When Morning came, I immediately look for my charger. I ghost smile appear in my lips when I saw Luigi's greetings.
Luigi: Goodmorning!
I greeted him back before lying back. Whenever I woke up, I always start my day with a coffee. Not with a phone. My coffee can wait. Oh, this is my coffee's first time being my second priority in the morning. So sorry coffee. I still love you by the way.
Luigi: Karyll is scary.
I frown. What? What did my baby tell my other baby?!
I gasp while reading the screenshot that Luigi send to me. "What the fuck?! Did my baby just give me to Luigi?!" Oh shit! This is freaking shocking!
Allison: Ugh!
Luigi: Hmm? What will you do now? You can go with Karyll with samba.
I smile. How will I tell him that I will not change my religion just to be with him?
I jokingly Reply to his message.
Allison: They're giving me to you. Hahahaha.
As soon as I got my ass off the airbed, I start doing my daily routine. I have a training for today so I gotta get my ass on work!
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"We are going to have a promotion next month. I hope you can level up your position." I was in my coach's gym listening to him.
"Do you remember Christian?" Samantha ask me while fixing her long hair.
We are not from the same school but our Coach made me part of their team which makes me to have new teammates. Samantha is kind and that's what I like about her.
"Yup. He's the one who keeps on eating chocolates when I first fight with you guys." He's cute. And he kinda got my attention back then. That time Luigi and I are still stranger to each other.
"He have a killer high kick too. Just like yours." I nod at her information. "I Haven't any encounter with him." I said honestly.
Samantha smirk at me. "Girl, you have high kicks and you always targeting our head. You can have a friendly sparring with him if you want."
Oh shoot. I'm still not confident with myself. I always go with the flow. I shake my head as an answer. "Still not ready."
She laughs "You can't say that to coach. He will surely put you in the rubber matt to play with boys. Coach trusted your capabilities."
I shake my head before chuckling. Nah, coach doesn't see me as a girl. That's why he keep on putting me with men. He wanted to see how much I can do.
I still remember why I choose to join Taekwondo team. Because of jealousy. Because I want to be someone's favorite. I want to be idolized too.
But little by little I learn to love this sports. Because I can use it to protect those who I want to protect and because it relieves my stress.
"He looks not so friendly." I commented. Samantha give me a weird look. "Nope. You just need to have a conversation with him then you will know that he's kind."
I scratch my neck. I don't want to be involved with another boy. Luigi is enough.
Another busy weeks passed. I was having a bad day. Shit! I feel like I'm being ghosted by Luigi since we become officially couple.
"Are you okay?" Karyll ask. Every time I'm stress out, I gotta eat with her.
I shake my head and pout. "Hmp! Luigi didn't text or call me. I'm annoyed."
Karyll raise a brow. "Did you chat him?" She ask. I nod my head. "He's too busy. They have fourty pieces cakes to make since it's a rush order."
"Eh That's why!" Karyll exclaimed. I shake my head. "Nope. Even though he's that busy he should atleast have time to me. Even a second to say hi."
It hurts to always wait for him. To think of it, I don't have assurance with him.
Karyll suddenly laugh. "Girl, let your pissed off mind cool down by eating shave ice. Come on!"
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//AUGUST 20//
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Two months of being with him without a proper conversation is hard. But I never complain about it. Because I know that we still have our own priorities.
I frown as I listen to Olivia Rodrigo'a music.
I wore makeup when we dated
'Cause I thought you'd like me more
If I looked like the other prom queens
I know that you loved before
Tried so hard to be everything that you liked
Just for you to say you're not the compliment type~
I was Schock when a massage suddenly pop in my notification. It was from Luigi.
Luigi: Hey, I'm sorry if I just reply to you right now.
Luigi: I was outcasted by my family.
I suddenly felt a shiver in my spain. What the fuck?! Worry suddenly eat me. It's already late at night.
And I knew how you took your coffee
And your favorite songs by heart
I read all of your self-help books
So you'd think that I was smart
Stupid, emotional, obsessive little me
I knew from the start this is exactly how you'd leave~
Allison: What happened? Where are you? Are you okay?
Luigi: Slight hahahaha.
Allison: What happened ba?
Luigi: I will go home in Malabon.
My hand stop midway from typing when I read that. He will leave me. Here.
You found someone more exciting
The next second, you were gone
And you left me there cryin', wonderin' what I did wrong
And you always say I'm never satisfied
But I don't think that's true
'Cause all I ever wanted was to be enough for you
And all I ever wanted was to be enough for you~
I lone tears escape my eyes. How can he do this without telling me? I didn't even prepare my emotion.
And maybe I'm just not as interesting
As the girls you had before
But God, you couldn't have cared less
About someone who loved you more
I'd say you broke my heart
But you broke much more than that
Now I don't want your sympathy
I just want myself back~
My eyes won't stop from crying silently. It's hurts. I turn off my phone for a while and cry. I don't want to blame him.
It's hurts. So much! I pat myself. Come on, you need to be strong. Hold your emotions...
I try being brave and continue talking to him by a phone.
Allison: Are you sure about it?
Allison: Take care.
Luigi: I'm on my way back to my old hometown.
Luigi: But I will always be there after this lockdown.
Don't you think I loved you too much to be used and discarded?
Don't you think I loved you too much to think I deserve nothing?
But don't tell me you're sorry, boy
Feel sorry for yourself
'Cause someday I'll be everything to somebody else
And they'll think that I am so exciting
And you'll be the one who's crying~
Allison: Always take care okay?
Allison: stay safe.
Allison: I love you.
Luigi: I will be back.
Luigi: every Saturday and sunday.
Allison: Be careful on your way.
Luigi: Opo
Luigi: Promise me that you will not look at other boys
Luigi: I will be back to you.
I smile while my tears keep on streaming down my face.
Allison: Make sure that you will come back for me.
Luigi: I love you...
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He did not came back. Until one day, I saw it in the girls Instagram account. That they are together.
Don't you think I loved you too much to be used and discarded?
Don't you think I loved you too much to think I deserve nothing?
But don't tell me you're sorry, boy
Feel sorry for yourself
'Cause someday I'll be everything to somebody else
And they'll think that I am so exciting
And you'll be the one who's crying~
Fuck. Where I am in Luigi's heart for 3 months of being together?
And then one day I will know that he's using me. Did he ever love me?
Yeah, you always say I'm never satisfied
But I don't think that's true
You say I'm never satisfied
But that's not me, it's you~
This when I decided to call it off.
Allison: Luigi, let's end this...
Cause all I ever wanted was to be enough
But I don't think anything could ever be enough
For you, enough for you, oh-oh
No, nothing's enough for you~
(Luigi missed a call from you)
Allison: Answer me.
Luigi: It's up to you.
Allison:Sorry.
Luigi: Sorry.
Luigi: For being an idiot. For loosing you...
Allison: It's not your fault. I told you before. I'm a freaking mess. That's why I mess our relationship. I lost someone who is very important to me and that is you.
Luigi: But you won't lost me if I become a good boyfriend.
Allison: You're been my escape from this chaos. But then I have lots of what ifs that's why I choose to end our relationship. It's a selfish move I know. But I have too. Because I thought after this you're still my bestfriend.
Luigi: Actually you are right.
Luigi: I can be your bestfriend.
Allison: Are we good now?
Luigi; I don't know.
Luigi: I think we need to make our self happy.
Luigi: Like we need space.
Luigi: And let's talk about it after we are done.
Allison: You mean cool off?
Allison: Or are you gonna let go?
Luigi; I don't know. Sorry.
Allison: Ugh! So i don't know if I'm still single or taken?
Luigi: Just enjoy your life.
Allison: Goodbye Luigi. I hope when the time is right we can find each other again...
Luigi: I hope so...