I think my heart will explode seconds from now. I can hear my heart beat, beating so faast as if I was running in a marathon!
Those words keep on ringing in my ears as Luigi ended the call. I stare at nothing. Thinking if I heard it right. Thinking if he's not pranking me.
"Just what the fuck?!" He's just a stranger that I met online because of Niña not too long ago. But now who would have thought that this stranger that I met online will be a big part of my life?
When I was back in my not so normal state. I send him a masaage.
"Why did you end the call?" I type it and hit the send button.
If he deny it this time. That means he's messing with me and it's part of his fuck up prank. But if not...
Luigi: I'm embarrass.
I laugh at what he said. Shit! I can't believe it! He likes me! He likes me!!! It feels like I won a lottery!
Ehem! Waitt-- We better ask again. I put on my serious face.
Allison: Are you freakin serious?
I thought that it will take him some time to answer my question but I'm wrong.
Luigi: Yeah, I won't be like this if I'm just messing around right?
I felt a butterfly flying in my stomach as I smile and scoop in my blanket.
I even touch my face and frown. I was in a cold roofless teris yet my face is so warm. Shizzz
I sigh. "Sheeess! I'm falling fast and hard!" I exclaimed.
Luigi: I'm sure about this.
Luigi: I think about this for a long time...
I slap my face trying to wake myself. Shit! It hurst! I'm not dreaming!
I pout when I remember the girl. I also remember my flaws.
Allison: I'm bit likable like other and also I have a lot of flaws.
Yes I like him. But it makes me wonder why he choose over the skinny girl.
Luigi's next words makes me tear up a bit.
Luigi: I daw something in you that I haven't see in others.
I can't reply to him. I don't know what to say. But all I know is this is yhe first tale of quarantine that I have.
I'm ready to believe his words when I try searching the girl. I frown when I can't see her account anymore.
I try again but i failed. So I open my writing account and there it is. I found her account.
It made me smirk. "Why do you keep on lying huh?"
But I want to be stubborn. Even though I know that this will gonna hurt me. Soo bad...
Since the night he confessed his feelings for me, he never message me. Not even once in one week.
I keep on sayinh that I know my worth but why do I keep on chasing a fucker like him who doesn't even sees me as an important person?
Luigi. He is the only man who I let to take over my mind. I let him occupied my heart.
So Martyr of me to do this shit. I never waited for anyone's message, but he makes me wait for days, weeks and months.
"I just want you to know that I hated it." Karyll said. She looks so dead serious.
I fake a smile. "Nah-- I'm good. I just want to feel how to shout it that he is mine. I will do anything just to call him mine."
Karyll look at me furiously. "Girl?! Where is Kiella? Fuck! Remember years ago you keep on cursing men? Because you know that you're father cheated on your mother and that's how the man hatred started but look at you now! Being a butter for a fucktard!"
I call her earlier to have some food trip. Quarantine is making it hard for us to meet. Limited time and limited things that we can do. It's hard.
I pout. "I can't even meet him. We only message each other. I will Always have time for him. But he doesn't have enough time for me..."
Karyll roll her eyes. "Girl, if he's serious about this? Then he will have time. Boys who is serious will always find ways to talk to their girls... I thought I can give him my blessing since I see how he can make you feel happy. But I'm wrong. Cause now I see sadness clouding your eyes."
Her words makes me pout. We never have time since quarantine is too tight.
I was stuck in Lola's rooftop. Waiting for his pop out message.
I just stare at star while wating for his massage. And as if my wish is being granted by the stars a massage from him pop in my screen.
Luigi: Sorry.
I should not laugh since hi said sorry. But for what? Why is he sorry? For not contacting me for a week?
Allison: Nah, it's okay.
No it's not okay. I'm not okay. I don't like it.
I want to know the truth so I ask him the question that bothered me long time ago.
Allison: I have a question.
Allison: I want you to be honest with me okay? Did you flirt with other this past few weeks or months? While we are not talking to each other?
I already know the answer. I just want to hear him be honest with me. I will forgive him. Just he need to tell me the truth.
Luigi: she's gone. I don't talk to her anymore.
I smile bitterly. "Ahh~ so there is another woman." I just did what I usually do. Kill em with blindness.
Luigi: But I'm sure that's it's you that I want.
With his words, my heart start to beat fast. I feel like I wanted to poop all of the sudden. Shiz.
Luigi: I'm really sorry.
My eyes shifted.
Allison: for what? Why do you keep sayinh you are sorry?
(For the lies?)
Luigi: Basta sorry.
I smile and decided to change the topic.
Allison: Your birtday is coming. Hahahha
Luigi: yeah. You need to give me a gift.
I smirk. I spoiled this man. I still remember giving him all the things that he want.
And I want to scold myself for spoiling him. I already have a gift for his birthday. I ordered it online. I want to give him something that will always gonna be with him.
Allison: I already have a gift for you.
Luigi: What is it?
I was about to type my reply when he send a new message.
Luigi: Uhmm... is it okay if...
It's look like he's thinking. I frown and ask. "What?"
Luigi: You. It's up to you."
My jaw literally drop. What the fuck? We are talking seriously and he just drop a bomb in me. I laugh.
I smile. I can't help it. I might stitch my lips to stop myself from smiling.
Allison: You already have me...
Luigi: you're reall that crazy huh?
Allison: But seriously, I want you. But it's also up to you.
I bite my lower lip. "I'm all yours." SHIZ!
I was having the best year of my life when I remember something important that both of us forgot.
"We are different in religion that makes us unfited to each other... fuck!"
//Some conversation of that drunken night//
Allison: Papsi
Allison: Why aggata. I??
Allison: You say mi saloyal?
Allison: Bibo a noy
Luigi: what?
Allison: Halabyu
Luigi: Are you even talking the same language with me?
(Allison send a voice message)
(Allison send a voice message)
Allisom: Em I annoying(!?
Luigi: Are you drunk?
(You missed a call from Luigi)
(You missed a call from Luigi)
Luigi: Hey!
Luigi: What? Are you sleeping?
Luigi: Hoy!!
=END=