometimes I will look a spider web in the corner inside our house. I wanna stop thinking about my craziness last night. I CAAAN'T!!!
"Don't, Let's not talk about it~"
"Let's wait, for tomorrow
Not today, I don't think I can make it~"
I wince when I see some flashback of my lunatic moments last night. Shiz! What's with my music taste? It's look like destiny is freaking with my mind!
"Please Not right now? Wait up I don't want to~''
"Now I get it
We can't fix this anymore
Oh why?
Can we just pretend?
Not today, I don't think I can make it
Not now
And I know what will you say
Not now~"
I suddenly open my eyes. Maybe the reason why he keeps on chatting me because there is no chance between us? Is he really gonna end things to us? Even the friendship?!
I smile. It's okay. I know that this will happen. I was also having a hard time acting like I want to be his bestfriend even though I want more to it.
It hurts. It's really hurts. Losing someone you love because you know that you have too. Maybe he is not aware about my feelings for him-- or maybe he is, he just doesn't want to acknowledge it...
I pout and hug my speaker. "Ahhh~ this is why I love you Lola Amour~ you can dig my deepest thoughts." I pat my speaker while talking to it.
No one is in the house so It's okay to talk to my baby speaker. No one will think that I'm crazy-- Well I am.
I'm still under my 'don't do anything session' when I saw a flower in Lola's flowerbase.
I sigh. Poor flowers. My attention is on you. Seconds from now, I think I will cut your beautiful petals.
I already spend my half time in meditating. When Afternoon came, I got really bored. So I decided to open my account.
I can't escape him. So why not talk to him? I bite my nails when I saw his messages.
Luigi: Oh? Are you gonna ignore me again?
My face crinkled. Is he mad? Ugh!
I gulp and I ready myself to be a keyboard warrior...
Allison: So this is the reason...
I stop myself from typing another words. Well? Should I explain what happened last night or not?
Should I let him think whatever he wanted to think or not?
Gosh! Self! When will you have your own decision?!
I pout when I saw a word from him.
Luigi: What?
Luigi: Go, explain yourself.
I pout like a kid. "Ugh! I'm not the one who talked to you last night. It was the spirit of alcohol. As far as I remember I did a lot of craziness last night. I even walk like a model! As if runnaway is my runnaway even though I'm just in Lola's rooftop. And then just like that--- I saw a lot of conversation that we have last nigh."
I scratch my neck before sending my explanation to him. Am I disturbing them? I mean him and his girl?
Hmp! I came into his life first before the girl who snake him. But then, I lost. So it's not in first come, first serve. Shiz...
I frown when I read his reply. It's just a simple "It's up to you." Fuckshit naman to!
"Ugh! I already explain myself huh?! What?! Is this the end of our friendship?!" I frustratedly talk to my phone.
I pout when he said goodbye.
Luigi: Bye, I still have things to do.
No, I don't believe you. Everything has changed since March 15-- night time. The day when that Anjelika girl told you that she likes you.
I know that you are lying to me... but I keep my silent even though you keep on lying.
I smirk. "Everything that I have done to you just come into a waste when that girl came in picture."
I shake my head. His a lying shit. But why do I stay?
Because deep inside I was hoping that he will be mine.
I scratch my hair so hard. I'm piss. "Why can't I get him out of my mind?" I frustratedly ask myself.
Another message pop out of my screen. It was from pepengs. My bestfriend since diaper days.
J: hey baks! Send noodles!
I laugh when the three members send-- a memes pictures. Of course I send too. My memes picture.
This group is belong to five pretty girls. That's my friends and me.
I frown when another massage pop again. It was from Luigi.
Luigi: Why didn't you reply to me ha.
My frown deeper and roll my eyes.
Allison: what? You told me that you will do something?
Hmm, where is your other girl? Not talking to you?
Luigi: So If I didn't reply to you, you won't message me?
I raise my brow. Huh! So demanding yet we don't have any label except for friendship.
I roll my eyes before sarcastically typing my reply.
Allison: Lunatic you told me that you will do something. I don't want to disturb you.
I don't want you to look at me as if I'm just disturbing you with my clumsiness.
Luigi: Hmm, As far as I remember yesterday you don't want me to sleep.
I gasp and read his message again. It sound so sarcastic!
I grimace when he forwarded a voice mail. "Ughhh! Iw!!!" I stomp my feet when i hear my drunk voice. I can't even understand anything! Until a confession suddenly came in the voice mail.
"Woooy~ when will you gonna like me back?~" I wince when I hear it. I can't even talk straight. Gosh!
I did something foolish again. Patay malisya card.
Allison: Oh~ I don't know that haha. That's not me. Hahaha.